All the Little Lights
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“Why were you having a meeting about me?”
Althea touched my cheek with her warm palm and smiled with maternal affection. “You don’t worry about anything, you hear me? We’ve got it all taken care of.”
“What? You’ve got what taken care of?”
“How to keep this place going. There aren’t a lot of us, but we depend on the Juniper. We’re working together.”
“But why were you talking about me?”
“Because you’re part of it, baby.”
“But . . . Mama said you didn’t think I should stay.”
“I don’t,” she said, fidgeting with her dress again. “But I was outvoted. Now it’s my job to make sure you’re happy here.”
I smiled at her. “Isn’t that my job?”
Althea’s eyes filled with happy tears, and she kissed my cheek. “My goodness. Look what you’ve gone and done.” She dug into her pocket and pulled out a tissue. She leaned in, touching my knee. “You go to that game, and you show those girls they can’t run you off. Elliott’s a good boy. He’ll take care of you.”
“He says he loves me.”
“Loves you?” She blew out a breath through her lips. “Well, what’s not to love?”
I sat on the bed, watching Althea gather herself. She walked over to my dresser and picked up the music box, giving it a few turns before waving to me and closing the door behind her. I lay back, looking up at the ceiling, letting my eyes grow heavy to the familiar chime.
Chapter Twenty
Catherine
Madison had only been driving forty-five minutes before the sun began to set. Sleet had been forecast for the way home, but fifteen minutes from Oklahoma City, tiny balls of white began to plink against the windshield.
“Don’t worry,” Madison said. “My dad made me pack an entire arsenal of winter survival gear in the back.”
“Is this really your first time driving to a game out of town?” I asked.
“Yes,” she said sheepishly. “I usually drive with my parents, but now that I have you to come with me . . .”
I smiled. It felt nice to be wanted.
“Thanks for inviting me. I didn’t know I wanted to go.”
She shrugged, keeping her eyes on the road. “You work a lot. You have more responsibilities than most of us. I’ll just remind you now and then. I mean, if that’s okay. I don’t know, you might not even like me.”
I chuckled. “I like you.”
“Good.” She smiled. “That’s good. I don’t have many friends. Most people think I’m . . . quirky.”
“Me too.”
Madison was a breath of fresh air. She reminded me of the way Elliott made me feel: relaxed and normal. He was right about introducing me to her, and I wondered if he knew me better than I knew myself.
Madison gasped and reached for the radio. She turned up the volume and bobbed her head. “Gah, I love this song.”
I smiled and sat back, closing my eyes. The music flowed through the speakers and into me. Madison’s buoyant mood was contagious, filling the car and making the corners of my mouth turn up. She began to giggle for no reason, so much that I did, too. Our giggling turned into a barrage of laughter, wheezing, and failed attempts to stop. Madison wiped away tears, her fingers and the windshield wipers working extra hard to help her see.
“What was that?” I asked, still chuckling.
“I don’t know,” she said. She held her breath, and a laugh escaped again, then we started all over.
After five minutes of uncontrollable laughter, Oklahoma City traffic converged, and Madison wiped her cheeks, concentrating on the road.
“I haven’t done that in a long time. Since I was little. It felt good but weird,” I said.
“Like you laughed so hard you felt like crying?”
I nodded.
“Oh my God! I thought that was just me. I feel exhausted after. Depressed almost.”
“Yep, I’m there,” I said.
Madison’s bottom lip quivered. “Will you still be my friend if I cry?”
I nodded, and tears streamed down her face. She choked out a cry, and I felt my eyes start to water. I hadn’t really cried in years, and here I was with Madison, practically a stranger, allowing myself some vulnerability.
She glanced at me. “It’s nice to be weird with someone else.”
I breathed out a laugh. “It kind of is.”
“You live with a lot of people. You must not ever feel lonely.”
“I do, actually.”
Madison stared forward, her lip trembling again. “Me too. I don’t tell anyone. Please don’t tell Sam. It would make him sad.”
“Why?”
“Because up until now, he’s been my only friend. He worries that’s why I keep him around.”
“Is it?”
“No.” She shook her head and turned to me, smiling with wet eyes. “I love him. Since we were eleven.” She paused. “You know what? I think Elliott loves you also.”
I nodded, looking down at my hands clasped in my lap. “He says so.”
“He does?” she asked, her voice an octave higher. “Did you say it back?”
“Yeah,” I said with a smile, waiting for judgment. There was none.
“Then I can finally tell you . . . he talks about you constantly.” She rolled her eyes. “In geography. And lit. Before you finally forgave him, it was worse.”
“Oh, he told you about that?”
She shook her head. “Only that he was trying to say sorry and you wouldn’t forgive him. I asked, but he wouldn’t tell me. You can, though, if you want.”
She was only half teasing, but it was nice to talk to someone else. This was something I could talk about without consequences. “I met him the summer after my freshman year.”
She grinned. “He told me that part.”
“We spent pretty much every day together after that. I knew he would go back at some point, but then my dad died. Elliott had to leave. He wasn’t allowed to say goodbye, but I didn’t know that at the time.”
“Oh God. You thought he just saw that your dad died and bailed?”
I nodded.
“He felt wretched. He came here for you, I know that.”
“Did . . .” I trailed off, not sure how open I should be. Madison waited patiently, and it made me feel comfortable continuing. “Did he ever say why?”
Madison blurted out a laugh and covered her mouth. “For you, silly.”
“No, I know. But why me?”
“You don’t know?” I shook my head. “Oh. Uh-uh. I’m not going to be the one. You’re going to have to ask him.”
“I have. He won’t tell me.”
Madison’s expression turned to sympathy. “Aw! I can’t believe he hasn’t told you. It’s so sweet!”
I tried not to smile while I imagined sweet reasons Elliott was so devoted to me.
“Well, now that we’ve been through every emotion possible, here we are,” Madison said, pulling in the drive to the school. She drove slowly through the parking lot, trying to find a spot. It took longer than Madison expected, but we found an open parking space in a dark corner of the lot.
I stepped out, feeling the coldness permeate every part of me. I began to shiver after just a few seconds. “This is a perfect place for Presley’s surprise. I’m thinking pig’s blood. Hopefully it’s warm.”