I grab a Milky Way and sigh with pleasure. I really do love that man.
I’ve peeled the wrapper back and am half-gnawing and half-sucking on the candy bar as I step out of the kitchen to see if Damien left the paper for me on the coffee table.
But it’s not the paper that I find, it’s the man himself. He’s sitting on the sofa in sweatpants and a ratty white T-shirt. And perched on his lap, eating cheese puffs from a purple bowl, is our nephew, Jeffery.
And in that moment, it’s as if the entire world has turned inside out. Before, I had no trouble believing the theory that Damien could be a dad. Now, though, I see it in practice. And I press my fingertips to my lips to stave off a fresh wave of tears.
Damien hasn’t noticed me yet—his head is down, and there are papers scattered on the couch beside him. He’s holding one sheet in his hand and talking in a low voice, as if he’s running down a list of project specs for Jeffery.
As for the kiddo, he’s clearly having a blast. His mouth is bright orange, and his fingers are, too. He keeps saying “re-re”— which is Jeffery-speak for “read”—and grabbing for the paper with his orange-stained fingers.
Damien manages to keep the sheet away from him—at least until he looks up, sees me, and goes still. Which, of course, is when Jeffery grabs the paper and starts to chew on it.
“Nikki,” Damien says, deftly rescuing the slightly stained corporate document. “Good morning.”
“To you, too.” I move into the room and sit on the opposite end of the couch, so as not to crumple the papers. “Looks like we have company this morning,” I add, waving at Jeffery, who grins back at me and shouts, “Ni-Ni!”
“Stella has a doctor’s appointment,” Damien explains, referring to Jeffery’s nanny. “Syl brought the baby to work with her, but then she had a crisis come up on a project in Glendale that she has to handle before you three head out.”
“And there was no one else in the whole of Stark International who could watch this little guy,” I tease.
“I might have specifically requested the job,” he admits. “Get in a little practice on someone else’s kid.”
“I understand that,” I say, switching to a baby voice and bending over to play peek-a-boo, which makes Jeffery giggle. After a second, I glance back up at Damien. “Did you say three? There are four of us going to the spa.”
Tonight’s the premiere for The Price of Ransom, and Sylvia, Jane, Jamie, and I are all going to the spa for hair, makeup, and mani-pedis.
“According to Syl, Jamie’s being prepped and primped at the studio, and then being whisked to the theater in a network news van.”
“Of course, she is,” I say, and though I’m disappointed about missing Jamie today, I’m excited for her. “We’re giving her an exclusive,” I tell Damien. “I forgot to tell you.”
“Courting the press are we?” he teases, and I roll my eyes.
“Yeah, that’s me. Anything to get into the tabloids.”
One of the promotional flyers for tonight’s premiere and fundraiser is open on the coffee table, and I reach for it. The Stark Children’s Foundation is sponsoring the screening and the red carpet pre-party, which includes cocktail and food stations, photo booths, and a silent auction. All of the proceeds go to fund the foundation’s scholarships.
“It’s going to be a great event,” I say, looking at the flyer and the sweet faces of some of the younger kids the foundation has helped. I know how much the organization means to Damien—how much he both gave up and gained when he went public with his own history of abuse. Now, I trace my fingertip over the face of a little girl with inquisitive green eyes, and the thought that anyone ever hurt this poor child makes me sick.
I rest my hands protectively over my belly and then turn to Damien, only to find him already looking at me. “I’m sorry about last night,” I say, even as he says the exact same thing.
We both laugh, and though I wait for him to tell me what he’s been hiding, the words don’t come. My disappointment must show on my face because he stands up, Jeffery propped on his hip. He moves to sit on the table in front of me, then leans forward and tilts my head up for a kiss.
“Don’t stop trusting me, Nikki. Everything I am. Everything I do, it’s with you in mind. With us in mind.” He puts his hand over mine. “There is no moment when I’m not thinking of you, and I would destroy myself before I’d risk hurting you.”
“I know,” I say. “I do. But trust isn’t a panacea any more than it’s a curtain to hide behind.”
“It’s not, you’re right. But I’m not trying to hide things from you—I swear. I just need time.”
I reach for Jeffery, who’s starting to fuss, then bounce him on my knee. “Time for what?” I demand. “What is this about? I mean, are you—oh.” I hug Jeffery closer. “This is about the text messages.”
I lean back against the couch with a heavy sigh. I should have realized last night. Of course, he was out chasing answers.
“You should have just told me,” I say. “What have you learned? Who is it? Is it my mother?”
“I don’t know. I thought—” He cuts himself off with a shake of his head. “I don’t know yet.” He leans forward, one hand on my knee and the other on my cheek. “I’m going to find out, though. I promise you that.”
I draw a deep breath, then nod. “Last night was horrible,” I say. “I don’t like it when there’s a chasm between us.”
“Neither do I, baby. But there’s always a bridge.”
“You’re remarkably calm for someone with a movie opening in just a few hours,” I say to Jane, who’s sitting between Sylvia and me. Our feet are in the warm, swirling water, our heads are wrapped in towels to cover the conditioning goop, and we’re each about to get our pedicures.
“It’s all an act,” she says with a smile that shows off her incredible cheekbones. “Actually, I think it just hasn’t set in. I’ve been living the book and the script for so long, that I can’t believe it’s finally, really a movie.” Her brown eyes shine as she smiles, and she brushes a lock of dark hair off her face. “It’s pretty amazing, though, isn’t it?”
I’ve peeled the wrapper back and am half-gnawing and half-sucking on the candy bar as I step out of the kitchen to see if Damien left the paper for me on the coffee table.
But it’s not the paper that I find, it’s the man himself. He’s sitting on the sofa in sweatpants and a ratty white T-shirt. And perched on his lap, eating cheese puffs from a purple bowl, is our nephew, Jeffery.
And in that moment, it’s as if the entire world has turned inside out. Before, I had no trouble believing the theory that Damien could be a dad. Now, though, I see it in practice. And I press my fingertips to my lips to stave off a fresh wave of tears.
Damien hasn’t noticed me yet—his head is down, and there are papers scattered on the couch beside him. He’s holding one sheet in his hand and talking in a low voice, as if he’s running down a list of project specs for Jeffery.
As for the kiddo, he’s clearly having a blast. His mouth is bright orange, and his fingers are, too. He keeps saying “re-re”— which is Jeffery-speak for “read”—and grabbing for the paper with his orange-stained fingers.
Damien manages to keep the sheet away from him—at least until he looks up, sees me, and goes still. Which, of course, is when Jeffery grabs the paper and starts to chew on it.
“Nikki,” Damien says, deftly rescuing the slightly stained corporate document. “Good morning.”
“To you, too.” I move into the room and sit on the opposite end of the couch, so as not to crumple the papers. “Looks like we have company this morning,” I add, waving at Jeffery, who grins back at me and shouts, “Ni-Ni!”
“Stella has a doctor’s appointment,” Damien explains, referring to Jeffery’s nanny. “Syl brought the baby to work with her, but then she had a crisis come up on a project in Glendale that she has to handle before you three head out.”
“And there was no one else in the whole of Stark International who could watch this little guy,” I tease.
“I might have specifically requested the job,” he admits. “Get in a little practice on someone else’s kid.”
“I understand that,” I say, switching to a baby voice and bending over to play peek-a-boo, which makes Jeffery giggle. After a second, I glance back up at Damien. “Did you say three? There are four of us going to the spa.”
Tonight’s the premiere for The Price of Ransom, and Sylvia, Jane, Jamie, and I are all going to the spa for hair, makeup, and mani-pedis.
“According to Syl, Jamie’s being prepped and primped at the studio, and then being whisked to the theater in a network news van.”
“Of course, she is,” I say, and though I’m disappointed about missing Jamie today, I’m excited for her. “We’re giving her an exclusive,” I tell Damien. “I forgot to tell you.”
“Courting the press are we?” he teases, and I roll my eyes.
“Yeah, that’s me. Anything to get into the tabloids.”
One of the promotional flyers for tonight’s premiere and fundraiser is open on the coffee table, and I reach for it. The Stark Children’s Foundation is sponsoring the screening and the red carpet pre-party, which includes cocktail and food stations, photo booths, and a silent auction. All of the proceeds go to fund the foundation’s scholarships.
“It’s going to be a great event,” I say, looking at the flyer and the sweet faces of some of the younger kids the foundation has helped. I know how much the organization means to Damien—how much he both gave up and gained when he went public with his own history of abuse. Now, I trace my fingertip over the face of a little girl with inquisitive green eyes, and the thought that anyone ever hurt this poor child makes me sick.
I rest my hands protectively over my belly and then turn to Damien, only to find him already looking at me. “I’m sorry about last night,” I say, even as he says the exact same thing.
We both laugh, and though I wait for him to tell me what he’s been hiding, the words don’t come. My disappointment must show on my face because he stands up, Jeffery propped on his hip. He moves to sit on the table in front of me, then leans forward and tilts my head up for a kiss.
“Don’t stop trusting me, Nikki. Everything I am. Everything I do, it’s with you in mind. With us in mind.” He puts his hand over mine. “There is no moment when I’m not thinking of you, and I would destroy myself before I’d risk hurting you.”
“I know,” I say. “I do. But trust isn’t a panacea any more than it’s a curtain to hide behind.”
“It’s not, you’re right. But I’m not trying to hide things from you—I swear. I just need time.”
I reach for Jeffery, who’s starting to fuss, then bounce him on my knee. “Time for what?” I demand. “What is this about? I mean, are you—oh.” I hug Jeffery closer. “This is about the text messages.”
I lean back against the couch with a heavy sigh. I should have realized last night. Of course, he was out chasing answers.
“You should have just told me,” I say. “What have you learned? Who is it? Is it my mother?”
“I don’t know. I thought—” He cuts himself off with a shake of his head. “I don’t know yet.” He leans forward, one hand on my knee and the other on my cheek. “I’m going to find out, though. I promise you that.”
I draw a deep breath, then nod. “Last night was horrible,” I say. “I don’t like it when there’s a chasm between us.”
“Neither do I, baby. But there’s always a bridge.”
“You’re remarkably calm for someone with a movie opening in just a few hours,” I say to Jane, who’s sitting between Sylvia and me. Our feet are in the warm, swirling water, our heads are wrapped in towels to cover the conditioning goop, and we’re each about to get our pedicures.
“It’s all an act,” she says with a smile that shows off her incredible cheekbones. “Actually, I think it just hasn’t set in. I’ve been living the book and the script for so long, that I can’t believe it’s finally, really a movie.” Her brown eyes shine as she smiles, and she brushes a lock of dark hair off her face. “It’s pretty amazing, though, isn’t it?”
