Anna and the French Kiss
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she be upset about Étienne and me?
I hate Amanda.
When the head asked Isla for the story, she defended me, which is the only reason I don’t have detention for the rest of the year. She also took my cue;
she didn’t tell the head what Amanda said about Mer. I thanked her silently with my eyes.
We return to Résidence Lambert, and everyone is hanging around the lobby. Word of our fight has spread, and our classmates are looking for bruises.
They shout questions at us, as if this is a press conference for shamed celebrities, but I ignore them and push my way past. Amanda is already holding
court, spreading her side of the story.
Whatever. I’m too furious to deal with that crap now.
I pass Dave and Mike in the stairwel . Mike does that dumb thing jerks do where they purposely bump your shoulder with theirs to throw you off balance.
“What the hel is your problem?” I shout.
Dave and Mike exchange surprised, self-satisfied smirks.
I stomp into my room. Everyone hates me. Étienne ditched me for his girlfriend. AGAIN. Meredith hates me, and Rashmi and Josh certainly aren’t
pleased. Dave and Mike hate me. And Amanda and her friends, and now everyone else downstairs, too. If only I’d taken Rashmi’s advice. If only I’d
stayed in my room, Mer wouldn’t have yel ed at me. I wouldn’t know Étienne chose El ie. I wouldn’t have attacked Amanda. And I wouldn’t have detention
for the next two weeks.
WHY IS ÉTIENNE CHOOSING ELLIE? WHY?
Étienne. Who has perfect lips and perfect kisses. Who tastes like honey. Who will never, ever, EVER give up his stupid girlfriend! I’m startled by a
knock on my door. I’m worked into such a frenzy that I didn’t hear the footsteps.
“Anna? Anna are you in there?”
My heart seizes. The voice is English.
“Are you all right? Amanda’s downstairs, talking complete bol ocks. She says you hit her?” He knocks again, louder. “Please, Anna. We need to talk.”
I throw open the door. “Talk? Oh, you’d like to talk now?”
Étienne stares at me in shock.The whites of my eyes are stil red, I have a two-inch scratch down my cheek, and my body is poised for attack. “Anna?”
“What, you didn’t think I’d find out you went to El ie’s?”
He’s thrown. “Wh-what?”
“Wel ?” I cross my arms. “Did you?”
He didn’t expect me to know this. “Yes, but . . . but—”
“But what? You must think I’m a complete idiot, right? That I’m just some doormat who’l wait for you on the sidelines forever? That you can keep running back to her every time things get difficult, and I’l just be okay with it?”
“It’s not like that!”
“It’s ALWAYS like that!”
Étienne opens his mouth but then snaps it shut. His expression flips between hurt and fury a thousand times. And then it hardens. And then he storms
away.
“I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO TALK!” I say.
I slam my door.
Chapter forty-one
Let’s see. Yesterday, I: (1) made out with my best friend, even though I swore to myself I never would, (2) betrayed another friend by that same make-out session, (3) brawled with a girl who was already out to get me, (4) earned two weeks of detention, and (5) verbal y attacked my best friend until he ran
away.
Correction. Until he ran away again.
If there were a contest to see who could do more damage to herself in a single day, I’m pretty confident I would win. My mother spat fire when she found
out about my fight with Amanda, and now I’m grounded for the entire summer. I can’t even face my friends. I’m ashamed of what I’ve done to Meredith, and
Rashmi and Josh have clearly taken her side, and St. Clair . . . he won’t even look at me.
St. Clair. Once again, he’s no longer Étienne, my Étienne.
That hurts worse than anything.
The whole morning is hideous. I skip breakfast and slip into English at the last possible second. My friends don’t acknowledge my existence, but
everyone else whispers and stares. I guess they’re taking Amanda’s side. I just hope they don’t know about the St. Clair situation, which is unlikely
considering how loudly I shouted at him in the hal way last night. I spend the class sneaking peeks at him. He’s so exhausted that he can barely keep his eyes open, and I don’t think he’s showered.
But he’s stil beautiful. I hate that. And I hate myself for desperately wanting him to look at me, and I hate it even more when Amanda catches me staring, because then she smirks in a way that says, See? I told you he was out of your league.
And Mer. She doesn’t have to turn her body away from me in her seat like St. Clair—although she does, they both do—because her waves of hostility
crash into me, again and again, all period long. Calculus is an extension of this misery. When Professeur Babineaux hands back our homework, St. Clair
passes the stack of papers behind his head without looking at me. “Thanks,” I mumble. He freezes, just for a moment, before settling back into a rigid
state of ignorance to my being.
I don’t try talking to him again.
French is predictably bad. Dave sits as far from me as possible, but the way he ignores me is strange and purposeful. Some of the freshmen pester
me about it, but I don’t know what Dave’s problem is, and thinking about him only makes me feel gross inside. I tell the annoying classmates to shove it, and Madame Guil otine gets mad at me. Not because I told them to shove it, but because I didn’t say it in French. What is wrong with this school?
At lunch, I’m back in the bathroom stal , just like my first day.
I don’t have an appetite anyway.
In physics, I’m grateful we don’t have a lab, because I can’t bear the thought of St. Clair finding a new partner. Professeur Wakefield drones on about
black holes, and halfway through his lecture, Amanda gives an exaggerated stretch and drops a folded piece of paper behind her head. It lands at my
feet. I read it underneath my desk.
HEY SKUNK GIRL, MESS WITH ME AGAIN & I’LL GIVE YOU MORE THAN A SCRATCH. DAVE SAYS YER A SLUTBAG.
Wow. Can’t say anyone’s ever cal ed me that before. But why is Dave talking to Amanda about me? That’s the second time Amanda has said