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They ordered more pizza. Dave and Christine’s three-year-old fell asleep on the floor, watching Toy Story.
Lincoln stayed after the game ended and everyone else went home. Dave opened a window, and the three of them sat on couches, breathing cool, clean air and listening to Christine’s wind chimes.
“You know what we should do now?” Dave said, rubbing his 2:00 a.m. stubble.
“What?” Lincoln said.
“Axis and Allies.”
Christine threw a pillow at him. “God, no.”
Dave caught it. “Lincoln wants to play Axis and Allies. I can see it in his eyes …”
“I think Lincoln wants to tell us what he’s been doing with himself lately.” Christine smiled warmly at Lincoln. Everything about her was warm and soft and welcoming.
They’d kissed once, in college, in his dorm room, before Christine had started dating Dave. Lincoln had offered to help her study for a physics final. Christine didn’t need to take physics; she wanted to be an English teacher. But she told Lincoln that she didn’t want to live in a world she didn’t understand, that she didn’t want a faith-based relationship with things like centrifugal force and gravity. As she said it, she kicked off her sandals and sat Indian-style on his bed. She had long, wavy, wheaty hair that never looked brushed.
Christine told Lincoln that he explained everything so much better than her physics professor, a stern man with a Slavic accent who acted offended every time she asked a stupid question. Lincoln told her that her questions weren’t stupid, and she hugged him. That’s when he kissed her. It was like kissing a warm bath.
“That was nice,” Christine said when he pulled away. He couldn’t tell whether she wanted him to kiss her again. She was smiling. She looked happy, but that didn’t mean anything. She always looked happy …
“Do you feel ready for your test?” he asked.
“Could we go over torque one more time?”
“Sure,” he said, “yeah.” Christine smiled some more. They went back to studying, and she ended up getting a B on her physics final.
Sometimes, Lincoln wished that he would have kept kissing her that night. It would be so easy to love Christine, to be in love with her. You’d never raise your voice. She’d never be mean.
But he wasn’t jealous when she started dating Dave a few months later. Christine radiated happy when she was with Dave. And Dave, who could really, truly, be painfully intense sometimes—the kind of guy who leans in too far when he’s making a point, who might still be snippy with you two weeks after your D&D character had bested his in a swordfight—was loose and forgiving when Christine was around. Lincoln liked their messy-warm house, their messy-round kids, their living room with too many lamps and pillows, the way their voices softened when they talked to each other.
“I think,” Lincoln said, “if we started an Axis and Allies game right now, I’d fall asleep before Russia was done buying tanks.”
“Is that a yes?” Dave asked.
“That’s a no,” Christine said. “You should sleep here, Lincoln. You look too tired to drive.”
“Yeah, stay,” Dave said, “we’ll make blueberry pancakes for breakfast.”
Lincoln stayed. He slept on the couch, and when he woke up, he helped Christine make pancakes and argued with Dave about the plot of a fantasy novel they’d both read. After breakfast, they made him promise to come to next week’s game.
“We still have to catch up,” Christine said.
“Yeah,” Dave said. “You still haven’t told us about your job.”
IT WAS SUCH a good weekend that Lincoln still felt cheerful and un-lonely when he got to work Monday night. He was feeling practically sunny when his sister called.
“Have you read any more of that parachute book?” she asked.
“No. It’s too intimidating.”
“What is?”
“The book,” he said. “The future.”
“So you’re done with the future?”
“I’m tightening my focus.”
“To what?”
“The near future,” he said. “I can handle the near future. Tonight, for example, I’m going to read for pleasure. Tomorrow, I’m going to have a beer with lunch. On Saturday, I’m going to play Dungeons & Dragons. And Sunday, I might go see a movie. That’s my plan.”
“That isn’t a plan,” she said.
“It is. It’s my plan. And I feel really good about it.”
“Those aren’t things you plan. You don’t plan to read or to have a beer with lunch. Those are things you do when you have a moment between planned events. Those are incidentals.”
“Not for me,” he said. “That’s my plan.”
“You’re backsliding.”
“Or maybe I’m frontsliding.”
“I can’t talk to you anymore,” Eve said. “Call me this weekend.”
“I’ll pencil you in.”
ALL THE Y2K stuff was keeping Lincoln busier at work—he was helping with the coding and trying to keep track of Greg’s strike force—but he still had hours of free time every night. On Friday night, when he told himself how lucky he was to get paid to reread Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series, he mostly believed it.
Money and time, those were the two things that he always heard people complaining about, and he had plenty of both.
There wasn’t anything Lincoln wanted that he couldn’t afford. What did he really want, anyway? To buy new books when they came out in hardback. To not have to think about how much money was in his wallet when he was ordering dinner. Maybe new sneakers …And there wasn’t anything he wanted to do that he couldn’t make time for. What did he have to mope about, really? What more did he want?
Love, he could hear Eve saying. Purpose.
Love. Purpose. Those are the things that you can’t plan for. Those are the things that just happen.
And what if they don’t happen? Do you spend your whole life pining for them? Waiting to be happy?
That night, Lincoln got an e-mail from Dave saying that Saturday’s D&D game was off. One of their kids had rotavirus, which Lincoln had never even heard of. It sounded awful. He pictured a virus with rotating blades and an engine. Dave said there’d been lots of vomiting, that they’d had to go to the emergency room, and Christine was scared to death.
“We’ll probably be on hiatus for the next couple weekends,” Dave had written.
“No problem,” Lincoln messaged back. “I hope he feels better. Get some rest.”
Poor kid. Poor Christine.
This isn’t a big deal, Lincoln told himself. The plan is flexible. He could still go see a movie this weekend. He could pick up his comics. He could call Justin.
There were twenty-three red-flagged messages in the WebFence folder. There might even be something in there that Lincoln should take care of. He opened it, telling himself that he may as well earn an hour of his paycheck tonight.
He opened it, hoping.
CHAPTER 21
From: Beth Fremont
To: Jennifer Scribner-Snyder
Sent: Thurs, 09/30/1999 3:42 PM
Subject: If you were Superman …
…and you could choose any alter ego you wanted, why the hell would you choose to spend your Clark Kent hours—which already suck because you have to wear glasses and you can’t fly—at a newspaper?
Why not pose as a wealthy playboy like Batman? Or the leader of a small but important nation like Black Panther?
Why would you choose to spend your days on deadline, making crap money, dealing with terminally crabby editors?
<<Jennifer to Beth>> I thought we agreed not to swear in e-mails.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> We agreed that it would probably be a good idea to stop swearing in e-mails.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Still thinking about Lois Lane?
<<Beth to Jennifer>> Sort of. I mean, I get why Lois Lane went to journalism school. I know her type. Wants to make a difference, wants to uncover great truths. Nosy. But Clark Kent …why not Clark Kent, sexy TV weatherman? Or Clark Kent, mayor of Cincinnati?
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Aren’t you missing the point? Clark Kent doesn’t want to be famous. He doesn’t want people to look at him. If they really look at him, they’d see that he’s just Superman with glasses.
Plus, he needs to be someplace like a newsroom, where he’s the first to hear big news. He can’t afford to read “Joker attacks moon” the next day in the newspaper.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> You make an excellent point. Especially for someone who doesn’t know that Superman never fights the Joker.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Especially for someone who doesn’t care. I hope you’re not right about life sucking for everyone who can’t fly and wears glasses. That describes everyone in this room.
What are you working on?
<<Beth to Jennifer>> We do all wear glasses. Weird.
Another Indian Hills story. I’m not so much working as I am waiting for a phone call.
It turns out, the hospital next door to the theater already bought the land. Months ago. They’re going to make it a parking lot. I’m waiting for the hospital spokesperson to call me back so that she can say, “No comment.” And then I can write, “Hospital officials would not comment on the sale.” And then I can go home.
Do you know how mind-numbing it is to sit around waiting for someone to call you back so that they can officially tell you nothing? I just don’t think Superman would stand for it. He could be out finding lost Boy Scouts and plugging volcanoes with giant boulders.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Superman works at a newspaper because he’s trying to get with Lois Lane.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> He probably makes twice as much as she does.
CHAPTER 22
ON FRIDAY MORNING , Lincoln picked up a spring schedule from the city college. There was a professor in the anthropology department who specialized in Afghan studies. Why not take a few classes? He had plenty of time during the day, and he could always study at work. He’d love to study at work.
“What is this?” his mother asked when she saw the class schedule.
“Something that I thought I’d put in my backpack.” He took the brochure from her hands.
“Seriously, Mom, what are you doing in my bag? Are you steaming open my mail, too?”
“You don’t get any mail.” She folded her arms. You could never be offended or dismayed with her —she always beat you to it. “I was checking your bag for dirty dishes,” she said. “Do those papers mean that you’re going back to school?”
“Not immediately.” The fall semester had already started.
“I don’t know how I feel about that, Lincoln. I’m starting to think you might have a problem. With school.”
“I’ve never had a problem with school,” he said, knowing how lame that sounded, knowing that refusing to take part in the conversation wasn’t the same as avoiding it.
“You know what I mean,” she said. She wagged a dirty spoon at him. “A problem. Like those women who get addicted to plastic surgery. They keep going back and going back, trying to look better until there is no more better. Like they can’t look better because they don’t even look like themselves anymore. And then it’s just about looking different, I think. I saw this woman in a magazine who looked just like a cat. Like a cat of prey, a big cat. Have you ever seen her? She has a lot of money. I think she might be from Austria.”
“No,” he said.
“Well, she looks very unhappy.”
“Okay,” he said quietly, shoving the schedule back into his backpack.
“Okay?”
“You don’t want me to go back to school, or have plastic surgery to make myself look like a cat.
Okay, I get it. So noted.”
“And you don’t want me to open your backpack …”
“I really don’t.”
“Fine,” she said, walking back to the kitchen. “So noted.”
THE COURIER HAD begun holding weekly Millennium Preparedness meetings. All the department heads had to attend, including Greg, who was expected to give a readiness report at each one. He usually came back from these meetings looking red-faced and hypertensive.
“I don’t know what they expect of me, Lincoln. I’m one man. The publisher thinks I should have seen this Y2K thing coming. Last week, he yelled at me for sending all our old Selectrics to churches in El Salvador. Even though the board gave me a plaque for that three years ago. It’s hanging in my den …I think I just talked them into buying backup generators.”
Lincoln tried to tell Greg, again, that he really didn’t think anything bad was going to happen on New Year’s Eve. Even if the coding failed, Lincoln said, which it probably wouldn’t, the computers wouldn’t get confused and self-destruct. “Logan’s Run isn’t real,” he said.
“Then why do I feel too old for this shit?” Greg asked.
That made Lincoln laugh. If he worked days, with Greg, he might not spend so much time thinking about quitting.
CHAPTER 23
From: Jennifer Scribner-Snyder
To: Beth Fremont
Sent: Tues, 10/12/1999 9:27 AM
Subject: Another nice story.
The way you were complaining last week, I had lowered my expectations. But look at you—front page, above the fold. Giant picture, nice lead, nice ending. I especially like the quote from that protester: “If the Taj Mahal had been built on 84th and Dodge, they’d tear it down for parking.”
Lincoln stayed after the game ended and everyone else went home. Dave opened a window, and the three of them sat on couches, breathing cool, clean air and listening to Christine’s wind chimes.
“You know what we should do now?” Dave said, rubbing his 2:00 a.m. stubble.
“What?” Lincoln said.
“Axis and Allies.”
Christine threw a pillow at him. “God, no.”
Dave caught it. “Lincoln wants to play Axis and Allies. I can see it in his eyes …”
“I think Lincoln wants to tell us what he’s been doing with himself lately.” Christine smiled warmly at Lincoln. Everything about her was warm and soft and welcoming.
They’d kissed once, in college, in his dorm room, before Christine had started dating Dave. Lincoln had offered to help her study for a physics final. Christine didn’t need to take physics; she wanted to be an English teacher. But she told Lincoln that she didn’t want to live in a world she didn’t understand, that she didn’t want a faith-based relationship with things like centrifugal force and gravity. As she said it, she kicked off her sandals and sat Indian-style on his bed. She had long, wavy, wheaty hair that never looked brushed.
Christine told Lincoln that he explained everything so much better than her physics professor, a stern man with a Slavic accent who acted offended every time she asked a stupid question. Lincoln told her that her questions weren’t stupid, and she hugged him. That’s when he kissed her. It was like kissing a warm bath.
“That was nice,” Christine said when he pulled away. He couldn’t tell whether she wanted him to kiss her again. She was smiling. She looked happy, but that didn’t mean anything. She always looked happy …
“Do you feel ready for your test?” he asked.
“Could we go over torque one more time?”
“Sure,” he said, “yeah.” Christine smiled some more. They went back to studying, and she ended up getting a B on her physics final.
Sometimes, Lincoln wished that he would have kept kissing her that night. It would be so easy to love Christine, to be in love with her. You’d never raise your voice. She’d never be mean.
But he wasn’t jealous when she started dating Dave a few months later. Christine radiated happy when she was with Dave. And Dave, who could really, truly, be painfully intense sometimes—the kind of guy who leans in too far when he’s making a point, who might still be snippy with you two weeks after your D&D character had bested his in a swordfight—was loose and forgiving when Christine was around. Lincoln liked their messy-warm house, their messy-round kids, their living room with too many lamps and pillows, the way their voices softened when they talked to each other.
“I think,” Lincoln said, “if we started an Axis and Allies game right now, I’d fall asleep before Russia was done buying tanks.”
“Is that a yes?” Dave asked.
“That’s a no,” Christine said. “You should sleep here, Lincoln. You look too tired to drive.”
“Yeah, stay,” Dave said, “we’ll make blueberry pancakes for breakfast.”
Lincoln stayed. He slept on the couch, and when he woke up, he helped Christine make pancakes and argued with Dave about the plot of a fantasy novel they’d both read. After breakfast, they made him promise to come to next week’s game.
“We still have to catch up,” Christine said.
“Yeah,” Dave said. “You still haven’t told us about your job.”
IT WAS SUCH a good weekend that Lincoln still felt cheerful and un-lonely when he got to work Monday night. He was feeling practically sunny when his sister called.
“Have you read any more of that parachute book?” she asked.
“No. It’s too intimidating.”
“What is?”
“The book,” he said. “The future.”
“So you’re done with the future?”
“I’m tightening my focus.”
“To what?”
“The near future,” he said. “I can handle the near future. Tonight, for example, I’m going to read for pleasure. Tomorrow, I’m going to have a beer with lunch. On Saturday, I’m going to play Dungeons & Dragons. And Sunday, I might go see a movie. That’s my plan.”
“That isn’t a plan,” she said.
“It is. It’s my plan. And I feel really good about it.”
“Those aren’t things you plan. You don’t plan to read or to have a beer with lunch. Those are things you do when you have a moment between planned events. Those are incidentals.”
“Not for me,” he said. “That’s my plan.”
“You’re backsliding.”
“Or maybe I’m frontsliding.”
“I can’t talk to you anymore,” Eve said. “Call me this weekend.”
“I’ll pencil you in.”
ALL THE Y2K stuff was keeping Lincoln busier at work—he was helping with the coding and trying to keep track of Greg’s strike force—but he still had hours of free time every night. On Friday night, when he told himself how lucky he was to get paid to reread Isaac Asimov’s Foundation series, he mostly believed it.
Money and time, those were the two things that he always heard people complaining about, and he had plenty of both.
There wasn’t anything Lincoln wanted that he couldn’t afford. What did he really want, anyway? To buy new books when they came out in hardback. To not have to think about how much money was in his wallet when he was ordering dinner. Maybe new sneakers …And there wasn’t anything he wanted to do that he couldn’t make time for. What did he have to mope about, really? What more did he want?
Love, he could hear Eve saying. Purpose.
Love. Purpose. Those are the things that you can’t plan for. Those are the things that just happen.
And what if they don’t happen? Do you spend your whole life pining for them? Waiting to be happy?
That night, Lincoln got an e-mail from Dave saying that Saturday’s D&D game was off. One of their kids had rotavirus, which Lincoln had never even heard of. It sounded awful. He pictured a virus with rotating blades and an engine. Dave said there’d been lots of vomiting, that they’d had to go to the emergency room, and Christine was scared to death.
“We’ll probably be on hiatus for the next couple weekends,” Dave had written.
“No problem,” Lincoln messaged back. “I hope he feels better. Get some rest.”
Poor kid. Poor Christine.
This isn’t a big deal, Lincoln told himself. The plan is flexible. He could still go see a movie this weekend. He could pick up his comics. He could call Justin.
There were twenty-three red-flagged messages in the WebFence folder. There might even be something in there that Lincoln should take care of. He opened it, telling himself that he may as well earn an hour of his paycheck tonight.
He opened it, hoping.
CHAPTER 21
From: Beth Fremont
To: Jennifer Scribner-Snyder
Sent: Thurs, 09/30/1999 3:42 PM
Subject: If you were Superman …
…and you could choose any alter ego you wanted, why the hell would you choose to spend your Clark Kent hours—which already suck because you have to wear glasses and you can’t fly—at a newspaper?
Why not pose as a wealthy playboy like Batman? Or the leader of a small but important nation like Black Panther?
Why would you choose to spend your days on deadline, making crap money, dealing with terminally crabby editors?
<<Jennifer to Beth>> I thought we agreed not to swear in e-mails.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> We agreed that it would probably be a good idea to stop swearing in e-mails.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Still thinking about Lois Lane?
<<Beth to Jennifer>> Sort of. I mean, I get why Lois Lane went to journalism school. I know her type. Wants to make a difference, wants to uncover great truths. Nosy. But Clark Kent …why not Clark Kent, sexy TV weatherman? Or Clark Kent, mayor of Cincinnati?
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Aren’t you missing the point? Clark Kent doesn’t want to be famous. He doesn’t want people to look at him. If they really look at him, they’d see that he’s just Superman with glasses.
Plus, he needs to be someplace like a newsroom, where he’s the first to hear big news. He can’t afford to read “Joker attacks moon” the next day in the newspaper.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> You make an excellent point. Especially for someone who doesn’t know that Superman never fights the Joker.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Especially for someone who doesn’t care. I hope you’re not right about life sucking for everyone who can’t fly and wears glasses. That describes everyone in this room.
What are you working on?
<<Beth to Jennifer>> We do all wear glasses. Weird.
Another Indian Hills story. I’m not so much working as I am waiting for a phone call.
It turns out, the hospital next door to the theater already bought the land. Months ago. They’re going to make it a parking lot. I’m waiting for the hospital spokesperson to call me back so that she can say, “No comment.” And then I can write, “Hospital officials would not comment on the sale.” And then I can go home.
Do you know how mind-numbing it is to sit around waiting for someone to call you back so that they can officially tell you nothing? I just don’t think Superman would stand for it. He could be out finding lost Boy Scouts and plugging volcanoes with giant boulders.
<<Jennifer to Beth>> Superman works at a newspaper because he’s trying to get with Lois Lane.
<<Beth to Jennifer>> He probably makes twice as much as she does.
CHAPTER 22
ON FRIDAY MORNING , Lincoln picked up a spring schedule from the city college. There was a professor in the anthropology department who specialized in Afghan studies. Why not take a few classes? He had plenty of time during the day, and he could always study at work. He’d love to study at work.
“What is this?” his mother asked when she saw the class schedule.
“Something that I thought I’d put in my backpack.” He took the brochure from her hands.
“Seriously, Mom, what are you doing in my bag? Are you steaming open my mail, too?”
“You don’t get any mail.” She folded her arms. You could never be offended or dismayed with her —she always beat you to it. “I was checking your bag for dirty dishes,” she said. “Do those papers mean that you’re going back to school?”
“Not immediately.” The fall semester had already started.
“I don’t know how I feel about that, Lincoln. I’m starting to think you might have a problem. With school.”
“I’ve never had a problem with school,” he said, knowing how lame that sounded, knowing that refusing to take part in the conversation wasn’t the same as avoiding it.
“You know what I mean,” she said. She wagged a dirty spoon at him. “A problem. Like those women who get addicted to plastic surgery. They keep going back and going back, trying to look better until there is no more better. Like they can’t look better because they don’t even look like themselves anymore. And then it’s just about looking different, I think. I saw this woman in a magazine who looked just like a cat. Like a cat of prey, a big cat. Have you ever seen her? She has a lot of money. I think she might be from Austria.”
“No,” he said.
“Well, she looks very unhappy.”
“Okay,” he said quietly, shoving the schedule back into his backpack.
“Okay?”
“You don’t want me to go back to school, or have plastic surgery to make myself look like a cat.
Okay, I get it. So noted.”
“And you don’t want me to open your backpack …”
“I really don’t.”
“Fine,” she said, walking back to the kitchen. “So noted.”
THE COURIER HAD begun holding weekly Millennium Preparedness meetings. All the department heads had to attend, including Greg, who was expected to give a readiness report at each one. He usually came back from these meetings looking red-faced and hypertensive.
“I don’t know what they expect of me, Lincoln. I’m one man. The publisher thinks I should have seen this Y2K thing coming. Last week, he yelled at me for sending all our old Selectrics to churches in El Salvador. Even though the board gave me a plaque for that three years ago. It’s hanging in my den …I think I just talked them into buying backup generators.”
Lincoln tried to tell Greg, again, that he really didn’t think anything bad was going to happen on New Year’s Eve. Even if the coding failed, Lincoln said, which it probably wouldn’t, the computers wouldn’t get confused and self-destruct. “Logan’s Run isn’t real,” he said.
“Then why do I feel too old for this shit?” Greg asked.
That made Lincoln laugh. If he worked days, with Greg, he might not spend so much time thinking about quitting.
CHAPTER 23
From: Jennifer Scribner-Snyder
To: Beth Fremont
Sent: Tues, 10/12/1999 9:27 AM
Subject: Another nice story.
The way you were complaining last week, I had lowered my expectations. But look at you—front page, above the fold. Giant picture, nice lead, nice ending. I especially like the quote from that protester: “If the Taj Mahal had been built on 84th and Dodge, they’d tear it down for parking.”
