CHAPTER SIX
Autumn
The next morning brought the prospect of first-period English literature with the prince. As though I had swallowed a cherry pit whole, I felt a knot of dread work its way down my throat into my stomach as I counted up the members of his already-established entourage in the class. They made up more than half the group. The knot grew.
My routine had been much the same as the day before; except today, there was no fussing mother. The top button of my blouse remained undone, my skirt folded twice at the waistband, makeup lining my eyes. Id had no choice but to fly to school that morning: no one was there to drop me off at the ferry and I was running too late for the bus.
For the second day of the term, the school was very much alive. The buses had arrived and it looked as if every member of the student population had tried to cram themselves into the quad. They hung from the railings lining the steps leading up to the quad, or else had seated themselves on the benches, odd blossom petals settling in their hair. Most stood. As I weaved my way between the groups, chattering animatedly, it didnt take long to work out why. Leaning casually against the edge of one of the picnic benches was the prince, surrounded by his followers and, to my disgust, my friends.
He spotted me before they did and it was he who broke the silence.
Fallon, he corrected in advance, anticipating what would have been my next words. I did not respond, but curtsied; grateful he had not used my own title.
Insulted at being cut off mid-sentence, Gwen huffed and turned back to him, trying to engage him once more in conversation. If he heard her, he did not acknowledge her efforts, his eyes transfixed in a steadfast gaze at me, as though I was a problem to be unraveled and solved.
Your sword. You carry it always?
Occasionally.
May I see it? He held out his hand expectantly, but I did not fulfill his request, feeling my hand tighten around the grip of its own accord. The puzzled look returned before his expression cleared and he reached down to his own belt, offering his sword in return for my own. I did not hesitate this time and he took it, weighing it in his hands.
Light, very light. Too wide for a rapier, yet too long for a small sword. In my hands I did the same with his sword, though I refrained from speaking my thoughts aloud. Too heavy and stout for my liking. Rapier, though sharpened entirely along both edges, much like my own. Swept hilt, very intricate. The grip is engraved with your coat of arms. Your grandmothers sword, I presume?
A familiar fire started to flicker into life along my breastbone. I swallowed. Yes.
I thought it must be. It was transferred to you on the day of her funeral, wasnt it? I remember it being blessed atop her coffin.
I didnt pause to consider the stupidity of what I was doing as I found myself raising his sword to rest under the curvature of his jaw, my breathing shaky, my hand steady. His look turned to complete confusion, as though he could not work out what he had said to offend, before it returned to one of calm assuredness.
I suggest you lower that.
I did not move. His voice was soft, yet the authority clear as he spoke again. Remember who I am, Duchess. Lower it.
I know you know.
Thats an order!
Behind him I could see the breeze stirring the uppermost petals of the cherry blossom tree, snatching them from the branches to the ground, to be trampled beneath the feet of the students aware that the bell had rung.
Beyond that tree there was a sea of black; rough, weathered stone slotted in at odd angles between them. Among those dark pillars, motionless, was a girl, caught in the transition between child and adult, wrapped in a black shift and veil, concealing the tears that would not fall. Behind her was the family tomb that would not shelter her grandmothers corpse, because she was afforded the honor of being laid to rest in the Athenean cathedral. Instead, the oak coffin stood atop the plinth in front of the tombs entrance, draped in Deaths Touch and a royal blue velvet cloth bearing the Al-Summers coat of arms; the late duchesss sword and dagger there, too, alongside some of the prettier tokens left by mourners during her lying in state.
Is there a death? The light of day at eventide shall fade away; from out the sods eternal gloom the flowers, in their season, bloom; bud, bloom, and fade, and soon the spot whereon they flourished knows them not; blighted by chill, autumnal frost; ashes to ashes, dust to dust!
The blessing called and the mourners swayed in the light breeze, the faintest trace of water in the wind, as the clouds angered at the slow service, so endless for those whom it hurt the most.
Come, Autumn, you must sprinkle the earth now. Step up, thats it, so they may see you.
With trembling knees and a lip clenched between her teeth, the girl stepped forward, taking a handful of dirt from a silver bowl and letting it drift onto the roses, and then repeating the gesture twice more as the master of ceremonies called, Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Earthern carn earthern, ashen carn ashen, peltarn carn peltarn!
With those words, the pallbearers came forward as the girl gave a final deep curtsy; the late duchesss son and five of the elder Sagean princes lifting the coffin high into the air and beginning the slow procession through the fallen fields to the cathedral, just visible beyond the treetops. As it passed, the onlookers, hundreds in total, bowed, King Lliriad Athenea joining them in a show of unity that only a state funeral could bring.
Behind her veil, the young duchess let a tear slide down her scarred cheek.
Autumn?
The sound of my name snapped me from my trance. My eyes refocused, finding the glinting tip of the sword pressed to the crimson scars of his upper jaw.
Autumn, dont force me to hurt you.
He didnt need to worry, as my rigid arm was already slackening; he took the opportunity to raise his left arm and tentatively, like I was a wild animal that might pounce at any moment, to press his fingertips to the blade and push it away from his neck. I didnt resist.
Autumn, I didnt mean to offend
I cut him off as I forced his lowered sword into his hands and took back my own, sliding it into its sheath. I tried to mumble something resembling an apology, but the words would not come, and instead I fled, humiliated and desperate to work out why I had let my emotions get the better of me.
Autumn
The next morning brought the prospect of first-period English literature with the prince. As though I had swallowed a cherry pit whole, I felt a knot of dread work its way down my throat into my stomach as I counted up the members of his already-established entourage in the class. They made up more than half the group. The knot grew.
My routine had been much the same as the day before; except today, there was no fussing mother. The top button of my blouse remained undone, my skirt folded twice at the waistband, makeup lining my eyes. Id had no choice but to fly to school that morning: no one was there to drop me off at the ferry and I was running too late for the bus.
For the second day of the term, the school was very much alive. The buses had arrived and it looked as if every member of the student population had tried to cram themselves into the quad. They hung from the railings lining the steps leading up to the quad, or else had seated themselves on the benches, odd blossom petals settling in their hair. Most stood. As I weaved my way between the groups, chattering animatedly, it didnt take long to work out why. Leaning casually against the edge of one of the picnic benches was the prince, surrounded by his followers and, to my disgust, my friends.
He spotted me before they did and it was he who broke the silence.
Fallon, he corrected in advance, anticipating what would have been my next words. I did not respond, but curtsied; grateful he had not used my own title.
Insulted at being cut off mid-sentence, Gwen huffed and turned back to him, trying to engage him once more in conversation. If he heard her, he did not acknowledge her efforts, his eyes transfixed in a steadfast gaze at me, as though I was a problem to be unraveled and solved.
Your sword. You carry it always?
Occasionally.
May I see it? He held out his hand expectantly, but I did not fulfill his request, feeling my hand tighten around the grip of its own accord. The puzzled look returned before his expression cleared and he reached down to his own belt, offering his sword in return for my own. I did not hesitate this time and he took it, weighing it in his hands.
Light, very light. Too wide for a rapier, yet too long for a small sword. In my hands I did the same with his sword, though I refrained from speaking my thoughts aloud. Too heavy and stout for my liking. Rapier, though sharpened entirely along both edges, much like my own. Swept hilt, very intricate. The grip is engraved with your coat of arms. Your grandmothers sword, I presume?
A familiar fire started to flicker into life along my breastbone. I swallowed. Yes.
I thought it must be. It was transferred to you on the day of her funeral, wasnt it? I remember it being blessed atop her coffin.
I didnt pause to consider the stupidity of what I was doing as I found myself raising his sword to rest under the curvature of his jaw, my breathing shaky, my hand steady. His look turned to complete confusion, as though he could not work out what he had said to offend, before it returned to one of calm assuredness.
I suggest you lower that.
I did not move. His voice was soft, yet the authority clear as he spoke again. Remember who I am, Duchess. Lower it.
I know you know.
Thats an order!
Behind him I could see the breeze stirring the uppermost petals of the cherry blossom tree, snatching them from the branches to the ground, to be trampled beneath the feet of the students aware that the bell had rung.
Beyond that tree there was a sea of black; rough, weathered stone slotted in at odd angles between them. Among those dark pillars, motionless, was a girl, caught in the transition between child and adult, wrapped in a black shift and veil, concealing the tears that would not fall. Behind her was the family tomb that would not shelter her grandmothers corpse, because she was afforded the honor of being laid to rest in the Athenean cathedral. Instead, the oak coffin stood atop the plinth in front of the tombs entrance, draped in Deaths Touch and a royal blue velvet cloth bearing the Al-Summers coat of arms; the late duchesss sword and dagger there, too, alongside some of the prettier tokens left by mourners during her lying in state.
Is there a death? The light of day at eventide shall fade away; from out the sods eternal gloom the flowers, in their season, bloom; bud, bloom, and fade, and soon the spot whereon they flourished knows them not; blighted by chill, autumnal frost; ashes to ashes, dust to dust!
The blessing called and the mourners swayed in the light breeze, the faintest trace of water in the wind, as the clouds angered at the slow service, so endless for those whom it hurt the most.
Come, Autumn, you must sprinkle the earth now. Step up, thats it, so they may see you.
With trembling knees and a lip clenched between her teeth, the girl stepped forward, taking a handful of dirt from a silver bowl and letting it drift onto the roses, and then repeating the gesture twice more as the master of ceremonies called, Earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust. Earthern carn earthern, ashen carn ashen, peltarn carn peltarn!
With those words, the pallbearers came forward as the girl gave a final deep curtsy; the late duchesss son and five of the elder Sagean princes lifting the coffin high into the air and beginning the slow procession through the fallen fields to the cathedral, just visible beyond the treetops. As it passed, the onlookers, hundreds in total, bowed, King Lliriad Athenea joining them in a show of unity that only a state funeral could bring.
Behind her veil, the young duchess let a tear slide down her scarred cheek.
Autumn?
The sound of my name snapped me from my trance. My eyes refocused, finding the glinting tip of the sword pressed to the crimson scars of his upper jaw.
Autumn, dont force me to hurt you.
He didnt need to worry, as my rigid arm was already slackening; he took the opportunity to raise his left arm and tentatively, like I was a wild animal that might pounce at any moment, to press his fingertips to the blade and push it away from his neck. I didnt resist.
Autumn, I didnt mean to offend
I cut him off as I forced his lowered sword into his hands and took back my own, sliding it into its sheath. I tried to mumble something resembling an apology, but the words would not come, and instead I fled, humiliated and desperate to work out why I had let my emotions get the better of me.
