Bloodfever
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I rattled my chains. Wrists. Beam. Chained already, Barrons. Come up with a new threat. I glared back.
He tried to stare me down, make me quail and look away. I didnt. Not even with my arms chained behind me, wearing only a string bikini. I was losing the ability to quail and I would never again be the kind of girl that looked away.
Who trashed the bookstore, Barrons? I demanded. I had a lot of questions and so far Id not gotten the chance to ask a single one. The moment hed seen me, hed charged me, roughly bundled me over his shoulder, hauled me to the garage, stripped off my tool belt, and chained me to a support beam. I hadnt even tried to fight him off; there was more steel inside Barrons than the post behind me.
A muscle in his jaw worked. He turned away, walked to a small metal worktable on wheels, and rolled it over next to me. Then he retrieved a long, flat wooden box from one of the many tool shelves.
What are you doing? I said warily. He removed items from the box and began placing them on the table next to me. First came two tiny bottles that contained liquids: one crimson, one black. Were they poisons? Drugs? Next came a knife, very sharp, with a long, deadly point. Are you going to torture me? I said incredulously. He withdrew a sooty candle with a long black wick. Or cast a spell on me? Could he do that?
What I am going to do, Ms. Lane, is tattoo you. He opened the bottles, unwrapped a set of needles bound in embossed leather, and lit the candle. He began heating a needle in the flame.
I gasped. No, youre not. Momll kill me. The liquids were inks, not drugs. I wasnt sure if that was better or worse. Drugs wore off. Inks were permanent.
He gave me a hard look. Grow up.
I was growing up and doing a fine job of it, whether he thought so or not. It wasnt immature that I considered my mothers feelings. In my book, it was just the opposite. Besides, I felt the same way she did. Heir to a generation that tattooed, pierced, and performed cosmetic surgery on themselves as casually as they shaved their heads, Id vowed years ago to go to the grave the same way Id been born, just a lot more wrinkly. You are not tattooing me, I repeated.
Stop me. His smile was so cattish that I felt twitchy mouse ears sprout from the top of my head. He was serious. Hed chained me up, and now he was going to tattoo me. He was going to stand close to me, work slowly and methodically on my naked skin for what might be hours depending on the complexity of the tattoo. The thought made me feel light-headed, queasy.
I told myself to be calm. I would get to the bottom of this. I would talk him out of it. Why are you going to tattoo me, Barrons? I asked in the most reasonable, soothing voice I could muster.
The design contains a spell, so I can find you the next time you decide to indulge yourself in a childish whim.
A whim? I rattled my chains angrily. It was no whim. You werent there to help me with the Shades so I made the best bargain I could with who was available.
Iwasnt talking about Vlane. I was talking about choosing to stay in Faery.
My temper flared white hot. You have no idea what it was like! My sister died without warning and suddenly there she was again, standing right in front of me. I got to see her, touch her, hear her voice again! Do you know what its like to lose someone? Actually, probably the right question for you is have you ever loved anyone other than yourself? Loved them so much that you couldnt stand to go on living without them? Do you even know what love is? I did not indulge myself. I had a weakness. And Id gotten over it. Id made the illusion disappear with my will. Id seen through it. I was proud of myself for that. People who feel things sometimes have weaknesses, but you wouldnt know the first thing about that, would you? I said bitterly. The only things you feel are greed, mockery, and occasionally you probably get a hard-on, but I bet its not over a woman, its over money or an artifact or a book. Youre no different than any other player in this game. Youre no different than Vlane. Youre just a cold, mercenary
His hand was on my throat, and he was crushing me back with his body into the cold steel beam behind me. Yes, I have loved, Ms. Lane, and although its none of your business, I have lost. Many things. And no, I am not like any other player in this game and I will never be like Vlane, and I get a hard-on a great deal more often than occasionally. He leaned fully against me and I gasped. Sometimes its over a spoiled little girl, not a woman at all. And yes, I trashed the bookstore when I couldnt find you. Youll have to choose a new bedroom, too. And Im sorry your pretty little world got all screwed up, but everybodys does, and you go on. Its how you go on that defines you. His hand relaxed on my throat. And I am going to tattoo you, Ms. Lane, however and wherever I please. His gaze dropped down over my sun-kissed, lightly oiled, very bare skin. The delicately strung together hot pink triangles covered very little, and while Id not minded so much on the beach, being nearly naked around Barrons felt a lot like going to a shark convention lightly basted in blood.
This was a line I couldnt let him cross. I had to own myself. I had to win this one. If you do this, Barrons, Im going to walk out of this place as soon as youre done and never find another OOP for you. If you force this on me, you and I are through. Im not kidding. Ill find someone else to help me. I stared into those jet eyes. I didnt throw Vlanes name at him because I had no desire to wave the red cape at the bull. The calm of unshakable resolution settled over me, and I injected it into my voice. Dont do it. I let you push me pretty far sometimes, but not this time. I will not have you put yourit took me a moment to find the right wordssorcerers brand on me, so you can hunt me down whenever and wherever you please. And that, Jericho Barrons, is non-negotiable.