Drawn Together
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Alexander waved an onion ring round. “I be there.”
“That’s always my favorite part, bud.” She smiled his way before looking back to Erin. “You’re really sneaky and underhanded.” Erin knew Raven couldn’t resist things if Alexander was part of them.
“I totally am. Which is ultimately part of my charm. Let’s be real.”
“It’s sad you have such deep self-esteem problems. I’m not a holiday-with-the-family person. You know that.”
“The people you were born to don’t deserve you anyway. What I know is that I’m your family. And I love you and this monkey right here loves you and Gillian loves you. Brody loves you. Rennie adores you. Even Adrian has softened because that baby of his thinks you’re the best thing ever. Please? You’re often gone during the holiday season and I don’t want you to be alone. I want you at my table eating turkey.”
“You’re not going to be satisfied until I agree, are you?” Not that Raven really wanted her to be disappointed. Knowing someone wanted her at their table meant something.
“Heck no.” Erin’s grin showed no guilt.
Alexander patted her hand. “Heck no. There’s turkey!”
Raven kissed Alexander’s temple and he shoved a piece of grilled cheese sandwich in his mouth.
“Fine.”
“You need to always give in to my requests. Things would be so much easier that way.”
Raven rolled her eyes and Alexander told her about his new preschool class before they finished up and walked back to the shop. Pausing for bird sightings and to take a few turns on the swings.
It had been a very nice two-hour break.
“It’s good you have an in with the boss to take such long breaks.” Erin winked at her as Alexander strolled over to watch his uncle work.
Erin owned the café next door so Alexander had spent a lot of his childhood not only there but in Written On The Body as well.
“Kid’s got a fascination with ink.” At least he knew people who’d give him great work when the time came. Or he’d end up a tattoo artist.
“He’s lucky enough to be able to watch two of the very best in the world on a regular basis.” Erin waggled her brows. “We need to get together for drinks so you can give me all the dirty details about Jonah,” she added in an undertone. “You’re coming to Delicious on Sunday, right?”
Raven shifted, uncomfortable. Mary, the woman who ran the supper club, came up once a month to host it for their friends and family. The food was wonderful, but it was exhausting to put out all the effort everyone expected of Raven.
Erin looked to Alexander, who had hopped up next to Brody, watching intently. “She asked if you were coming. Mary likes you. It’s a fun adult thing and I so rarely get that. I want you there. I know it’s selfish of me. But we can have some wine and you can tell me about Jonah.”
“Or I can write you an e-mail or you can call.”
Erin’s expression told Raven that her friend wouldn’t let up until she agreed. “Everyone is so nice. I’m not one of you.”
“Stop pretending to be so hard. This is me you’re talking to.”
“It makes me really tired. With you I don’t have to work so f**king hard. I’m just . . . anyway. Maybe I’ll go.”
Erin searched her features and Raven didn’t want to be known so well right then. She craved the lonely—but under her control—space people made around her when they didn’t get her.
And Erin made it worse by hugging her and speaking in her ear. “I love you, Raven. I love every part of you. I accept you because you always have loved every part of me. Thank you.”
“Stop. Please. Not now.” Tears threatened and she willed them away.
Erin brushed the hair back from Raven’s face. “I’m sorry. I just like being around you and it’s been so awesome having you here more since Alexander has come. I want other people to know you like Brody and I do.”
“Yeah, well, not everyone finds my honesty refreshing.” She stepped back, pulling herself together. “I have a client coming in a bit. I’ll talk to you soon. I promise. And I love you too.”
Brody had noted the exchange with a raised brow to Erin, but said nothing. Erin knew her brother would ask her later on just what had transpired between them.
Alexander patted the hand of the client getting the ink. “Nice going, dude.” He hopped down as Brody laughed and kissed the top of his head. “Bye, Bo. See you later. Love you.”
“Love you too, monkey.”
Alexander ran back to his mom but stopped to get a hug from Raven, who’d knelt to get face-to-face with him.
“Love you, Auntie.”
“You know I love you right back. Always and forever. But I like to say it anyway. Because you make me happy. “
Erin knew they weren’t just words to Raven. Many people told kids stuff but didn’t really think on the depth of commitment the words given came with. People said I love you with so much ease, but they didn’t usually mean it. Not really.
The thing people did not understand about Raven, because they only saw her outside, was that she didn’t say anything casually. Or easily. Though she was often blunt, it was her way of trying to connect on some level. But when it didn’t work, it only pushed her further away.
She let very few people get close, but once she loved, she loved totally and forever. Alexander was lucky to have her in his life.