Fighting Attraction
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I end the call and swallow past the lump in my throat. It’s only been three days, and yet it feels like I haven’t seen Jack in forever. He’s wearing a white T-shirt that clings to his taut, muscle-ridged abdomen, and worn jeans that ride low on his narrow hips.
“What are you doing here?”
He pins me with a direct stare, his eyes fierce and hard. I feel like he’s trying to see into my soul, but my heart is pounding so hard I’m not sure enough oxygen is getting to my brain to make any sense of what’s going on.
“Jack?”
His gaze rakes over my body, lingering on my thighs as if he can see beneath my skirt. He tenses, and his eyes narrow. If I didn’t know X-ray vision was impossible, I would swear he knows I broke my promise.
“Are you alone?”
“Yes.” My pulse kicks up a notch. “Everyone’s out for the rest of the afternoon and I was about to close up and go.”
He takes a step toward me, and the hair on the back of my neck stands on end.
“Lock the door.”
A thrill of fear shoots through me, and sweat beads on my forehead. What if he knows? Or suspects? What will he do?
“Now.” His deep, commanding Dom voice ripples through me, fanning the flames of my desire. Do I trust Jack enough to lock myself in the office with him, especially when I know what is coming? Do I trust myself?
I brush past him and lock the front door.
“Your office,” he snaps after I return. “Now.”
I jump at his sharp tone and scramble out of his way as he brushes past me and through my office door, a lithe and powerful animal herding its prey.
“What’s going on?”
“Stand in front of the desk.” He gestures to the big oak desk Amanda and I refinished when we first moved into the building.
Puzzled, I do as he asks, my breath catching in my throat when he closes and locks my office door behind him.
“Jack?”
He gives me his back as he draws the curtains at the side of my office. “Don’t move.”
A sting of disappointment hits me in the chest. Has he come to reject me all over again? Does he want to make sure I understand there is nothing between us? It shouldn’t bother me because I got the message the other night. I’m nothing. Nothing special. Nothing extraordinary. Not worth his time, especially since he’s on the cusp of fame. I’m just his pal. Plain old quirky Pen. But he doesn’t have to be so cold.
Worthless, no-good piece of shit.
No. No. No. My fingers tighten on the lip of the desk. I haven’t even started to heal from last night.
Jack leans against the door across from me, thick arms folded over his massive chest. “Lift your skirt.”
Shock steals my breath away, and all I can do is stare. “What?”
“You heard me. Lift your skirt. Now.”
Bang. Bang. Bang. My heart thuds frantically against my ribs. Adrenaline pounds through my veins, and I feel a rush of heat between my legs. He knows. I can see it in his eyes, hear it in his voice…
“Why?” I whisper, stalling. And why is this turning me on?
“You know why,” he snaps. “You didn’t keep your promise.”
I smooth my hands over my cream skirt, silky underneath with a cotton macramé overlay, pressing it tight against my thighs. “It doesn’t matter if I kept it or not. We’re not in the club. There’s nothing between us. You made that clear the other night.”
“I fucked up the other night.” He shifts his stance. “I’m not good for you, Pen. You need to be with someone normal. A nice guy who’s going to treat you right and doesn’t want to hurt you.”
My hand fists on my thigh. “I don’t like nice guys. They don’t understand me. They’re too gentle. My life is about pain. Emotional and physical pain. It’s what I know, what I understand, what I need.”
“So you hurt yourself?”
“I didn’t—”
He cuts me off with a scowl. “Don’t lie to me.” He pauses, and his voice takes on a deeper, cutting edge. “Show me.”
My mouth goes dry at his abrupt command, and I fiddle with the edge of my skirt, at once indignant that he would try to boss me around and aroused that he did.
“What if I did?” I say defiantly. “There’s nothing you can do about it.”
His corded throat tightens when he swallows, and he fixes me with a level stare. “I’ll give you what you need.”
All the air leaves my lungs in a rush, and I feel a disconcerting wetness between my thighs. “You wouldn’t dare. I’m at work.”
“Try me.”
Electricity sparks in the air between us, and a curious mix of fear and arousal courses through my veins. Stiffening my spine, I curl my fingers under the edge of my skirt and draw it slowly, painfully slowly up my thighs. Jack stills. His eyes flick down and then back up again. He licks his lips, and his eyes darken.
I have awakened the beast.
* * *
RAMPAGE
She stares at me. Defiant. Beautiful. But beneath her challenge I can feel her need—a need for pain, a need the sadist in me cannot ignore.
A man doesn’t hurt a woman. Not where I come from. But when I found BDSM, I learned that there are many people who take pleasure in pain, whether it is to heighten their arousal or to fill an emotional need. Although I have accepted my kink, I still haven’t been able to free myself of the judgment that goes with it. I can’t forget the horror on Avery’s face or the disappointment of my family when I told them it was not something that could be “cured.” I am the antithesis of who I was raised to be, and yet Penny calls to the deepest, darkest side of me and I cannot resist.
“What are you doing here?”
He pins me with a direct stare, his eyes fierce and hard. I feel like he’s trying to see into my soul, but my heart is pounding so hard I’m not sure enough oxygen is getting to my brain to make any sense of what’s going on.
“Jack?”
His gaze rakes over my body, lingering on my thighs as if he can see beneath my skirt. He tenses, and his eyes narrow. If I didn’t know X-ray vision was impossible, I would swear he knows I broke my promise.
“Are you alone?”
“Yes.” My pulse kicks up a notch. “Everyone’s out for the rest of the afternoon and I was about to close up and go.”
He takes a step toward me, and the hair on the back of my neck stands on end.
“Lock the door.”
A thrill of fear shoots through me, and sweat beads on my forehead. What if he knows? Or suspects? What will he do?
“Now.” His deep, commanding Dom voice ripples through me, fanning the flames of my desire. Do I trust Jack enough to lock myself in the office with him, especially when I know what is coming? Do I trust myself?
I brush past him and lock the front door.
“Your office,” he snaps after I return. “Now.”
I jump at his sharp tone and scramble out of his way as he brushes past me and through my office door, a lithe and powerful animal herding its prey.
“What’s going on?”
“Stand in front of the desk.” He gestures to the big oak desk Amanda and I refinished when we first moved into the building.
Puzzled, I do as he asks, my breath catching in my throat when he closes and locks my office door behind him.
“Jack?”
He gives me his back as he draws the curtains at the side of my office. “Don’t move.”
A sting of disappointment hits me in the chest. Has he come to reject me all over again? Does he want to make sure I understand there is nothing between us? It shouldn’t bother me because I got the message the other night. I’m nothing. Nothing special. Nothing extraordinary. Not worth his time, especially since he’s on the cusp of fame. I’m just his pal. Plain old quirky Pen. But he doesn’t have to be so cold.
Worthless, no-good piece of shit.
No. No. No. My fingers tighten on the lip of the desk. I haven’t even started to heal from last night.
Jack leans against the door across from me, thick arms folded over his massive chest. “Lift your skirt.”
Shock steals my breath away, and all I can do is stare. “What?”
“You heard me. Lift your skirt. Now.”
Bang. Bang. Bang. My heart thuds frantically against my ribs. Adrenaline pounds through my veins, and I feel a rush of heat between my legs. He knows. I can see it in his eyes, hear it in his voice…
“Why?” I whisper, stalling. And why is this turning me on?
“You know why,” he snaps. “You didn’t keep your promise.”
I smooth my hands over my cream skirt, silky underneath with a cotton macramé overlay, pressing it tight against my thighs. “It doesn’t matter if I kept it or not. We’re not in the club. There’s nothing between us. You made that clear the other night.”
“I fucked up the other night.” He shifts his stance. “I’m not good for you, Pen. You need to be with someone normal. A nice guy who’s going to treat you right and doesn’t want to hurt you.”
My hand fists on my thigh. “I don’t like nice guys. They don’t understand me. They’re too gentle. My life is about pain. Emotional and physical pain. It’s what I know, what I understand, what I need.”
“So you hurt yourself?”
“I didn’t—”
He cuts me off with a scowl. “Don’t lie to me.” He pauses, and his voice takes on a deeper, cutting edge. “Show me.”
My mouth goes dry at his abrupt command, and I fiddle with the edge of my skirt, at once indignant that he would try to boss me around and aroused that he did.
“What if I did?” I say defiantly. “There’s nothing you can do about it.”
His corded throat tightens when he swallows, and he fixes me with a level stare. “I’ll give you what you need.”
All the air leaves my lungs in a rush, and I feel a disconcerting wetness between my thighs. “You wouldn’t dare. I’m at work.”
“Try me.”
Electricity sparks in the air between us, and a curious mix of fear and arousal courses through my veins. Stiffening my spine, I curl my fingers under the edge of my skirt and draw it slowly, painfully slowly up my thighs. Jack stills. His eyes flick down and then back up again. He licks his lips, and his eyes darken.
I have awakened the beast.
* * *
RAMPAGE
She stares at me. Defiant. Beautiful. But beneath her challenge I can feel her need—a need for pain, a need the sadist in me cannot ignore.
A man doesn’t hurt a woman. Not where I come from. But when I found BDSM, I learned that there are many people who take pleasure in pain, whether it is to heighten their arousal or to fill an emotional need. Although I have accepted my kink, I still haven’t been able to free myself of the judgment that goes with it. I can’t forget the horror on Avery’s face or the disappointment of my family when I told them it was not something that could be “cured.” I am the antithesis of who I was raised to be, and yet Penny calls to the deepest, darkest side of me and I cannot resist.
