For I Have Sinned
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One of the nurses looked up, a gorgeous Hispanic woman with a short bob and almond shaped eyes. The hunger on her face said it all. She grabbed the coffee and took a hesitant sip, blowing into the opening on the lid first.
“It’s been ages. To what do I owe the pleasure?” she asked, a dreamy countenance coming over her after she swallowed. Then she chuckled, stepped around the desk and gave Charley a bear-like hug.
“Well—”
“Your hair is wet,” she said, interrupting. “Charley, I swear. It’s, like, seven degrees out.”
“No way. It’s nine at the lowest.”
I looked around as Charley and her friend caught up on the everyday goings on of life. The rooms around us were dark, but of course I could see tiny beds and massive machines and I realized we were on the preemie ward. Just being there seemed to reawaken something within me. A longing. A desire. A blinding need to create and protect, so powerful that it almost hurt. I clawed past it, pushed it back down and steeled myself against its talons.
“So you’ll call around?” Charley asked as I turned to head back. I stopped short a moment, stunned once again by her beckoning light, the glittering aura that encompassed her.
“Absolutely. I know several nurses at each hospital. I’ll find out.”
“What is she looking for?” I asked Charley, retracing my steps.
“Oh, excuse me one minute,” she said to her friend and opened her phone again. Apparently her friend didn’t know about me. “Hey, what’s up?”
“Um, okay, what is she loo—”
“Right, Nancy’s looking now. Keep your panties on, Uncle Bob. We’ll figure this out.”
I thought she might actually have a call this time, then she looked directly at me and winked.
“Uh-huh, she’s looking for anything like that. A pregnant woman in her late twenties who might have died recently. She’s checking all the hospitals in the city.”
I glanced at the floor. “But if I took my own life—”
“We don’t know that.” She touched my hand to bring me back. “We don’t know what happened.”
Just then, her brows bunched together and she looked past me, her expression suddenly annoyed.
Turning, I saw it too. Him. Reyes. In all his glory. He stood down the hall from the nurse’s station, gazing through a glass panel into one of the rooms with all the big machines and tiny beds. I got a better look this time at his corded arms, thick chest, shadowed jaw that outlined his mouth to perfection.
After a quick glance at her friend, Charley strolled closer to him, keeping the phone at her ear.
Her friend offered her a quick glance, but she clearly could no more see Reyes than she could see me.
“You’re not still mad about that putting-a-knife-to-your-throat thing, are you?” he asked without taking his eyes off the glass. “That was days ago, and not entirely my fault.”
“What part of I have a case are you not understanding?” Charley said into the phone.
He didn’t answer. With a smile that would charm the fur off a fox, he said, “Babies are cool.”
Charley smiled too and looked into the room. “They don’t even look real,” she agreed, squinting inside, her face full of admiration. “They look like dolls. Well, dolls with lots of wires and breathing apparatuses. Poor little things.”
He touched the glass with an index finger, pointing. “That one’s going to be professional football player.”
At first Charley laughed, but when he didn’t join in, she aimed a wary expression at him. “Do you really know that?”
Again, without taking his eyes off the infant, he said, “I really know that.”
“Oh, my gosh.” She looked at the baby with a new purpose. “But he’s so small.”
Reyes shrugged. “He gets over it.”
Charley gave a soft chuckle. “I hope so.”
I couldn’t look. I couldn’t bring myself to acknowledge what I’d done, the life I’d destroyed. The life I had to have destroyed.
“Don’t you want to know why I’m here?” Reyes asked after a moment. He’d crossed his arms over his chest and focused his sultry gaze on Charley.
“Nope.”
Taking a miniscule step toward her, he said, “Would you put that ridiculous phone down?”
“Nope again.” As she studied the tiny being behind the glass, Reyes lifted a hand and ran a finger over her jaw and down her neck, leaving trail of dark smoke to caress her skin. Charley took a deep breath, inhaling his essence, before shaking her head and stepping away. “Stop.”
He eased closer. “Stop me.”
She put a hand on his chest and he covered it with one of his own, a beseeching look in his eye, as though begging her. But she pushed him away and he vanished once again with a devilish grin, leaving a shadowy fog in his wake.
“What are you doing?” Charley’s friend asked. She was walking down the hallway toward us, a piece of paper in her hand.
“Oh,” Charley said, recovering, “I was... There was a bug.”
The nurse looked around. “And you were nudging it away?” When Charley just shrugged and closed her phone, her friend handed her the paper. “A woman died last night at St. Joseph’s hospital. She was pregnant.”
My heartbeat skyrocketed as Charley studied the paper. Or I think it did. Did I have a heartbeat?
“Do you have a time of death?” Charley asked.
“Nothing exact. Sometime early this morning.”
“Got it.” After scanning the paper again, Charley said, “Well, I guess I’m off to St. Joseph’s.
Thanks for the help.”
“Thanks for the mocha latte,” the nurse replied, pulling Charley into a hug. “And someday you are going to tell me what all this was about.”
“Someday,” she agreed, grinning at me over the woman’s shoulder.
We made our way across town to St. Joseph’s, neither of us saying much. The parking lot was deserted as light was just now cresting the horizon. But it was a light I could see, colorful and magnificent. Natural. We went inside and found the nurse’s contact, an RN named Jillian Lightfoot. Charley introduced herself and asked about me, claiming she’d been a friend of mine and had been worried sick.