If I held fast, however, the water level would fall when the storm passed. Eventually the service walkway would reappear out of the tide. The stream would become shallow enough to ford, as it had been before.
Perseverance.
To keep my mind occupied, I maintained a mental inventory of the flotsam that bobbed past. A palm frond. A blue tennis ball. A bicycle tire.
For a little while I thought about working at Tire World, about being part of the tire life, working around the fine smell of rubber, and that made me happy.
A yellow lawn-chair cushion. The green lid of a picnic cooler. A length of two-by-six with a rusty spike bristling from it. A dead rattlesnake.
The dead snake alerted me to the possibility of a live snake in the flood. For that matter, if a sizable chunk of lumber, like that two-by-six, propelled by the brisk current, knocked hard against my spine, it might do some damage.
I began glancing over my shoulder from time to time, surveying the oncoming debris. Maybe the snake had been a warning sign. Because of it, I spotted Andre upstream, before he was on top of me.
FIFTY-EIGHT
EVIL NEVER DIES. IT JUST CHANGES FACES.
Of this face, I’d seen enough, too much, and when I spotted the giant, I thought for an instant—and fondly hoped—that only a corpse pursued me.
But he was alive, all right, and friskier than I. Too impatient for the swift current to bring him to the depth marker, he flailed, splashed, determined to swim toward me. I had nowhere to go but up.
My muscles ached. My back throbbed. My wet hands on the wet post seemed certain to fail me.
Fortunately, the inch and foot lines that measured the depth were not merely indicated with black paint on the white background, but were also notched into the wood. These features served as grip points, toe-holds, shallow but better than nothing.
I clamped the post with my knees and pushed myself with my thigh muscles even as I clawed upward, hand over hand. I slipped back, dug my toes in, clamped my knees, tried again, moved up an inch, another inch, two more, desperate for every one of them.
When Andre collided with the post, I felt the impact and glanced down. His features were as broad and blunt as a club. His eyes were edge weapons, sharp with homicidal fury.
With one hand, he reached for me. He had long arms. His fingers brushed the bottom of my right shoe.
I pulled my legs up. Afraid of slipping back and into his hands, measuring progress by the numbered notches, I inchwormed until my head bumped the ceiling.
When I glanced down again, I saw that even with my legs drawn up as far as they would go, so that I clamped the post fiercely with my thighs, I was only about ten inches beyond his reach.
He hooked his thick blunt fingers into the notched marks with some difficulty. He struggled to pull himself out of the water.
The top of the depth marker had a finial, like that on a newel post at the head of a staircase. With my left hand, I gripped that knob and held on as poor King Kong had held on to the dirigible-mooring mast at the top of the Empire State Building.
The analogy didn’t quite work because Kong was below me on the post. Maybe that made me Fay Wray. The big ape did seem to have an unnatural passion for me.
My legs had slipped. I felt Andre paw at my shoe. Furiously, I kicked his hand, kicked, and drew my legs up again.
Remembering Datura’s pistol under my belt, at the small of my back, I reached for it with my right hand. I had lost it along the way.
While I fumbled for the missing handgun, the brute surged up the post and seized my left ankle.
I kicked and thrashed, but he held tight. In fact, he took a risk, let go of the post, and gripped my ankle with both hands.
His great weight dragged on me so pitilessly that my hip should have dislocated. I heard a shout of pain and rage, then again, but did not realize until the second time that the shout came from me.
The finial at the top of the depth marker had not been carved from the end of the post. The ornament had been made separately and applied.
It broke loose in my hand.
Together, Andre and I fell into the flood tide.
FIFTY-NINE
AS WE FELL, I SLIPPED OUT OF HIS GRASP.
I hit the water with sufficient force to go under, touch bottom. The powerful current rolled me, spun me, and I burst to the surface, coughing and sputtering.
Cheval Andre, the bull, the stallion, floated directly ahead of me, fifteen feet away, facing me. Pitted against the punishing surge, he was not able to swim to the rendezvous with death that he clearly desired.
His burning fury, his seething hatred, his lust for violence were so consuming that he would exhaust himself beyond recovery to have vengeance, and did not care that he would drown, too, after drowning me.
Aside from Datura’s cheap physical appeal, I could not account for any quality in her that should elicit the absolute commitment of body, mind, and heart from any man, let alone from one who seemed to have no slightest capacity for sentimentality. Could this hard brute love beauty so much that he would die for it, even when it truly was skin deep and corrupted, even when she who possessed it had been mad, narcissistic, and manipulative?
We were pawns of the flood, which spun us, lifted us, dropped us, dunked us, and bore us along at maybe thirty miles an hour, maybe faster. Sometimes we closed to within six feet of each other. Never were we farther apart than twenty.
We passed the place at which I had entered these tunnels earlier in the day, and raced onward.
I began to worry that we would sweep out of the lighted length of the tunnel, into darkness, and I feared plunging blindly into the subterranean lake less than I feared not being able to keep Andre in sight. If I was destined to drown, let the flood itself claim me. I didn’t want to die at his hands.
Ahead, flush to the circumference of the great tunnel, a pair of steel gates together formed a circle. They resembled a portcullis in that they featured both horizontal and vertical bars.
Between the crossed members of this grating, the openings were four inches square. The gate served as a final filter of the flood-borne debris.
A marked quickening of the water suggested that a falls lay not far ahead, and the lake no doubt waited below those cascades. Beyond the gates, impenetrable blackness promised an abyss.
The river brought Andre to the gate first, and I slammed against it a couple of seconds later, six feet to his right.
Upon impact, he clawed over the clog of trash at the base of the gate, and pulled himself onto it.
Stunned, I wanted only to cling there, rest, but because I knew that he would come for me, I clambered over the trash, too, and onto the gate. We hung motionless for but a moment, like a spider and its prey upon a web.
He crabbed sideways along the steel grid. He didn’t appear to be breathing half as hard as I was.
I would have preferred to retreat, but I could move only two or three feet away from him before I encountered the wall.
Both feet on a vertical bar, gripping the gate with one hand, I extracted the fishing knife from my jeans. On the third try, when he had drawn within arm’s length of me, I flicked the blade out of the handle.
The grievous hour had come round at last. It was him or me. Fish or cut bait.
Fearless of the knife, he crabbed closer and reached for me.
I slashed his hand.
Instead of crying out or flinching, he clutched the blade in his bleeding fist.
At some cost to him, I ripped the knife away from him.
With his wounded hand, he seized a fistful of my hair and tried to yank me off the gate.
As dirty as it was, and intimate, as terrible as it was, and necessary, I drove the knife deep into his gut and without hesitation slashed down.
Relinquishing the twist of my hair, he seized the wrist of the hand that held the knife. He let go of the gate, fell into the flood, and pulled me with him.
We rolled across the gate-held trash and plunged underwater, broke the surface, face to face, my hand in his, the knife contested, thrashing, his free hand a club battering my shoulder, battering the side of my head, then pulling me down with him, submerged, blind in the murky water, blind and suffocating, then up and into the air once more, coughing, spitting, vision blurred, and somehow he had gotten possession of the knife, the point of which felt not sharp but hot in a diagonal slash across my chest.
I have no memory from that slash until a short but inestimable time later, when I realized that I was lying across the accumulation of debris at the base of the gate, holding to a horizontal bar with both hands, afraid that I was going to slip down into the water and not be able to get my head above the surface again.
Exhausted, all power drained, strength consumed, I realized that I had lost consciousness, that I would pass out again, momentarily. I managed, barely, to pull myself up farther on the gate, to hook both arms around verticals, so if my hands relaxed and slipped loose, the crooks of my elbows might still hold me above the flood.
At my left side, he floated, snagged on the trash, faceup, dead. His eyes were rolled back in his head, as smooth and white as eggs, as white and blind as bone, as blind and terrible as Nature in her indifference.
I went away.
SIXTY
THE RATAPLAN OF NIGHT RAIN AGAINST THE WINDOWS… Wafting in from the kitchen, the delicious aroma of a pot roast taking its time in the oven…
In his living room, Little Ozzie fills his huge armchair to overflowing.
The warm light of the Tiffany lamps, the jewel tones of the Persian carpet, the art and artifacts reflect his good taste.
On the table beside his chair is a bottle of fine Cabernet, a plate of cheeses, a cup of fried walnuts, which serve as a testament to his genteel quest for self-destruction.
I sit on the sofa and watch him enjoy the book for a while before I say You’re always reading Saul Bellow and Hemingway and Joseph Conrad.
He does not permit himself to be interrupted in the middle of a paragraph.
I bet you’d like to write something more ambitious than stories about a bulimic detective
.
Ozzie sighs and samples the cheese, eyes fixed on the page.
You’re so talented, I’m sure you could write whatever you want. I wonder if you’ve ever tried.
He sets the book aside and picks up his wine.
Oh,
I say, surprised. I see how it is.
Ozzie savors the wine and, still holding the glass, stares into the middle distance, not at anything in this room.
Sir, I wish you could hear me say this. You were a dear friend to me. I’m so glad you made me write the story of me and Stormy and what happened to her.
After another taste of wine, he opens the book and returns to his reading.
I might have gone mad if you hadn’t made me write it. And if I hadn’t written it, for sure I would never have had any peace.
Terrible Chester, as glorious as ever, enters from the kitchen and stands staring at me.
If things had worked out, I’d have written about all this with Danny, too, and given you a second manuscript. You would have liked it less than the first, but maybe a little.
Chester visits with me as never he has before, sits at my feet.
Sir, when they come to tell you about me, please don’t eat a whole ham in one night, don’t deep-fry a block of cheese.
I reach down to stroke Terrible Chester, and he seems to like my touch.
What you could do for me, sir, is just once write a story of the kind you’d most enjoy writing. If you’ll do that for me, I’ll have given back the gift that you gave me, and that would make me happy
.
I rise from the sofa.
Sir, you’re a dear, fat, wise, fat, generous, honorable, caring, wonderfully fat man, and I wouldn’t have you any other way.
TERRI STAMBAUGH SITS in her apartment kitchen above the Pico Mundo Grille, drinking strong coffee and paging slowly through an album of photographs.
Looking over her shoulder, I see snapshots of her with Kelsey, the husband she lost to cancer.
On her music system, Elvis sings I Forgot to Remember to Forget.
I put my hands on her shoulders. She does not react, of course.
She gave me so much—encouragement, a job at sixteen, the skills of a first-rate fry cook, counsel—and all I gave her in return was my friendship, which doesn’t seem enough.
I wish I could spook her with a supernatural moment. Make the hands spin on the Elvis wall clock. Send that ceramic Elvis dancing across the kitchen counter.
Later, when they came to tell her, she would know it had been me, fooling with her, saying good-bye. Then she would know I was all right, and knowing I was all right, she would be all right, too.
But I don’t have the anger to be a poltergeist. Not even enough to make the face of Elvis appear in the condensation on her kitchen window.
CHIEF WYATT PORTER and his wife, Karla, are having dinner in their kitchen.
She is a good cook, and he is a good eater. He claims this is what holds their marriage together.
She says what holds their marriage together is that she feels too damn sorry for him to ask for a divorce.
What really holds their marriage together are mutual respect of an awesome depth, a shared sense of humor, faith that they were brought together by a force greater than themselves, and a love so unwavering and pure that it is sacred.
This is how I like to believe Stormy and I would have been if we could have gotten married and lived together as long as the chief and Karla: so perfect for each other that spaghetti and a salad in the kitchen on a rainy night, just the two of them, is more satisfying and more gladdening to the heart than dinner at the finest restaurant in Paris.
I sit at the table with them, uninvited. I am embarrassed to be eavesdropping on their simple yet enrapturing conversation, but this will be the only time that it ever happens. I will not linger. I will move on.
After a while, his cell phone rings.
I hope that’s Odd, he says.
She puts down her fork, wipes her hands on a napkin as she says, If something’s wrong with Oddie, I want to come.
Hello, says the chief. Bill Burton?
Bill owns the Blue Moon Cafe.
The chief frowns. Yes, Bill. Of course. Odd Thomas? What about him?
As if with a presentiment, Karla pushes her chair away from the table and gets to her feet.
The chief says, We’ll be right there.
Rising from the table as he does, I say, Sir, the dead do talk, after all. But the living don’t listen.
SIXTY-ONE
HERE IS THE CENTRAL MYSTERY: HOW I GOT FROM THE portcullis-style gate in the flood tunnel to the kitchen door of the Blue Moon Cafe, a journey of which I have no slightest recollection.
I do believe that I died. The visits I paid to Ozzie, to Terri, and to the Porters in their kitchen were not figments of a dream.
Later, when I shared my story with them, my description of what each of them was doing when I visited comports perfectly with their separate recollections of their evenings.
Bill Burton says I arrived battered and bedraggled at the back door of his restaurant, asking him to call Chief Porter. By then the rain had stopped, and I was so filthy that he set a chair outside for me and fetched a bottle of beer, which in his opinion, I needed.
