“I think I get everything but the riding lessons,” Kelly said.
“Well, I had a horse….”
“Yes, I know. It led to your father, Sam, going down in a hail of bullets…”
He chuckled. “Yes, I lost my horse to an injury, everything else in the Deerslayer story was pure fiction. But riding can be so good for a kid. I tried to convince Court to just check it out, just see if it could appeal to her, with the secret hope that it might give her something that would take her from grief and anger to confidence and responsibility. But, as it turned out, my idea didn’t sway her at all. However, the instructor’s stepson, about eighteen years old with broad shoulders and a braid down his back to his waist, appeared at the stable and Courtney decided she’d give riding a shot.”
Kelly laughed. “So under it all, a normal girl.”
Lief put his arm around her shoulders. “That’s what I’m hoping.”
“I bet you were hoping I’d know exactly what to say to a surly fourteen-year-old with hair in several colors…” Kelly said.
“Well, I don’t, that’s for sure,” he admitted.
“I hope you’re not too disappointed…”
He grabbed her chin in his thumb and finger, turned her face up and looked into her eyes. “Nothing about you disappoints me, Kelly. I wasn’t attracted to your mothering skills.”
“Lucky for you. I don’t have any.”
“That’s not what I’m after. I’m not looking for someone to take care of Courtney for me—I’m going to do the best I can with that. In fact, I wasn’t after anything. You took me by surprise. I saw you and something started to happen to me…”
“Yeah, and I started to pass out on the bar and needed help getting home…”
He smiled at her. “I’ve been off the market a long time, so it was unexpected, but the minute I saw you I needed to kiss you. When Colin lifted you out of the truck to carry you upstairs, I wanted that to be me. You turn me on like mad. And I know I have a lot more on my plate than you ever bargained for, but try to remember it’s my plate, not yours. Now, I don’t get many nights off and I don’t want to spend this one grousing about my teenager.” He took a breath. “Come home with me.”
She was shocked. “But what about…your teenager!”
“She can’t drive. The Hawkinses wouldn’t leave her on the doorstep if she needed to come home—they’d call me. I’d go get her. Go write a note to Jill. Come home with me.”
“Seriously? Because I’m not sure I’m ready for that. Quite yet.”
“I was sure the minute I met you.”
Oh, she wanted to. She knew what it was like to be off the market, too—it had been a couple of years that she’d been unable to see anyone but Luca in her vision. And she felt the pull with Lief. Like him, she’d felt it almost immediately. It would feel so good to slip into his bed, feel his arms around her, experience him. She had the craziest idea that with him she wouldn’t feel she’d just wasted her time… But…
“I’m sorry, Lief. That’s not going to happen tonight…” She took a breath. “And believe me, I am sorry…”
He kissed her brow. “Just not ready yet?”
She shook her head.
“I think I could get you ready…” he said, kissing the corner of her mouth, her neck, her ear.
“I’m not really old-fashioned, either. And I’m not going to kid you—you’re very tempting. But my life is a little unsettled now. And yours isn’t exactly—”
He tightened his arms around her. “I know. It’s cumbersome. It is what it is. I’m not going to apologize.”
“Then you’ll understand this,” she said. “Before I find myself in love with you, I’d better make sure I’m up to it.”
“Perfectly understandable. Maybe I should have waited, too.”
“Waited?” she asked.
“To fall in love.”
Nine
Kelly was up long before the sun, burrowed into the kitchen, chopping, dicing, cooking, boiling jars. Thinking.
Jillian was an early riser, and by the time she came into the kitchen, there were already two dozen filled canning jars lined up on the counter and another large pot simmering with a new batch. Jillian looked in the pot. “Nana’s peach chutney?” she asked.
“And spicy peach and tomato,” Kelly said.
“Good lord, what time were you up?”
“I’m not even sure. At least three hours ago.” She gave her pot a hearty stir.
“Did Lief leave right after Colin and I turned in last night?” Jill asked.
“No. He stayed late. We pulled a second Duraflame out of the shed.”
“And you’ve been awake for hours? What’s up with that?”
Kelly looked at her sister and shook her head. “I didn’t sleep well at all.” She banged the spoon on the side of the pot, laid it in the spoon rest and leaned against the counter. “I always saw myself as a good planner. Real sensible and logical and not overly emotional.”
“Pragmatic, I would say,” Jill agreed. “But sensitive. You’re very sensitive, Kelly. What’s the matter? Did he hurt your feelings?”
She shook her head again. “He told me he loves me.”
“Get out!” Jillian said. “Love? Really, love?”
“What a fool, huh?” Kelly asked, wiping her hands on a towel. “He must be crazy.”
“Well… I wouldn’t call him a fool. I’d just call him quick and to the point. And obviously someone who doesn’t need a lot of time to know what he wants…”
“Honestly, my ridiculous romantic situations lately make your romantic foibles look like kid’s stuff.”
Jillian perched up on one of the stools at the workstation. “I’ve given all that up since I met Colin. He is my last impulsive act.” Then she smiled sentimentally.
Kelly took the chair opposite her sister. “Do you have any idea how long it’s been since I had a real boyfriend? I mean, a reasonably available, totally single, relatively normal boyfriend? Over two years and that was a brief one. Since then I’ve fallen in love with a married man with five grown kids and the wife from hell and a single father with one of the most…interesting teenage daughters I’ve ever met.”
“At least you didn’t sleep with the married man…”
“I haven’t slept with the single father, either! And trust me, I’m not feeling any more calm because of that decision!”
Jillian smiled. “Love talk didn’t lead to sex talk?”
“No,” Kelly said, clearly disappointed. “I couldn’t let that happen. I don’t think I’d better get any closer to him right now. He has a complicated life. Issues with his daughter.”
Jillian grinned. “I met her. She liked my costume.”
Kelly lifted a brow. “Did she ask you to black out a tooth for her?”
“Hey, I liked her.” Jill laughed. “She’s a smart aleck.”
“Well, clearly you’re no threat to her. She wasn’t all that nice to me.”
“Oh, that’ll probably pass. When she gets used to you.”
“Jill, yesterday was pivotal for me in some ways. While we were hosting the town I fell in love with Virgin River. A person just won’t grind their molars flat in a place like this—there are too many good souls around to shore you up, lend a hand, make you laugh, make you feel like an important part of something. And here’s a perfect man, too—gorgeous, sexy, sincere, strong and ready. But I’m not equipped to take on a teenage girl who lives to press the edges of the envelope. And no one takes on Lief without taking on the daughter. She wasn’t dressed up for Halloween, you realize. That’s her look!”
Jill laughed. “What about the dad?”
Kelly thought for a moment. “I adore him,” she said after a moment. “He’s everything a woman could want in a man. And for as much as I think his daughter is too much baggage for me, I admire him so much for refusing to make her less than a priority. He’s completely devoted to her. And not out of some weird obligation—he really understands what she might be going through since losing her mother.” And then she went back to stirring her pot again.
“He sounds pretty perfect.”
“Yeah. Everything that makes me love him also makes me keep him at arm’s length. I’m just not ready.”
“And you’re trying to cook your way out of it?” Jill asked.
Kelly shrugged. “That’s what I do. Cook my way through the problems.”
“And what are you going to do with this stuff?”
“While I’m waiting for permits and licenses, I’ll keep giving it away as free samples, see if I can get anyone interested. Then when I’m legal, I’ll know where to take my stock.”
“Excellent idea!” Jill agreed. “Have you thought about selling on the internet?”
“I have absolutely no idea what that involves!”
“Let’s look into it,” Jill suggested. “Might be a good idea. If not, we move on.”
“We?” Kelly asked.
Jill put her elbows on the work island and leaned toward Kelly. “I love that you’re living here. I love having you use this beautiful new kitchen. I love that you can use what I can grow. We’ll make a great team. The longer I can keep this little love fest going, the better I like it.”
Just a few days after that conversation, Colin came into the kitchen while Kelly was up to her elbows in Nana’s sweet relish. It hadn’t taken her long to have a thousand jars of canned gourmet specialties stacked up and out of the way in the unfurnished dining room.
“This is just amazing,” Colin said. “You’re like a factory.”
Kelly shrugged off the compliment. “I’m pretty efficient. And it doesn’t hurt to have a nice big six-burner gas stove. While the relish simmers, I chop and mix. While the relish cools, I simmer a new batch. I probably produce over a hundred jars a day.”
“Have you heard from the health department yet?”
“Yes,” she said, smiling. “With the economy struggling, restaurants closing and growing in the off-season, they’re not busy. I’m going to have an inspector any day now. And this kitchen is going to get an A-plus.”
“And you,” he said.
“I’d better. I already have my state food handler’s certificate.”
“I have something for you to look at.” He put his sketch pad on the work island. “If I’m overstepping or none of this appeals, you won’t offend me by just saying so. I was fooling around, that’s all.”
She flipped through the pictures with captions. “What is this?” she asked.
“Possible labels for your canned delicacies. I know—you didn’t ask me to do this and I got involved on my own. But Kelly, you could use something besides a Magic Marker. Seriously. And if you have a something in mind, just say so. I can have labels printed for you in no time.”
She glanced through the pictures, from baskets of vegetables to images of her face, logos, slogans—they were fantastic. There was one that really caught her eye. On the top it said “From Jilly Farms.” Right under that it said, “Spicy Peach & Tomato Chutney.” On the right side was a picture of Kelly, on the left a picture of Jillian. On the bottom—“All Natural, All Organic, All Delicious.”
“Where did you get the idea for this?” she asked.
“Well, Jilly trademarked Jilly Farms as well as the slogan, and the other night she said she wished she could just keep growing for your cooking—it’s so much more appealing to her than shipping her produce to restaurants and delis. It gave me this idea. You might be getting some of your fruits and vegetables from other stores and farms at the moment, but it occurred to me that this was possible…. I thought maybe Jilly could one day be your supplier. Have you been out to the greenhouses lately? Because she’s got a good winter crop going out there, thanks to irrigation, lights and warmers.”
“Well, I had a horse….”
“Yes, I know. It led to your father, Sam, going down in a hail of bullets…”
He chuckled. “Yes, I lost my horse to an injury, everything else in the Deerslayer story was pure fiction. But riding can be so good for a kid. I tried to convince Court to just check it out, just see if it could appeal to her, with the secret hope that it might give her something that would take her from grief and anger to confidence and responsibility. But, as it turned out, my idea didn’t sway her at all. However, the instructor’s stepson, about eighteen years old with broad shoulders and a braid down his back to his waist, appeared at the stable and Courtney decided she’d give riding a shot.”
Kelly laughed. “So under it all, a normal girl.”
Lief put his arm around her shoulders. “That’s what I’m hoping.”
“I bet you were hoping I’d know exactly what to say to a surly fourteen-year-old with hair in several colors…” Kelly said.
“Well, I don’t, that’s for sure,” he admitted.
“I hope you’re not too disappointed…”
He grabbed her chin in his thumb and finger, turned her face up and looked into her eyes. “Nothing about you disappoints me, Kelly. I wasn’t attracted to your mothering skills.”
“Lucky for you. I don’t have any.”
“That’s not what I’m after. I’m not looking for someone to take care of Courtney for me—I’m going to do the best I can with that. In fact, I wasn’t after anything. You took me by surprise. I saw you and something started to happen to me…”
“Yeah, and I started to pass out on the bar and needed help getting home…”
He smiled at her. “I’ve been off the market a long time, so it was unexpected, but the minute I saw you I needed to kiss you. When Colin lifted you out of the truck to carry you upstairs, I wanted that to be me. You turn me on like mad. And I know I have a lot more on my plate than you ever bargained for, but try to remember it’s my plate, not yours. Now, I don’t get many nights off and I don’t want to spend this one grousing about my teenager.” He took a breath. “Come home with me.”
She was shocked. “But what about…your teenager!”
“She can’t drive. The Hawkinses wouldn’t leave her on the doorstep if she needed to come home—they’d call me. I’d go get her. Go write a note to Jill. Come home with me.”
“Seriously? Because I’m not sure I’m ready for that. Quite yet.”
“I was sure the minute I met you.”
Oh, she wanted to. She knew what it was like to be off the market, too—it had been a couple of years that she’d been unable to see anyone but Luca in her vision. And she felt the pull with Lief. Like him, she’d felt it almost immediately. It would feel so good to slip into his bed, feel his arms around her, experience him. She had the craziest idea that with him she wouldn’t feel she’d just wasted her time… But…
“I’m sorry, Lief. That’s not going to happen tonight…” She took a breath. “And believe me, I am sorry…”
He kissed her brow. “Just not ready yet?”
She shook her head.
“I think I could get you ready…” he said, kissing the corner of her mouth, her neck, her ear.
“I’m not really old-fashioned, either. And I’m not going to kid you—you’re very tempting. But my life is a little unsettled now. And yours isn’t exactly—”
He tightened his arms around her. “I know. It’s cumbersome. It is what it is. I’m not going to apologize.”
“Then you’ll understand this,” she said. “Before I find myself in love with you, I’d better make sure I’m up to it.”
“Perfectly understandable. Maybe I should have waited, too.”
“Waited?” she asked.
“To fall in love.”
Nine
Kelly was up long before the sun, burrowed into the kitchen, chopping, dicing, cooking, boiling jars. Thinking.
Jillian was an early riser, and by the time she came into the kitchen, there were already two dozen filled canning jars lined up on the counter and another large pot simmering with a new batch. Jillian looked in the pot. “Nana’s peach chutney?” she asked.
“And spicy peach and tomato,” Kelly said.
“Good lord, what time were you up?”
“I’m not even sure. At least three hours ago.” She gave her pot a hearty stir.
“Did Lief leave right after Colin and I turned in last night?” Jill asked.
“No. He stayed late. We pulled a second Duraflame out of the shed.”
“And you’ve been awake for hours? What’s up with that?”
Kelly looked at her sister and shook her head. “I didn’t sleep well at all.” She banged the spoon on the side of the pot, laid it in the spoon rest and leaned against the counter. “I always saw myself as a good planner. Real sensible and logical and not overly emotional.”
“Pragmatic, I would say,” Jill agreed. “But sensitive. You’re very sensitive, Kelly. What’s the matter? Did he hurt your feelings?”
She shook her head again. “He told me he loves me.”
“Get out!” Jillian said. “Love? Really, love?”
“What a fool, huh?” Kelly asked, wiping her hands on a towel. “He must be crazy.”
“Well… I wouldn’t call him a fool. I’d just call him quick and to the point. And obviously someone who doesn’t need a lot of time to know what he wants…”
“Honestly, my ridiculous romantic situations lately make your romantic foibles look like kid’s stuff.”
Jillian perched up on one of the stools at the workstation. “I’ve given all that up since I met Colin. He is my last impulsive act.” Then she smiled sentimentally.
Kelly took the chair opposite her sister. “Do you have any idea how long it’s been since I had a real boyfriend? I mean, a reasonably available, totally single, relatively normal boyfriend? Over two years and that was a brief one. Since then I’ve fallen in love with a married man with five grown kids and the wife from hell and a single father with one of the most…interesting teenage daughters I’ve ever met.”
“At least you didn’t sleep with the married man…”
“I haven’t slept with the single father, either! And trust me, I’m not feeling any more calm because of that decision!”
Jillian smiled. “Love talk didn’t lead to sex talk?”
“No,” Kelly said, clearly disappointed. “I couldn’t let that happen. I don’t think I’d better get any closer to him right now. He has a complicated life. Issues with his daughter.”
Jillian grinned. “I met her. She liked my costume.”
Kelly lifted a brow. “Did she ask you to black out a tooth for her?”
“Hey, I liked her.” Jill laughed. “She’s a smart aleck.”
“Well, clearly you’re no threat to her. She wasn’t all that nice to me.”
“Oh, that’ll probably pass. When she gets used to you.”
“Jill, yesterday was pivotal for me in some ways. While we were hosting the town I fell in love with Virgin River. A person just won’t grind their molars flat in a place like this—there are too many good souls around to shore you up, lend a hand, make you laugh, make you feel like an important part of something. And here’s a perfect man, too—gorgeous, sexy, sincere, strong and ready. But I’m not equipped to take on a teenage girl who lives to press the edges of the envelope. And no one takes on Lief without taking on the daughter. She wasn’t dressed up for Halloween, you realize. That’s her look!”
Jill laughed. “What about the dad?”
Kelly thought for a moment. “I adore him,” she said after a moment. “He’s everything a woman could want in a man. And for as much as I think his daughter is too much baggage for me, I admire him so much for refusing to make her less than a priority. He’s completely devoted to her. And not out of some weird obligation—he really understands what she might be going through since losing her mother.” And then she went back to stirring her pot again.
“He sounds pretty perfect.”
“Yeah. Everything that makes me love him also makes me keep him at arm’s length. I’m just not ready.”
“And you’re trying to cook your way out of it?” Jill asked.
Kelly shrugged. “That’s what I do. Cook my way through the problems.”
“And what are you going to do with this stuff?”
“While I’m waiting for permits and licenses, I’ll keep giving it away as free samples, see if I can get anyone interested. Then when I’m legal, I’ll know where to take my stock.”
“Excellent idea!” Jill agreed. “Have you thought about selling on the internet?”
“I have absolutely no idea what that involves!”
“Let’s look into it,” Jill suggested. “Might be a good idea. If not, we move on.”
“We?” Kelly asked.
Jill put her elbows on the work island and leaned toward Kelly. “I love that you’re living here. I love having you use this beautiful new kitchen. I love that you can use what I can grow. We’ll make a great team. The longer I can keep this little love fest going, the better I like it.”
Just a few days after that conversation, Colin came into the kitchen while Kelly was up to her elbows in Nana’s sweet relish. It hadn’t taken her long to have a thousand jars of canned gourmet specialties stacked up and out of the way in the unfurnished dining room.
“This is just amazing,” Colin said. “You’re like a factory.”
Kelly shrugged off the compliment. “I’m pretty efficient. And it doesn’t hurt to have a nice big six-burner gas stove. While the relish simmers, I chop and mix. While the relish cools, I simmer a new batch. I probably produce over a hundred jars a day.”
“Have you heard from the health department yet?”
“Yes,” she said, smiling. “With the economy struggling, restaurants closing and growing in the off-season, they’re not busy. I’m going to have an inspector any day now. And this kitchen is going to get an A-plus.”
“And you,” he said.
“I’d better. I already have my state food handler’s certificate.”
“I have something for you to look at.” He put his sketch pad on the work island. “If I’m overstepping or none of this appeals, you won’t offend me by just saying so. I was fooling around, that’s all.”
She flipped through the pictures with captions. “What is this?” she asked.
“Possible labels for your canned delicacies. I know—you didn’t ask me to do this and I got involved on my own. But Kelly, you could use something besides a Magic Marker. Seriously. And if you have a something in mind, just say so. I can have labels printed for you in no time.”
She glanced through the pictures, from baskets of vegetables to images of her face, logos, slogans—they were fantastic. There was one that really caught her eye. On the top it said “From Jilly Farms.” Right under that it said, “Spicy Peach & Tomato Chutney.” On the right side was a picture of Kelly, on the left a picture of Jillian. On the bottom—“All Natural, All Organic, All Delicious.”
“Where did you get the idea for this?” she asked.
“Well, Jilly trademarked Jilly Farms as well as the slogan, and the other night she said she wished she could just keep growing for your cooking—it’s so much more appealing to her than shipping her produce to restaurants and delis. It gave me this idea. You might be getting some of your fruits and vegetables from other stores and farms at the moment, but it occurred to me that this was possible…. I thought maybe Jilly could one day be your supplier. Have you been out to the greenhouses lately? Because she’s got a good winter crop going out there, thanks to irrigation, lights and warmers.”
