Ten tears fall, and I call. Nine hundred trees, but only one is for me. Eight times eight times eight they fly, whatever you do, don’t stay dry. Seven ladies dancing, ignore their sweet romancing. Six seconds to hide, up, up, and you’ll survive. Five times four times three, and that is where he’ll be. Two I’ll save, I’ll be brave, brave, brave. The one I adore, I’ll come back for.
The silly song was a road map to salvation. It saved me. Saved Kayla and Reed, too, every line an instruction we’d desperately needed to navigate Many Ends and escape Myriad.
And...I haven’t completed the instructions, I realize. A tremor nearly rocks me off my feet. I left Killian behind, locked in the Kennels. He’s free now, but he might not be free later. I haven’t gone back for him.
One day I’ll go back for him!
The knowledge stirs something deep inside me. Hope, maybe. Or excitement. I will make it back inside Myriad, maybe even Many Ends, and I will leave with Killian at my side. Perhaps Marlowe, too.
A wide smile blooms. This. This has to be one of the reasons Levi asked me to seek out Lina. To be reminded of a future I’ve been promised. A goal I’ve had since before my Firstdeath.
Lina stops, her head snapping in my direction, her milky eyes locking on me. “I was ready. I was ready to die. Why didn’t you let me die?”
“Lina,” I say, and my chin quavers. She almost always speaks as if events have already happened, even when they haven’t. “I want you to live, and live well. And when you die, I want you to live with me in Troika. Would you like that?”
Silence.
I reach out to clasp her hand, but she rears back, as if she knows I’m a Shell. “It’s okay. You can touch me. I give you permission.”
I step closer, giving her time to get used to me but keeping my hands at my sides. Her eyes clear of milk, revealing blue irises that pierce as sharply as daggers.
“One fox in the henhouse,” she says. “In two days he’ll try to eat his mouse.”
Another rhyme. Another set of instructions? My jaw aches as I bite down to avoid asking questions. Through experience I know her answers will only confuse me more. “Lina, let me help you the way you helped me. Let me ensure your future is a good one.”
“I stayed.”
Okay. We’re back to speaking in past tense. “You stayed...here?”
“No, no. I was home. Home!”
Panic radiates from her, and I hold my hands palms out in a sign of surrender. Frightening her wasn’t my intention. “All right,” I say. “You stayed home.”
She backs farther away from me. “One fox in the henhouse. In two days, he’ll try to eat his mouse. Three, yes, three warnings will come. By four five six, you’ll be glum. Look, look, look, for the seven. Eight, nine, Ten is in heaven.”
It is another set of instructions, and my mind whirls. Who is the fox? And who is the mouse?
Why will I be glum? What does she mean by heaven?
“Sleep now,” she says, sitting...then lying down. I want to stroke her forehead, the way she used to do for me, but I don’t want to upset her.
“Lina,” I say, my heart constricting as if someone has reached inside my chest and squeezed the organ in their hands. “I want you to know I forgive you.” One of my number tattoos tingles and glows. At the same time, a weight lifts from my shoulders, a weight I hadn’t even known I’d been carrying. “I forgive you for everything.”
She yawns. “The Key...in your heart all along.”
I jolt. “The Key? It’s in my heart?” A second row of numbers tingles and glows.
“Written in blood.” Another yawn. She closes her eyes, her features softening, the strain fading. “Sleep now.”
I flatten a hand over my heart. For all intents and purposes, this woman is supposed to be my enemy. But she’s not. She’ll never be. I will love her always.
How have other families hated each other over the centuries? How have husbands and wives warred each other? How have mothers turned their backs on their children?
I don’t want to hurt Lina. I want to saturate her in Light.
Is her fragile mind capable of withstanding court? What if she buckles under pressure?
A soft knock sounds at the door. A courtesy knock, only. Deacon doesn’t wait for my response but strides into the room.
“It’s time for us to go.”
I push my grief and confusion to the back of my mind, along with the new riddle. Lockdown!
I know I need to deal with everything. I can’t continue to suppress my feelings. The lockbox is so full the hinges are threatening to bust.
Later. I’ll deal later.
Today, I have a mission to complete, and it deserves my all.
“I’ll be back,” I tell my aunt and move to Deacon’s side. In a matter of minutes, I’ll meet Javier Diez...and spar with Killian.
Ready or not, here I come.
chapter seventeen
* * *
“You cannot accept what’s right if you’re happy doing what’s wrong.”
—Troika
Deacon transports us to...a gym? Oookay. The location is a bit underwhelming considering I expected Killian and Javier to be inside a strip club. But no prob. I can roll.
There’s a boxing ring in the center, where six scantily clad women are hanging over the ropes, watching two muscular guys attempt to punch each other into pulp and powder.
Someone save me! One of those guys is Killian.
The silly song was a road map to salvation. It saved me. Saved Kayla and Reed, too, every line an instruction we’d desperately needed to navigate Many Ends and escape Myriad.
And...I haven’t completed the instructions, I realize. A tremor nearly rocks me off my feet. I left Killian behind, locked in the Kennels. He’s free now, but he might not be free later. I haven’t gone back for him.
One day I’ll go back for him!
The knowledge stirs something deep inside me. Hope, maybe. Or excitement. I will make it back inside Myriad, maybe even Many Ends, and I will leave with Killian at my side. Perhaps Marlowe, too.
A wide smile blooms. This. This has to be one of the reasons Levi asked me to seek out Lina. To be reminded of a future I’ve been promised. A goal I’ve had since before my Firstdeath.
Lina stops, her head snapping in my direction, her milky eyes locking on me. “I was ready. I was ready to die. Why didn’t you let me die?”
“Lina,” I say, and my chin quavers. She almost always speaks as if events have already happened, even when they haven’t. “I want you to live, and live well. And when you die, I want you to live with me in Troika. Would you like that?”
Silence.
I reach out to clasp her hand, but she rears back, as if she knows I’m a Shell. “It’s okay. You can touch me. I give you permission.”
I step closer, giving her time to get used to me but keeping my hands at my sides. Her eyes clear of milk, revealing blue irises that pierce as sharply as daggers.
“One fox in the henhouse,” she says. “In two days he’ll try to eat his mouse.”
Another rhyme. Another set of instructions? My jaw aches as I bite down to avoid asking questions. Through experience I know her answers will only confuse me more. “Lina, let me help you the way you helped me. Let me ensure your future is a good one.”
“I stayed.”
Okay. We’re back to speaking in past tense. “You stayed...here?”
“No, no. I was home. Home!”
Panic radiates from her, and I hold my hands palms out in a sign of surrender. Frightening her wasn’t my intention. “All right,” I say. “You stayed home.”
She backs farther away from me. “One fox in the henhouse. In two days, he’ll try to eat his mouse. Three, yes, three warnings will come. By four five six, you’ll be glum. Look, look, look, for the seven. Eight, nine, Ten is in heaven.”
It is another set of instructions, and my mind whirls. Who is the fox? And who is the mouse?
Why will I be glum? What does she mean by heaven?
“Sleep now,” she says, sitting...then lying down. I want to stroke her forehead, the way she used to do for me, but I don’t want to upset her.
“Lina,” I say, my heart constricting as if someone has reached inside my chest and squeezed the organ in their hands. “I want you to know I forgive you.” One of my number tattoos tingles and glows. At the same time, a weight lifts from my shoulders, a weight I hadn’t even known I’d been carrying. “I forgive you for everything.”
She yawns. “The Key...in your heart all along.”
I jolt. “The Key? It’s in my heart?” A second row of numbers tingles and glows.
“Written in blood.” Another yawn. She closes her eyes, her features softening, the strain fading. “Sleep now.”
I flatten a hand over my heart. For all intents and purposes, this woman is supposed to be my enemy. But she’s not. She’ll never be. I will love her always.
How have other families hated each other over the centuries? How have husbands and wives warred each other? How have mothers turned their backs on their children?
I don’t want to hurt Lina. I want to saturate her in Light.
Is her fragile mind capable of withstanding court? What if she buckles under pressure?
A soft knock sounds at the door. A courtesy knock, only. Deacon doesn’t wait for my response but strides into the room.
“It’s time for us to go.”
I push my grief and confusion to the back of my mind, along with the new riddle. Lockdown!
I know I need to deal with everything. I can’t continue to suppress my feelings. The lockbox is so full the hinges are threatening to bust.
Later. I’ll deal later.
Today, I have a mission to complete, and it deserves my all.
“I’ll be back,” I tell my aunt and move to Deacon’s side. In a matter of minutes, I’ll meet Javier Diez...and spar with Killian.
Ready or not, here I come.
chapter seventeen
* * *
“You cannot accept what’s right if you’re happy doing what’s wrong.”
—Troika
Deacon transports us to...a gym? Oookay. The location is a bit underwhelming considering I expected Killian and Javier to be inside a strip club. But no prob. I can roll.
There’s a boxing ring in the center, where six scantily clad women are hanging over the ropes, watching two muscular guys attempt to punch each other into pulp and powder.
Someone save me! One of those guys is Killian.
