Luring A Lady
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"Of course I will. And I'll apologize, too, for speaking to you the way I did."
Margerite took a little square of lace from her bag and dabbed at her eyes. "You surprised me, I admit. I've never seen you so passionate about anything. He's a beautiful man, dear. I won't say I approve of a relationship between you, but I can certainly understand it." She sighed as she tucked the handkerchief back into her bag. "Your happiness is important to me, Sydney."
"I know that."
Her eyes still glistened when she looked at her daughter. "I'm so glad we cleared the air. And I want to do something for you, something to make up for all of this."
"You don't have to do anything."
"I want to, really. Have dinner with me tonight."
Sydney thought of the dozens of things she had to do, of the quiet meal she'd hoped for at the end of it all with Mikhail. Then she looked at her mother's anxious eyes. "I'd love to."
"Wonderful." The spring was back in her step as Margerite got to her feet. "Eight o'clock. Le Cirque." She gave Sydney a quick and genuine hug before she strolled out.
By eight, Sydney would have preferred a long, solitary nap, but stepped from her car dressed for the evening in a sleeveless silk jumpsuit of icy blue.
"My mother's driver will take me home, Donald."
"Very good, Ms. Hayward. Enjoy your evening."
"Thank you."
The maitre d' recognized her the moment she walked in and gracefully led her to her table himself. As she passed through the elegant restaurant filled with sparkling people and exotic scents, she imagined Mikhail, sitting at his scarred workbench with a bottle of beer and a bowl of goulash.
She tried not to sigh in envy.
When she spotted her mother—with Channing—at the comer table, she tried not to grit her teeth.
"There you are, darling." So certain her surprise was just what her daughter needed, Margerite didn't notice the lights of war in Sydney's eyes. "Isn't this lovely?"
"Lovely." Sydney's voice was flat as Channing rose to pull out her chair. She said nothing when he bent close to kiss her cheek.
"You look beautiful tonight, Sydney."
The champagne was already chilled and open: She waited while hers was poured, but the first sip did nothing to clear the anger from her throat. "Mother didn't mention you'd be joining us tonight."
"That was my surprise," Margerite bubbled like the wine in her glass. "My little make-up present." Following a prearranged signal, she set her napkin aside and rose. "I'm sure you two will excuse me while I powder my nose."
Knowing he only had fifteen minutes to complete his mission, Channing immediately took Sydney's hand. "I've missed you, darling. It seems like weeks since I've had a moment alone with you."
Skillfully Sydney slipped her hand from him. "It has been weeks. How have you been, Channing?"
"Desolate without you." He skimmed a fingertip up her bare arm. She really had exquisite skin. "When are we going to stop playing these games, Sydney?"
"I haven't been playing." She took a sip of wine. "I've been working."
A trace of annoyance clouded his eyes then cleared. He was sure Margerite was right. Once they were married, she would be too busy with him to bother with a career. It was best to get right to the point. "Darling, we've been seeing each other for months now. And of course, we've known each other for years. But things have changed."
She met his eyes. "Yes, they have."
Encouraged, he took her hand again. "I haven't wanted to rush you, but I feel it's time we take the next step. I care for you very much, Sydney. I find you lovely and amusing and sweet."
"And suitable," she muttered.
"Of course. I want you to be my wife." He slipped a box from his pocket, opened the lid so that the round icy diamond could flash in the candlelight.
"Charming—"
"It reminded me of you," he interrupted. "Regal and elegant."
"It's beautiful, Channing," she said carefully. And cold, she thought. So very cold. "And I'm sorry, but I can't accept it. Or you."
Shock came first, then a trickle of annoyance. "Sydney, we're both adults. There's no need to be coy."
"What I'm trying to be is honest." She shifted in her chair, and this time it was she who took his hands. "I can't tell you how sorry I am that my mother led you to believe I'd feel differently. By doing so, she's put us both in an embarrassing position. Let's be candid, Channing. You don't love me, and I don't love you."
Insulted, he pokered up. "I hardly think I'd be offering marriage otherwise."
"You're offering it because you find me attractive, you think I'd make an excellent hostess, and because I come from the same circle as you. Those are reasons for a merger, not a marriage." She closed the lid on the diamond and pressed the box into his hands. "I make a poor wife, Channing, that much I know. And I have no intention of becoming one again."
He relaxed a little. "I understand you might still be a bit raw over what happened between you and Peter."
"No, you don't understand at all what happened between me and Peter. To be honest, that has nothing to do with my refusing you. I don't love you, Channing, and I'm very much in love with someone else."
His fair skin flushed dark red. "Then I find it worse than insulting that you would pretend an affection for me."
"I do have an affection for you," she said wearily. "But that's all I have. I can only apologize if I failed to make that clear before this."
"I don't believe an apology covers it, Sydney." Stiffly he rose to his feet. "Please give my regrets to your mother."
Straight as a poker, he strode out, leaving Sydney alone with a miserable mix of temper and guilt. Five minutes later, Margerite came out of the ladies' room, beaming. "Well now." She leaned conspiratorially toward, her daughter, pleased to see that Channing had given them a few moments alone. "Tell me everything."
"Channing's gone, Mother."
"Gone?" Bright eyed, Margerite glanced around. "What do you mean gone?"