Luring A Lady
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"It was a mistake," Mikhail said gently.
"Yes, it was. One I made, one I was responsible for. I lost my closest friend, and before it was over, all the love was gone. There were only arguments and accusations. I was frigid, why shouldn't he have turned to someone else for a little warmth? But we kept up appearances. That was expected. And when we divorced, we did so in a very cold, very controlled, very civilized manner. I couldn't be a wife to him, Mikhail."
"It's not the same for us." He went to her.
"No, it's not. And I won't let it be."
"You're hurt because of something that happened to you, not something you did." He caught her face in his hands when she shook her head. "Yes. You need to let go of it, and trust what we have. I'll give you time."
"No." Desperate, she clamped her hands on his wrists. "Don't you see it's the same thing? You love me, so you expect me to marry you, because that's what you want—what you think is best."
"Not best," he said, giving her a quick shake. "Right. I need to share my life with you. I want to live with you, make babies with you. Watch them grow. There's a family inside us, Sydney."
She jerked away. He wouldn't listen, she thought. He wouldn't understand. "Marriage and family aren't in my plans," she said, suddenly cold. "You're going to have to accept that."
"Accept? You love me. I'm good enough for that. Good enough for you to take to your bed, but not for changing plans. All because you once followed rules instead of your heart."
"What I'm following now is my common sense." She walked by him to the door. "I'm sorry, I can't give you what you want."
"You will not go home alone."
"I think it'll be better if I leave."
"You want to leave, you leave." He stalked over to wrench the door open. "But I'll take you."
It wasn't until she lay teary and fretful in her bed that she realized she still wore his ring.
Chapter 12
It wasn't that she buried herself in work over the next two days, it was that work buried her. Sydney only wished it had helped. Keeping busy was supposed to be good for the morale. So why was hers flat on its face?
She closed the biggest deal of her career at Hayward, hired a new secretary to take the clerical weight off Janine and handled a full-staff meeting. Hayward stock had climbed three full points in the past ten days. The board was thrilled with her
And she was miserable.
"An Officer Stanislaski on two, Ms. Hayward," her new secretary said through the intercom.
"Stan—oh." Her spirits did a jig, then settled. Officer. "'Yes, I'll take it. Thank you." Sydney pasted on a smile for her own peace of mind. "Alex?"
"Hey, pretty lady. Thought you'd want to be the first to know. They just brought your old pal Lloyd Bingham in for questioning."
Her smiled faded. "I see."'
"The insurance investigator took your advice and kept an eye on him. He met with a couple of bad numbers yesterday, passed some bills. Once they were picked up, they sang better than Springsteen."
"Then Lloyd did hire someone to vandalize the building."
"So they say. I don't think you're going to have any trouble from him for a while."
"I'm glad to hear it."
"You were pretty sharp, homing in on him. Brains and beauty," he said with a sigh that nearly made her smile again. "Why don't we take off to Jamaica for a couple of days? Drive Mikhail crazy?"
"I think he's already mad enough."
"Hey, he's giving you a hard time? Just come to Uncle Alex." When she didn't respond, the teasing note dropped out of his voice. "Don't mind Mik, Sydney. He's got moods, that's all. It's the artist. He's nuts about you."
"I know." Her fingers worried the files on her desk. "Maybe you could give him a call, tell him the news."
"Sure. Anything else you want me to pass on?"
"Tell him… no," she decided. "No, I've already told him. Thanks for calling, Alex."
"No problem. Let me know if you change your mind about Jamaica."
She hung up, wishing she felt as young as Alex had sounded. As happy. As easy. But then Alex wasn't in love. And he hadn't punched a hole in his own dreams. . Is that what she'd done? Sydney wondered as she pushed away from her desk. Had she sabotaged her own yearnings? No, she'd stopped herself, and the man she loved from making a mistake. Marriage wasn't always the answer. She had her own example to prove it. And her mother's. Once Mikhail had cooled off, he'd accept her position, and they could go on as they had before.
Who was she kidding?
He was too stubborn, too bullheaded, too damn sure his way was the right way to back down for an instant.
And what if he said all or nothing? What would she do then? Snatching up a paper clip, she began to twist it as she paced the office. If it was a matter of giving him up and losing him, or giving in and risking losing him…
God, she needed someone to talk to. Since it couldn't be Mikhail, she was left with pitifully few choices. Once she would have taken her problems to Peter, but that was…
She stopped, snapping the mangled metal in her fingers. That was the source of the problem. And maybe, just maybe, the solution.
Without giving herself time to think, she rushed out of her office and into Janine's. "I have to leave town for a couple of days," she said without preamble.
Janine was already rising from behind her new desk. "But—"
"I know it's sudden, and inconvenient, but it can't be helped. There's nothing vital pending at the moment, so you should be able to handle whatever comes in. If you can't, then it has to wait."
"Sydney, you have three appointments tomorrow."
"You take them. You have the files, you have my viewpoint. As soon as I get to where I'm going, I'll call in."
"But, Sydney." Janine scurried to the door as Sydney strode away. "Where are you going?"
"To see an old friend."
Less than an hour after Sydney had rushed from her office, Mikhail stormed in. He'd had it. He'd given the woman two days to come to her senses, and she was out of time. They were going to have this out and have it out now.