Monster in His Eyes
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"It's not supposed to be fun," I point out. "It's philosophy."
"Whatever," Melody says. "It ain't no fun if the homies can't have none. Speaking of which, Paul took Santino's class last year and he said that—"
I don't hear anything else that she says, her words falling on deaf ears. I look up as we approach the philosophy building and my heart stalls a beat before kicking into high gear, pounding so ferociously that my vision blurs around the edges, obscuring everything within a frame of blackness.
The butterflies are trying desperately to take flight.
My hands are trembling, my fingers tingling, as I clutch the straps of my backpack around my shoulders. Stepping out of the building, less than a hundred feet in front of me, is the man I left just hours ago, the man I see even when I close my eyes, dressed impeccably as always.
Naz.
He walks a few steps in my direction and pauses, his eyes flickering toward me, but his expression shows none of the recognition I feel inside.
None of the excitement.
None of the giddiness.
My palms start to sweat, my knees weak. I continue walking alongside Melody, trying to listen as she babbles on and on, but his sudden presence is jarring. I keep looking at him; keep waiting for him to see me. His eyes flicker my way a few times, landing straight on my face, but still—he offers no acknowledgment.
Not a wink.
Not a smile.
Not even a cheek twitch.
My stomach coils. I'm not sure what to do, what to say, what to think. In the moment, I'm not sure of anything. He just stands there casually, fifty… forty… thirty feet in front of me, and eventually turns away, his attention going to the building we're walking toward.
I glance that way, seeing Santino near the entrance, looking as uptight as ever, and holding his pointer stick like a cane. I glance between them curiously as I approach, ultimately looking away from Naz, too nervous to meet his gaze.
I'm so close I can smell a whiff of his cologne in the afternoon breeze. I step past him, relishing in the small moment where I inhale the essence of the man, when I'm jerked to a sudden stop. He grabs my arm, swinging me around to face him. I stumble, blinking rapidly, caught off guard as I meet his eyes. A smile lifts his lips. "You're not even going to say hello?"
"I, uh… I…"
I get nothing out but foolish stammering before his hands grasp my head, cradling my face in his palms. He kisses me, suddenly, brutally, his lips hard, the kiss full of passion. I gasp as I kiss him back, stunned by the intensity. It lasts forever but no time at all before he pulls away, still holding my face, his eyes twinkling with amusement.
"Hello," I whisper breathlessly.
He laughs under his breath, his eyes scanning me, and leans over again to press a chaste kiss against my lips. His hands drift down, his thumb rubbing a fresh mark visible on my neck. He seems to admire it for a moment before letting go, turning around to walk away without saying anything more.
"What the fuck?" Melody hisses in my ear as she steps beside me. "What the hell was that?"
"That was him."
"Him? Like, him?"
I watch him cross the street to the Mercedes, parked along the curb, before turning to my friend. "That's Naz."
"Jesus, Kissimmee, you didn't tell me he was sex on legs."
I roll my eyes, unable to stop myself from blushing, as I turn away from her. "Come on, we're going to be late for class."
I look up as we approach the doorway of the building, my stomach dropping when I see Santino still standing there. His gaze is fixed across the street. He shifts his attention to me, nothing but pure disdain in his eyes. "Miss Reed."
"Sir."
He turns to Melody. "Miss Carmichael. I hope you ladies have your essays ready."
"Of course, sir," Melody says sweetly as we stride past.
The man is in rare form today, slamming his stick against his desk and calling on me so many times I lose count. Right before class is over he passes our midterms back to us, pausing in front of my desk for a second. I'm staring down at my book, starting on our next essay, but I can feel his gaze on my face. I chance a peek, meeting his eyes as he slips my paper on top of my book.
"I hope you know what you're doing," he says.
"Me, too," I mutter, flipping my exam over as he moves on. I stare down at it, cringing.
C-
Naz's books are just as diverse as his movie collection.
I stand in the den, surveying his vast bookshelves, running my fingertips along the spines as I read the titles. He has everything from Shakespeare to self-help, Edgar Allen Poe to poetry. It's peculiar.
The man even has textbooks on philosophy.
I stall, my fingertips tracing the spine of The Art of War. "Did you read all of these books?"
Naz is sitting at his desk. Not sure why, since he's watching me instead of doing anything. I look his way as he nods. "Most of them."
"Did you go to college?"
His brow furrows at my question. "Yes."
"What did you major in?"
Was independent contracting an option?
"Nothing," he says. "I dropped out before I had to declare one."
"Why did you drop out?"
"I had to."
"Why?"
"Because things happened that made it so." I regard him curiously, wondering what things happened, but he motions for me to come close before I can pry anymore. I step toward him as he turns in his chair, tugging me between his legs, his hands on my hips as he squeezes me between him and the desk. "Are you writing a book about my life, Karissa?"