Monster in His Eyes
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"Please let her go," she pleads, ignoring me, her focus on Naz. "I'm begging you. Let her go, Vitale."
My blood runs cold when she says his name... his last name... the name those people use for him. This isn't right. She doesn't know him. They don't know each other. They can't.
"I'm not going to hurt her, Carmela, but I'm not letting her go."
My knees nearly give out on me. He called her Carmela. If not for Naz's strong hold, I would hit the ground. I turn my head, seeing Naz's serious expression, his eyes as dark as the night around us.
"Naz," I whisper. "What's going on?"
"What's going on is your mother isn't happy to see you near me."
"Why?" I ask, my voice trembling. "Who are you?"
"You know who I am," he says. "The question you should be asking is who are they."
"Mom," I call out. "Mom, what's happening? How do you know Naz?"
She doesn't look at me, but I know she hears my words. Her alarm grows when I call him Naz. She pleads with him more. "Please, she's my daughter... my little girl. She's been through enough. Don't do this to her."
"I've done nothing to her," Naz says, his hand shifting higher, tightening around my throat. I gasp as he leans down, kissing my temple. "Nothing she hasn't wanted me to do."
My mother's on the verge of hyperventilating. "Just let her go and let's talk about this. I'll give you whatever you want, whatever it is. Take me, but leave her alone. Please, I'm begging you. I'll do anything."
Naz loosens his hold, and I breathe deeply, disoriented. "Johnny here?"
"No."
"Bet he went out the back door when he saw me, didn't he?" My mother doesn't respond to that question, which seems answer enough for Naz. He laughs bitterly. "Once a coward, always a coward."
"Tell me what I can do," she says. "Just... whatever it is. Just tell me."
"You know what I want. You stay out of my way, and I won't hurt you, Carmela. It's as simple as that. I don't want to hurt you—for her sake, I hope I don't have to. But nothing's going to stop me from getting what I want."
"I understand," she says, taking another step toward us. "Just let Karissa go. Please."
"I can't do that," Naz says. My mother makes an unnatural noise at his refusal. I'm too stunned to react. One of Naz's arms lets go of me as he reaches for the car door. "Get in."
My eyes widen as I look at him. "What?"
His eyes meet mine. "Get in the car."
The voice in the back of my head screams for me to pull away from him, to run to my mother, but his troubled expression is enough to make my feet move toward the car.
I slide into the passenger seat, and he slams the door, standing there for a moment longer.
He loves me, I remind myself. There's no reason to be afraid.
But this isn't my Naz, the Naz I fell in love with, and Ignazio Vitale scares the hell out of me.
Through the window, I can hear my mother pleading with him some more, his voice casual as he shrugs off her concerns.
My heart is in my throat, my stomach queasy when Naz gets in. He says nothing, starting the car and speeding away. He never looks at me, never addresses me during the drive. His hand no longer tries to hold mine. Things are so tense I think I might explode. It all keeps playing in my mind in a loop, their words, and his actions, everything that happened today playing over and over again.
I'm not sure what to think about any of it.
We get to the house, and I wrap my arms around my chest as I stand in the living room, trying to combat the swell of nausea as reality slams into me. "I don't understand."
Naz loosens his tie. "What don't you understand, Karissa?"
"Any of it."
He's quiet for a moment as he takes off his coat. "I told you one day get him."
"What? Who?"
"The man who stole my life from me."
My eyes widen as that sinks in. "It was him? My father?"
"Johnny Rita and I were practically family. He was my best friend. And that meant nothing to him. He murdered my wife and kid right in front of me."
"Did you know?" I whisper. "Did you know it was me all along?"
His expression offers no apologies. I think I'm going to be sick. I shove past him, running for the kitchen, and fall to my knees in front of the trashcan, losing whatever's in my stomach. Naz follows, pausing in the doorway behind me.
"You knew," I say, my vision blurred. "You used me all along just to try to find my father... just so you can kill him!"
"That's not true," he says. "I knew who you were, Karissa, but I didn't use you so I could kill him. It was never my intention to kill Johnny. I said I wanted to make him pay."
"How?"
"He killed my family," Naz says. "So I was going to kill his."
Oh God.
I lose it again, heaving until my body has nothing else to give. I hear Naz approach, feel his hand pressing against my back. Trembling, I cower away, scurrying across the floor and pressing my back against the cabinets as I pull my knees up to my chest, trying to slink away. I stare at him, horrified.
He was planning to kill me.
Oh God, he's going to kill me.
"You promised," I cry. "You promised you wouldn't hurt me."