More Than Want You
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I guess there’s no such thing as a panic attack prevention hotline, and Keeley’s not here anymore, so I’m on my own.
What would she tell me to do?
Meditate.
Fuck. At this point, I’ll try anything.
I scroll through my apps and come to one that’s supposed to boost the selected brain activity. There’s specialized music and nature sounds for focused work, which I use during crunch time. There’s also a section for deep sleep and naps. And meditation. I tap on the button for the guided tour because what do I know about this shit?
The dude tells me he’s going to walk me through an effective technique I can use whenever I feel stressed or overwhelmed. Like now. Good. Can I lie down for twenty minutes? Sure. It’s not as if I’ve got anything better to do now that Keeley isn’t coming back. He’s asking me to clench and relax each of my muscles systematically to release the tension and increase circulation. All right. Whatever.
More closing my eyes, focusing on my breathing, and looking inward while trying to block out the pain. This guy wants me to think peaceful thoughts. I snort. If I could, I wouldn’t be here. But he insists I should be feeling my body let go.
I try to adhere to the spirit of his words. But…my mind drifts. I think about the last time I saw Keeley. I knew something was off. I recount my conversation with Britta on Tuesday night. My assistant is right. Keeley didn’t feel valued when I chose the Stowe deal over her. How much better would I feel if I could tell her how untrue her assumption is? Would she listen? Maybe not because those are just words. They’re easy to say. But what if I showed her? Would she still be choosing Griff if she really knew how much I love her? I drafted a plan a mere two days ago. I just need to update it a bit, go the extra mile, and implement.
When my “tour guide” calls me back to full alertness, I feel a little better. Meditating didn’t necessarily make me feel as if I’ve had a spiritual awakening or a major hug with peace. The good news is, I’m no longer going to lose my mind and do something stupid like hurl chairs over my balcony…or hunt Keeley down right now and insist she talk to me. But the better news is, I’m dedicated to getting her back. Having a plan makes me feel more in control. I have a lot of action items to put in motion, but that’s all right. I have ammo and I have persistence.
I will not rest until I make that woman mine for good.
Suddenly, my phone dings in my pocket. It’s probably Britta texting me. Again. For two days, she’s been harping about two things: whether I’m ready for tomorrow morning’s presentation and whether I know what happened between Griff and Keeley. I don’t really want to answer either of those questions. Mostly because I can’t.
With a tired sigh, I pull my phone from my pocket. Maybe my assistant wants to make sure I intend to wear clean underwear tomorrow, too. Or have shiny shoes. We’re doing this presentation over Skype, so I don’t think George and Vivienne Stowe are going to get a good look at my undergarments or loafers.
I’m shocked when I glance down and see Keeley’s name on my display. Her message is short and to the point.
You promised to meet your brother at a time and place of my choosing for one hour, no arguments. Tonight. Nine p.m. Merriman’s in Lahaina.
I stifle the urge to reiterate via text that I fucked up and I’m sorry. She’s heard all that and was unmoved. Instead, I try something new because…well, I have to. I value you more than my brother ever will. Where are you so I can tell you how I feel in person?
No reply.
She’s a smart, stubborn woman, so I’m not surprised. I’m crushed to know that she’s with Griff. Part of me is hoping that she’s merely trying to teach me a lesson. A guy can dream, right? Yeah, I know I lost her fair and square. She must already have my brother wrapped around her finger if she’s able to convince him to meet with me, something that nothing else—not even finding out he had a son—could accomplish.
The realization hurts like hell. But I’ll do my best to move past it, man up, and be better. Someday, somehow, someway, I will win Keeley back, put a ring on her finger, make her Mrs. Maxon Reed, and love her forever.
The screen tells me it’s eight thirty. Britta and Rob would disapprove of me going out now. We agreed to have a calm evening and get a good night’s sleep so we’d be crisp and ready to do another practice run first thing in the morning before the real presentation.
Fuck that. Griff knows where Keeley is, what she’s doing, how she’s feeling… And I need to know because she is way more important than any listing, any paycheck, any prestige.
I’m going to prove that to her once and for all.
 
After dragging on a clean shirt and a nice pair of pressed pants, I make my way to Merriman’s. It’s a classy place on a little peninsula, surrounded by ocean and overlooking Kapalua Bay. Lots of weddings and other special events are held here. When they lived on the island, my parents celebrated their wedding anniversary at this restaurant every year. Mom would always insist we kids come along, probably so she didn’t have to be alone with Dad. At the time, I resented her because I would ten times rather have been playing video games or hanging out with friends. Can’t say I blame her now. I refuse to be alone with that asshole, too.
I wonder what prompted Griff to pick this place tonight. He never liked it much. Except their pineapple and macadamia nut bread pudding with rum sauce. That was a hit with me, as well.
Technically, their dining room closed half an hour ago. Their sign says they should be locking up now. A native man in a subdued tropical print shirt and beige slacks is waiting for me at the door. He ushers me in, then closes up behind me.
Across the room, near the open doors leading to the deck and the ocean beyond, I spot my brother. He’s looking right at me, jaw clenched. Not much has changed except that he looks harder, angrier. Bitter. Closed off.
Why the fuck is he mad? He got the girl—at least for now.
We’re the only patrons left in the joint, and Griff stands as I approach. Not out of deference, I realize. He simply doesn’t want the psychological height disadvantage of me towering over him any more than I would if our situations were reversed.
“I didn’t think you’d come.” He gestures to the chair opposite him at the table.
I proceed cautiously to my seat until he does the same. “I promised Keeley I would be here where and whenever she chose. I’m keeping my word. Where is she?”