Never Never
Page 12

“Ding, ding, ding!” I say, pulling a pink polka dot journal out from under her pillow.
I settle down on her bed and flip open the cover.
Property of Janette Elise Wynwood.
DO NOT READ!
I ignore the warning and page to her first entry, titled:
Charlie sucks.
My sister is the worst person on the planet. I hope she dies.
I close the book and put it back underneath the pillow.
“That went well.”
My family hates me. What type of human are you when your own family hates you? From across the room my phone tells me that I have a text. I jump up, thinking it’s Silas, suddenly feeling relieved. There are two texts. One is from Amy.
Where r u?!!
And the other is from a guy named Brian.
Hey, missed u today. Did you tell him?
Him who? And tell him what?
I set my phone down without answering either of them. I decide to give the journal another try, skipping all the way to Janette’s last entry, which was last night.
Title: I might need braces but we’re too broke. Charlie had braces.
I run my tongue over my teeth. Yup, they feel pretty straight.
Her teeth are all straight and perfect and I’m going to have a snaggle tooth forever. Mom said she’d see about financing but ever since that thing happened with dad’s company we don’t have money for normal things. I hate taking packed lunch to school. I feel like a kindergartener!
I skip a paragraph in which she details her friend, Payton’s, last period. She’s ranting about her lack of menstruation when her journaling is disturbed by yours truly.
I have to go. Charlie just got home and she’s crying. She hardly ever cries. I hope Silas broke up with her—would serve her right.
So I was crying when I came home last night? I walk over to the windowsill where the paper from my pocket has somewhat dried. Carefully smoothing it out, I lay it on the desk my sister and I seem to share. Part of the ink has washed away, but it looks like a receipt. I text Silas.
Me: Silas, I need a ride.
I wait again, growing irritated with his delay in response. I am impatient, I think.
Me: There’s a guy named Brian who’s texting me. He’s really flirty. I can ask him for a ride if you’re busy…
My phone pings a second later.
Silas: Hell no. OMW!
I smile.
It shouldn’t be a problem slipping out of the house since my mother has passed out on the sofa. I watch her for a moment, studying her sleeping face, trying desperately to remember it. She looks like Charlie, only older. Before I head outside to wait for Silas, I cover her with a blanket and grab a couple of sodas from the barren fridge.
“See ya, Mom,” I say quietly.
I can’t tell if I’m going back to her because I feel protective over her or possessive of her. Either way, I don’t like the idea of her reaching out to someone else. It makes me wonder who this Brian guy is, and why he thinks it’s okay to send her flirty texts when Charlie and I are obviously together.
My left hand is still clutching my phone when it rings again. There’s no number on the screen. Just the word “Bro.” I slide my finger across it and answer the phone.
“Hello?”
“Where the hell are you?”
It’s a guy’s voice. A voice that sounds a lot like mine. I look left and right, but nothing is familiar about the intersection I’m passing through. “I’m in my car.”
He groans. “No shit. You keep missing practice, you’ll be benched.”
Yesterday’s Silas probably would have been pissed off about this. Today’s Silas is relieved. “What day is today?”
“Wednesday. Day before tomorrow, day after yesterday. Come get me, practice is over.”
Why does he not have his own car? I don’t even know this kid and he already feels like an inconvenience. He’s definitely my brother.
“I have to pick up Charlie first,” I tell him.
There’s a pause. “At her house?”
“Yeah.”
Another pause. “Do you have a death wish?”
I really hate not knowing what everyone else seems to know. Why would I not be allowed at Charlie’s house?
“Whatever, just hurry up,” he says, right before hanging up.
She’s standing in the street when I turn the corner. She’s staring at her house. Her hands are resting gently at her sides, and she’s holding two sodas. One in each hand. She’s holding them like weapons, like she wants to throw them at the house in front of her in hopes that they’re actually grenades. I slow the car down and stop several feet from her.
She’s not wearing the same clothes she had on earlier. She’s wearing a long, black skirt that covers her feet. A black scarf is wrapped around her neck, falling over her shoulder. Her shirt is tan and long-sleeved, but she still looks cold. A gust of wind blows and the skirt and scarf move with it, but she remains unaffected. She doesn’t even blink. She’s lost in thought.
I’m lost in her.
When I put the car in park, she turns her head, looks at me and then immediately casts her eyes at the ground. She walks toward the passenger door and climbs inside. Her silence seems to be begging for my silence, so I don’t say anything as we head toward the school. After a couple of miles, she relaxes against the seat and props one of her booted feet against the dash. “Where are we going?”
“My brother called. He needs a ride.”
She nods.