Personal Demon
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For guilt-free chaos, I had to stick to my council work. With them I always knew I was working on the right side.
“I’ve never done deep undercover,” I said. “I probably couldn’t even play gang material. My background—
”
“I know your background, Hope, and we’d work with that. You’d play a version of yourself. With Karl’s help, you could pull this off easily.”
“I’m still not seeing how Karl fits in. He certainly can’t pass for college age.”
“No, but he can protect you.”
“I can read chaotic thoughts. I might not have werewolf strength, but if someone’s about to pull a gun on me, I’ll know it.”
“You may need to break into an office or apartment…”
“Karl’s taught me the basics.”
Benicio eased back into his seat. “Perhaps you wouldn’t need him, then. That would certainly be better. I’d rather not delay, tracking him down and jetting him back.”
“No, I—I didn’t mean I’d do it.”
Benicio arched his brows as if to say “What did you mean then?” Even as denials sprang to my lips, the demon in my blood whispered “Why not? You owe him. Get it over with.”
I set my mug in the holder. “No. I’m sorry. I’m flattered that you’d consider me for this, but I’m sure you need it done right away and I have a training session next week—”
“You’d be home by then. We’ll fly to Miami now, you’ll take the initiation test this afternoon and be in the gang tonight.”
 
In the gang tonight…I wet my lips, then swallowed and managed a laugh. “Today? That seals it, then.
There’s no way I could leave today. I’m expected back in Philly tonight with—”
I glimpsed a transport passing on the left. We were on a four-lane major road.
“Where are we? I said to circle the block—”
“My driver is taking a longer route, giving us more time to talk.”
I hesitated, but he’d left his other bodyguard at the park, meaning he wasn’t shanghaiing me.
“As for your story,” Benicio said. “I already have people investigating and they’ll give you everything you need to write it. Then you can call True News later and tell them you’re on the trail of a bigger, related story, the details of which I will also provide.”
I plucked at the sodden hem of my skirt, saying nothing.
“As for Karl,” he went on, “you’re free to do this job without him, but I will insist on personally notifying Lucas and Paige, and having you speak to them to air any concerns. I’m not going behind my son’s back. He’s even welcome to come to Miami and supervise the operation.”
I was out of excuses. I should have just said “Sorry, I don’t want it,” but I couldn’t force the lie to my lips.
No matter what Benicio said, I owed him—and even if he never called it a debt, it gave him an excuse to keep making “offers.” This would be an ideal way to get out from under the black cloud of this obligation. A week or less, starting immediately, all contingencies handled, with Lucas and Paige to ensure it was legitimate. I’d break not only the tie to Benicio, but my last one to Karl—the tie that bound us to this debt together.
It would also be the opportunity I needed to test myself. A year ago I’d had a scare that still gave me nightmares. Thrust into a situation surging with incredible chaos, I’d seen a friend in danger and had, if only for a moment, felt the urge to just sit back and lap up the vibes. I needed to explore my limits, push them, learn how to handle them.
I turned to Benicio. “I’ll do it.”
 
 
LUCAS: 1
 
 
SOME PEOPLE ARE BEYOND HELPING. They’ve dug a hole so deep that no rope is long enough to throw to them and I have to say, “I’m sorry. There’s nothing I can do.”
I had the shaman’s file on my desk, his number right there so I could tell him I wouldn’t represent him in his case against the Nast Cabal. But I hated saying no, so instead I was organizing paper clips. I sorted them by size, then by color, as I listened to the tapping of Paige’s keyboard across the office divider.
Why did we have so many varieties of paper clips, when most of our paperwork was electronic? Was it simply that you couldn’t have an office without paper clips? Or did they serve a higher purpose—a frivolity to occupy the mind while one was supposed to be working?
I pushed the clips aside. Postponing the task wouldn’t make it easier.
Just as I reached for the phone, the outside line lit up. Saved by the bell, which echoed down the quiet hall twice before I heard a drowsy “Good morning. Cortez-Winterbourne Investigations.” Savannah, our eighteen-year-old ward and temporary executive assistant.
I waited for my line or Paige’s to ring, but the light continued to blink. If it was for Adam, Savannah should realize he wasn’t in. Unless we had something exciting on the schedule, he never showed up before nine-thirty.
Savannah appeared in the doorway. “The telephone is for you, sir,” she said, and dropped a curtsey.
A deep sigh fluttered from the other side of the divider.
“Hey, he said I needed to conduct my secretarial duties ‘in a more formal manner.’”
“He said more businesslike, ” Paige’s disembodied voice answered.
“Whatever.”
Savannah marched over and perched on the edge of my desk, flipping her skirt over her knees. It’d been a struggle getting her out of blue jeans, but vanity had won out when she’d realized business attire suited her. She’d grown comfortable in the clothes, and in her role. Too comfortable, we worried.
When Savannah had decided to take a year off after high school and work at the agency, we’d presumed that once she discovered how dull secretarial work could be, she’d eagerly embrace college life. But the deadlines for college application were fast approaching, and the forms lay on her dresser, untouched.
As I reached for the phone, she said, “Oh, it’s your dad.”
 
My stomach executed a familiar flip-flop. Paige peeked around the barrier, green eyes and frowning mouth framed by long dark hair. She shooed Savannah out, followed her into the hall and closed the door behind them.