Practical Magic
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“Positive,” Kylie tells him. “One hundred percent.”
When they get to the field they’ll find shade and green grass and they’ll have time to think things over. For a moment, as they turn the corner, Kylie has the feeling that she should stay in her own yard. She looks back at the house. By morning they’ll be gone, on their way to the aunts’. They’ve tried to talk Gillian into coming along, but she simply refuses.
“You couldn’t pay me to go. Well, I’d agree to do it for a million bucks, but nothing less.” That’s what she’s told them. “And even then you’d have to break both my kneecaps so I couldn’t leap out of the car and run away. You’d have to anesthetize me, maybe perform a lobotomy, and I’d still recognize the street and jump out the window before you pulled up to the house.”
Although the aunts have no idea that Gillian is east of the Rockies, Kylie and Antonia both insist they’ll be devastated when they discover how near Gillian is and that she chose not to visit.
“Believe me,” Gillian tells the girls, “the aunts won’t care if I’m there or not. They didn’t then and they certainly wouldn’t now. They’ll say, ‘Gillian who?’ if you mention my name. I’ll bet they don’t remember what I look like. We could probably pass on the street and be nothing more than strangers. Do not worry about the aunts and me. Our relationship is just what we want it to be—absolute and utter zero, and we like it that way. ”
And so tomorrow they’ll be leaving for vacation without Gillian. They’ll fix a picnic lunch of cream cheese and olive sandwiches, pita pockets stuffed with salad, Thermoses filled with lemonade and iced tea. They’ll pack up the car the way they do every August, and get on the highway before seven, to avoid traffic. Only this year Antonia has vowed she will cry all the way to Massachusetts. She’s already confided to Kylie that she doesn’t know what she’ll do when Scott goes back to Cambridge. She’ll probably spend most of her time studying, since she needs to get into a school somewhere in the Boston area, Boston College, maybe, or, if she can get her grades up, Brandeis. On the trip to the aunts’ she’ll insist on stopping at rest areas to buy postcards, and after they’ve settled into the aunts’ house she plans to spend every morning lying on a scratchy wool blanket set out in the garden. She’ll rub sunscreen on her shoulders and legs, then she’ll get to work, and when Kylie looks over at the message her sister is writing to Scott she’ll see I love you scrawled a dozen different times.
This year, Gillian will wave good-bye to them from the front porch, if she isn’t already moved in to Ben Frye’s house by then. She’s been moving in slowly, afraid that Ben will go into shock when he realizes she has a zillion and one bad habits; it won’t take long before he notices that she never rinses out her cereal bowls or bothers to make the bed. Sooner or later he’ll discover that the ice cream is always disappearing from the freezer because Gillian is feeding it to Buddy as a special treat. He’ll see that Gillian’s sweaters often are crumpled into balls of wool and chenille on the floor of a closet or under the bed. And if Ben grows disgusted, if he should decide to kick her out, say good-bye, rethink his options, well, then let him. There’s no marriage license and no commitment, and Gillian wants to keep it like that. Options, that’s what she’s always wanted. A way out.
“I want you to understand one thing,” she’s told Kylie. “You’re still my favorite kid. In fact, if I’d had a daughter I would have wanted her to be you.”
Kylie was so stricken by love and admiration that she almost felt guilty enough to admit that she’d been the one who’d had all those anchovy pizzas delivered to Ben’s house, back when she’d felt so betrayed; she’d been the one who’d put ashes in Gillian’s shoes. But some secrets are best kept to oneself, particularly when they cover up a silly act of childish pique. So Kylie said nothing, not even about how much she would miss Gillian. She hugged her aunt and then helped load up another box of clothes to haul over to Ben’s place.
“More clothes!” Ben held a hand to his forehead as though his closets couldn’t stand any more additions, but Kylie could see how delighted he was. He reached into the box and pulled out some black lace panty hose, and with three quick knots he turned them into a dachshund. Kylie was so surprised that she applauded.
Gillian had arrived with another box—this one filled with shoes—which she balanced on her hip so she could applaud as well. “You see why I fell for him,” she whispered to Kylie. “How many men can do that?”
When they get to the field they’ll find shade and green grass and they’ll have time to think things over. For a moment, as they turn the corner, Kylie has the feeling that she should stay in her own yard. She looks back at the house. By morning they’ll be gone, on their way to the aunts’. They’ve tried to talk Gillian into coming along, but she simply refuses.
“You couldn’t pay me to go. Well, I’d agree to do it for a million bucks, but nothing less.” That’s what she’s told them. “And even then you’d have to break both my kneecaps so I couldn’t leap out of the car and run away. You’d have to anesthetize me, maybe perform a lobotomy, and I’d still recognize the street and jump out the window before you pulled up to the house.”
Although the aunts have no idea that Gillian is east of the Rockies, Kylie and Antonia both insist they’ll be devastated when they discover how near Gillian is and that she chose not to visit.
“Believe me,” Gillian tells the girls, “the aunts won’t care if I’m there or not. They didn’t then and they certainly wouldn’t now. They’ll say, ‘Gillian who?’ if you mention my name. I’ll bet they don’t remember what I look like. We could probably pass on the street and be nothing more than strangers. Do not worry about the aunts and me. Our relationship is just what we want it to be—absolute and utter zero, and we like it that way. ”
And so tomorrow they’ll be leaving for vacation without Gillian. They’ll fix a picnic lunch of cream cheese and olive sandwiches, pita pockets stuffed with salad, Thermoses filled with lemonade and iced tea. They’ll pack up the car the way they do every August, and get on the highway before seven, to avoid traffic. Only this year Antonia has vowed she will cry all the way to Massachusetts. She’s already confided to Kylie that she doesn’t know what she’ll do when Scott goes back to Cambridge. She’ll probably spend most of her time studying, since she needs to get into a school somewhere in the Boston area, Boston College, maybe, or, if she can get her grades up, Brandeis. On the trip to the aunts’ she’ll insist on stopping at rest areas to buy postcards, and after they’ve settled into the aunts’ house she plans to spend every morning lying on a scratchy wool blanket set out in the garden. She’ll rub sunscreen on her shoulders and legs, then she’ll get to work, and when Kylie looks over at the message her sister is writing to Scott she’ll see I love you scrawled a dozen different times.
This year, Gillian will wave good-bye to them from the front porch, if she isn’t already moved in to Ben Frye’s house by then. She’s been moving in slowly, afraid that Ben will go into shock when he realizes she has a zillion and one bad habits; it won’t take long before he notices that she never rinses out her cereal bowls or bothers to make the bed. Sooner or later he’ll discover that the ice cream is always disappearing from the freezer because Gillian is feeding it to Buddy as a special treat. He’ll see that Gillian’s sweaters often are crumpled into balls of wool and chenille on the floor of a closet or under the bed. And if Ben grows disgusted, if he should decide to kick her out, say good-bye, rethink his options, well, then let him. There’s no marriage license and no commitment, and Gillian wants to keep it like that. Options, that’s what she’s always wanted. A way out.
“I want you to understand one thing,” she’s told Kylie. “You’re still my favorite kid. In fact, if I’d had a daughter I would have wanted her to be you.”
Kylie was so stricken by love and admiration that she almost felt guilty enough to admit that she’d been the one who’d had all those anchovy pizzas delivered to Ben’s house, back when she’d felt so betrayed; she’d been the one who’d put ashes in Gillian’s shoes. But some secrets are best kept to oneself, particularly when they cover up a silly act of childish pique. So Kylie said nothing, not even about how much she would miss Gillian. She hugged her aunt and then helped load up another box of clothes to haul over to Ben’s place.
“More clothes!” Ben held a hand to his forehead as though his closets couldn’t stand any more additions, but Kylie could see how delighted he was. He reached into the box and pulled out some black lace panty hose, and with three quick knots he turned them into a dachshund. Kylie was so surprised that she applauded.
Gillian had arrived with another box—this one filled with shoes—which she balanced on her hip so she could applaud as well. “You see why I fell for him,” she whispered to Kylie. “How many men can do that?”
