Razer's Ride
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“Why didn’t you go to the Sheriff and tell him. You went to him when your father beat Lily. Why not when he started doing this?”
“Because he didn’t do this to Lily. I told him I would tell. He left Lily alone other than being overly strict.”
“Why not stop him from hurting you, not just Lily.”
“Because they would have taken us away from my parents. I couldn’t do that to Lily. She loved our parents. They gave her what she had never had before and I couldn’t lose my sister. I loved her Razer, from the minute they brought her home. I love her Razer, I would do anything for her.”
“I know kitten.” He pulled her into his arms holding her close. His hand sliding through her silky hair until she was staring into his eyes.
“Did you forgive him?”
“I don’t want to talk about him anymore.” Beth tried to turn her head, but he held her immobile.
“Answer me, did you forgive him.” Razer already knew the answer. Beth’s loving heart was incapable of holding a grudge, the marks on her body proved that. It was that hope he had to hold onto.
“Yes, I forgave him, but that doesn’t mean I am a doormat and going to forgive you.” Beth started struggling against him again, trying to get away from the hard body holding her close. “You lied to me. You made me believe you wouldn’t touch another woman without telling me and breaking it off with me first. Instead, you made Bliss come right in front of my face.” It took all of Razer’s strength to hold her down.
“I didn’t lie to you. I did not fuck Bliss that night or any of the other girls since the day I had lunch with you at the diner. I touched Bliss that day, but I did it to put on a show for Memphis and to drive you away. She came, but I wasn’t even hard. I was too sick at the look on your face. I won’t lie either, just to make you feel better. Bliss wasn’t the only one I touched to sidetrack Memphis, but I didn’t fuck them. I wasn’t even tempted to.”
Beth didn’t believe him. He had taken Bliss to his room that night and Razer had told her himself he never turned away pussy and she knew without a doubt in her mind that Bliss would have used every skill at her disposal to tempt him once in his room.
“I can see you don’t believe me, but I am telling you the truth. I guess I am going have to prove it to you. I can be faithful to you from now on and I will. These last few weeks were hell on me waiting for Memphis to make his move and knowing how bad I hurt you in the process.”
“It’s not only the women I don’t trust you with Razer. You let the club decide what was best for us. You should have told me and I could have at least been prepared, but you threw me away instead.”
“No kitten, I never threw you away. I thought it was the best way, your reaction made it believable. Viper and the club waited three years for revenge, I couldn’t take that away from them, he was my brother too.”
Beth understood. He had been torn between the club he loved and a woman he hadn’t been with long. Razer could see understanding beginning in her features, but it did not take away the hurt still in her eyes. Razer knew it was going to take time to heal the hurt he had intentionally inflicted and he was cool with that. She was worth the wait.
He pulled at the bra Beth still had grasped tightly in her hand. Throwing it and not caring where it landed. His lips covered one coral tipped breast while his fingers twisted the nipple on the other one. When she finally began to twist underneath him to get closer, he let go of the now shiny hard nub.
“Now I am going to fuck you for what is left of the night. When we wake up in the morning and after I fuck you again, I will borrow the car and we will drive to your house and you can pack your bags and move your ass back in my room.”
When Beth would have argued again, his lips went back to her nipple and this time his other hand stroked her silken pussy. After several minutes when he felt she was close to coming, he again stopped, leaving her hanging.
“I can’t live in your home. I would be too caged in. And it won’t work between us, you living there and me here. You would begin having doubts about me when I am here and you are there. Even though I am telling you I am not going to be touching or letting the women touch me anymore, because I know that is what you want.”
“I can’t Razer, Lily.”
“The weekends Lily comes home, and the vacations, even the summer one, I will move in with you,” Razer conceded.
“You will?”
“Yes. But Fridays during the long vacation, we are here. We can go home afterward, but we come for the party. I will need to relax after being nice all week.”
“That works for me.”
“We are going to take the best from both of our worlds and make our own.” This time when Razer sucked her nipple into his mouth, he bit down and thrusted his fingers deep within her wet pussy. Beth arched into his mouth; the small bite of pain at her breast had wetness lubricating his fingers, allowing him to thrust another deep within her. Razer moved to his side and played with her body until her heels were planted firmly on the mattress and she was thrusting her hips as he played with her breasts. When her body arched and forced her breasts upward, he leant forward and took the nipple in his mouth.
Beth’s hand went to Razer’s shoulders and the smooth flesh heightened her desire. She loved touching him; sometimes just a simple touch of his hand against hers made Beth want him. You were not going to say no to him, she couldn’t. Her father had tortured and abused her during her childhood, tortures that she and Lily would never tell, but none had hurt her as bad as being without Razer. He had lost weight also, her searching hands discovered. What had convinced her was not his words, but his face. Razer was always kind of a goof, joking around, never taking anything serious. Now, there was something different about him, sorrow in his eyes, but a resolve when he looked at her that had not been there before. Beth knew they had a long journey ahead of them, but it was a journey she had to take.
Beth moaned as Razer slid down her body, kissing her along the way. When he reached her belly button, he played with the tiny glinting diamond.
“This is sexy as hell, kitten. It makes my cock hard when I see it through your clothes. Tells me how naughty you are.”
Beth’s hand shifted through his soft hair as his lips slid down further as his hands pulled down her panties, leaving her naked to his gaze. Beth blushed, aware of what he was staring at.
“It itches when it grows back in; it was easier to shave it…” Beth tried to explain.
“Kitten.” Razer kissed her bare mound. A part of him eased, Razer took it for what it was. Beth had never given up hope that they would get back together. No one had ever cared enough to miss him. Raised in foster homes, he had entered the military when he had graduated high school. Razer had never had a family until he had joined The Last Riders. The women who had come and gone in his life always wanted one thing from him, the sex he had become accomplished at performing. He had used his body to take and give pleasure, but emotionally he had never given. From the first moment he had seen Beth, something had come to life inside of him, and never having had it, he didn’t know what it was. It was love. Like a child learning, he had taken it for granted, used it, smashed it, then almost destroyed the burgeoning emotion. The fledging emotion that had come alive in him was like Beth; strong and resilient.