I leaned in to to kiss him. “How can I convince you?”
Jared pul ed away from me, shifting uncomfortably.
“What is it?” I said, frowning.
“Don’t get mad…,” he began.
I crossed my arms. “A disclaimer? This should be good.”
He took a deep breath. “Until we find the book, and figure out a way to keep you one-hundred percent safe, I think the intimacy should be kept to a minimum.”
“Oh, for the love of God, not this again,” I said, rol ing my eyes.
“It happens al the time, Nina. We can’t risk it,” he said, covering my hand with his.
I smirked. “You can’t use your Abra Cadabra to figure it out?” I leaned in to kiss his neck. “Haven’t you heard of the rhythm method? We’l put our own spin on it.”
“I would consider myself an intel igent person, but no, can’t say I’ve heard of it.”
“You just figure out when I’m ovulating, and we abstain for those few days. Voilà! Birth control. We have the Hybrid edge.”
Jared’s nose wrinkled in disdain. “That doesn’t seem like a solution to me.” He leaned away from my kisses, and I crossed my arms in a pout.
“It’s better than your proposal,” I frowned. “Are you saying you can’t do it?”
“What makes you think I can?”
My eyes narrowed. “Eli said once we were intimate, your senses would change. You’ve never once mentioned how, or even if they have.”
“That discussion is better left alone,” he said, maneuvering out of my embrace. He faced forward, clearly unwil ing to elaborate.
“Tel me I’m wrong,” I said, lifting my chin in defiance.
Jared quickly commandeered the drivers seat, shoved the gear shift into drive, and pul ed into the street. “Nina, I shouldn’t have to tel you this, but I wil : I love you more than anything on this earth; more than anything in the universe. I love you more than life, more than my family, and I love you more than I love being with you in that way. Your safety is, and wil always be my first priority. This isn’t the kind of risk I took sitting beside you on that bench the night we met, or tel ing you what I am. Making a mistake concerning an accidental pregnancy wil mean an al out war, because that is exactly what wil have to happen to keep you alive.”
The smile or wink I was hoping for never came. He had always been careful to protect me from the truth without tel ing a lie, but the seriousness of the situation warranted a bluntness Jared usual y avoided.
It took a long time for me to reply. My initial reaction was to complain, but Eli's words echoed in my mind. He had told me it was time to break away from being the victim. He was very clear that my time to feel sorry for myself was over.
That gave me an idea.
I attempted a smal smile. “I understand you know better than me what wil happen. You know exactly what consequences to expect when a choice is made—especial y if it’s the wrong one. I’m human, Jared. But that doesn’t make me frail. You have to give me more credit than that. It’s time you teach me some of what you know.”
“Like what?” Jared said, dubious.
“How to shoot a gun, for instance…and basic self-defense wouldn’t hurt.”
Jared pinched the bridge of his nose. “A gun isn’t going to help you in this particular situation, Sweetheart, much less a solid knee to the groin.”
“You don’t think I can do it.”
“Why would you need to when you have me?”
“What if you’re busy?”
He raised an eyebrow. “You mean too busy to do my job? The one that includes protecting the love of my life from certain death?”
He was trying to scare me, but I stood my ground, determined to prove my case. “Do I have to remind you of the night at the restaurant? Claire stayed behind while you took care of business?”
“That’s different. I would’ve never left you if Claire hadn’t been there.”
“If I had known how to shoot a gun I could have helped. That’s al I’m saying.”
“Teaching you just enough to make you dangerous is not helping. It gives you the impression that you’re capable of more than you actual y are.”
My mouth fel open. “Now that’s just insulting. Do you real y see me as helpless?”
Jared laughed once, amused. “No. Definitely not, but we’re not dealing with Graham, anymore, Nina. Others are an enemy you don’t want to piss off by shooting at.”
“Fine,” I said, a fake smile tightening my face. “I’ll have Bex or Claire teach me. She’s offered before.”
Jared clenched his teeth. “Neither of them wil do it without my explicit permission, and if they do, you’re going to start something you can’t take back.”
“That’s not fair!” I said, ful y recognizing the whine in my tone. I waited until my voice could sound calmer, and then spoke again, “I happen to know there’s a gun club in Cranston.”
“You’re not going to let this go, are you?” Jared said, slowing as he pul ed into the drive.
“Probably not, no,” I said. Jared huffed in frustration. “It’s just that I…it’s suffocating being in your shadow. According to you, my life is constantly in danger, and I have to wait for you to save me. It would be nice to know if for whatever reason I’m alone, I can do something to protect myself.”
Jared’s eyes met mine, and then he nodded once. “Okay. We’l start Saturday.”
Chapter Eleven
Favor
Jared lessons were not easy. Where I caught a break from him, Bex pushed me further. When I wasn’t at school or Titan, the three of us were in the field by the Oak Tree, aiming, punching, blocking, ducking, attacking and subduing. It was mentioned more than once that I was a fast learner, and Bex said that I was a natural with any gun they put in my hand.
Jared didn’t agree. He thought I was clumsy, slow, and impatient.
Sleep came more easily than ever. Every night, I fel into bed, my muscles screaming for rest. Dreams of Jack were replaced with calculated moves and steps I would take to get the upper hand in hand-to-hand combat. Jared would tend to my sore spots. Regardless of his efforts, the area would inevitably be a series of purple splotches in the morning.
The weeks passed, and once the trees shed their leaves, Winter wasted no time covering the debris of Fal with a blanket of white. Ignoring Cynthia’s protests, the boys moved the furniture in the Great Room to transform it to a sparring ring.
The target practice, weight training, and sparring was nearly a daily ritual. Jared and Bex were always present. Once Claire caught wind of our new hobby, she came when she could. I always looked forward to the days she would join us.
Claire was more than capable to do everything her brothers could, but I related to her with the knowledge that she had to work that much harder to prove herself. I would never be as fast or as strong as the Hybrids, but I earned their respect with my stubborn refusal to quit or rest. Claire understood my resolve, and when she looked at me, she assumed strength when the boys assumed weakness.
The mirror was proof of not only my mistakes from the bruises, but my hard work. My arms weren’t nearly as tight as Claire’s, but they were taking on a toned look that I was proud of.
The day before Thanksgiving, Jared final y offered his first word of encouragement.
“Better,” he said with an emotionless nod.
That single word gave me the determination to continue. I was only human, but if I could keep up with Jared, Claire, and Bex, I could hold my own with Donovan, or Shax’s other human minions. At least I could try.
Thanksgiving Day arrived. Cynthia attended the Macy’s Day parade in New York with some of her charity chums, and I helped Claire and Lil ian in the kitchen while the boys set the table and kept the dishes washed.
Every one of my favorite spices and herbs permeated the air. Laughter was the background music to the busy atmosphere. Lil ian noticed a difference in me right away, and wanted to discuss my training. She took a keen interest in it, wishing she had thought of it as wel .
Bex set the turkey on the table, and sat beside his mother. Claire grabbed one of my hands, Jared took the other.
“Our Lord in Heaven,” Lil ian began. “Thank you for our many blessings. The wonderful food on the table, the health and safety of our family, and that we are al sitting together on this day of thanks.”
“Amen,” Jared said, nodding.
“Aye Men!” Bex said, digging into the various dishes on the table.
Part-way through dinner, I noticed Claire was quiet, thoughtful y chewing and smiling at the appropriate times in conversation. Jared of course noticed when I did, and he watched his sister.
“Claire?”
She met his eyes, but didn’t speak.
Lil ian smiled. “She’s fine. Let her be.”
“This is good ladies,” Bex said, his mouth ful of food.
“Thank you, Son,” Lil ian said. “Jared? Would it be a good time to ask how much longer you’l be engaged?”
“No,” Jared said, shaking his head with a smile. “I just got her to agree to set a date, Mom. Don’t ruin my hard work.”
I laughed. “She has a point.”
“She does?” Jared said, surprised.
I patted his knee. “My parents’ anniversary is on a Saturday this year.”
Lil ian’s eyes brightened. “Oh, it is! How wonderful! June first, then?”
Jared turned to me, cautious. “June first?”
“It’s an easy date to remember,” I shrugged.
“Of this year?” Jared asked, cautiously hopeful.
Lil ian and I shared the same boisterous laugh. “Yes, Honey. Seven months from now.”
The smile that crept across Jared’s face was slow, but it spanned from one side to the other. “June first.”
The conversation was monopolized by wedding plans after that, and the afternoon was fil ed with excitement and anticipation.
We said our goodbyes with kisses and hugs to Bex, Claire and Lil ian, and then Jared led me to the Escalade by the hand. Once inside, he leaned over the console, took my face gingerly in his hands, and pressed his lips against mine.
When he final y pul ed away, I felt a bit dizzy. A smal twinge of guilt settled in. It was so easy to make him happy, and I had grossly procrastinated something so simple.
Jared drove slowly to the house, brushing my hand with his thumb as he held it. A storm had rol ed in, and it fed into the new energy that almost crackled in the air between us, as if he couldn’t wait to get home. He intertwined his fingers in mine, kissing each of my fingers. “I feel like you said yes al over again.”
“I told you I would set a date.”
“You did,” he said. His mouth widened to a broad grin. “Man! I feel like I want to stand on a rooftop and scream! This is one of the best days of my life!”
I giggled, nearly manic from the emanation of Jared’s mood. Just as the moment peaked, it fizzled.
“What are you doing?” I said. He slowed the Escalade to a stop. “You’re not real y going climb onto a rooftop, are you?”
“No,” he said, his smile fading fast. “I spoke to soon.”
It was then that I noticed the blue and red lights dancing al around us. “We’re being pul ed over? But, you weren’t speeding.”
“That’s not what he wants.”
I grabbed Jared’s hand, seeing the dark silhouette of the police officer. The windshield wipers knocked back and forth as we waited for his approach. He knocked on Jared’s window with the butt of his flashlight.
“Officer,” Jared said, pressing the button for the window. The dark glass buzzed as it lowered and then disappeared, revealing a face I had longed to see again.
“Ryan!” I yelped. My mouth fel open in utter shock.
“Good evening, Nina. I’m afraid I’m gonna have to ask you to step out of the vehicle.”
“Don’t be an ass. It’s raining,” Jared said.
Ryan nodded. “Just accompany me to the cruiser, Ma’am,” he said, sounding very professional and detached.
I nodded, looking to Jared. “It’s okay. I’ll be right back.” I kissed him, and then scrambled to open the door. I tried to be calm, to preserve Jared’s feelings, but Ryan was just a few feet away. I had been so desperate to see him, and waited so long, any false composure at that moment was impossible.
“Nina,” Jared call ed after me, but the tires sloshing through the wet pavement as cars passed by drowned out the fol owing words.
It was wrong, but in my haste to speak to Ryan again, I ignored Jared and ran to the cruiser at ful speed, paying no attention to the rain.
The air was biting, and the rain instantly dampened my clothes. I yanked open the passenger-side door, assuming it would be as cozy as the Escalade.
It wasn’t.
“Cheese and rice!” I said, crossing my arms and bending at the waist. “You could hang meat in here!”
“Sorry,” Ryan said, turning up the heat. “I keep it cool so I can wear my coat. Can’t real y waste time putting it on before I make a stop.”
I laughed once. “A cop?”
“Yeah.” He smiled and looked down. “Yeah.”
“I guess this means you’re not coming back to Brown.”
“Looks that way,” he said without humor.
He was thicker than I remembered, but his face was thin. Lean was probably a better word. A hardened expression replaced his sweet smile. He appeared older; a long, weary line of disappointment and horrendous experiences no man should ever have to encounter reflected in his once bright, green eyes.
By his hesitation alone, I could tel the effort to pul me over wasn’t due to the anticipation of a happy reunion.
