Rhapsodic
Page 29

 Laura Thalassa

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My mind is having trouble catching up.
Eli’s my home. Eli’s holding me.
“I had to see you, baby.” He’s back to kissing me, and I am so confused.
I rip my head away to glance at the calendar I have up.
The full moon …
“Eli, you shouldn’t be here.”
It’s only been a day since the full moon, and the closer to the full moon it is, the more a shifter’s human side gives way to the animal. It’s dangerous for non-shifters to be around them.
“I couldn’t stay away.” His lips are back on mine, and I’m trying really hard not to freak the fuck out, but his hands are shaking and I can feel Eli fighting to keep this form.
“Why didn’t anyone stop you from leaving?”
“No one gets in the way of mate business,” he says, doing everything he physically can to get close to me.
Mate business.
Mate. Business.
Nope.
Nope, nope, nope.
I think I’m beginning to hyperventilate. All I wanted was to go for a swim, and instead … this steaming pile of horseshit.
“But I’m not … I’m not your mate,” I say. I’m not even his girlfriend. Not anymore.
I can hear him growl low in his chest. “I was going to ask. Once I got back, I was going to ask.”
Uh oh.
“Ask me what?”
Please don’t ask me what I think’s on your mind.
We’d been together a whopping six months. I’m still getting used to the fact that he has a toothbrush in my bathroom.
This entire relationship, he’s been pushing. Pushing for more touching, more intimacy, more openness—just more.
He pauses long enough to look me in the eye. “For you to be my mate.”
I might be the most awful person in the world because at his words, I shudder. Not the good kind of shudder either.
“Um.” I can’t edge away from him, caught in his arms as I am. He’s not even acting human at the moment. Eli’s touchy-feely in general, but he’s never like this—never crazed with the need to mark and claim me as his.
My eyes slide to the window, where dusk is setting in. “We should talk about this when we aren’t close to the full moon.” When I know you’re not going to go big bad wolf on me.
His chest rumbles with his disapproval. “I don’t want to talk about this, Callie. I don’t want to analyze what I feel for you. I want you to say yes, and then I want to fuck you until you’re saying my name like a mantra.”
That right there is how this man managed to end up in my bed in the first place. That’s sexual manipulation. Or oral—or I don’t freaking know, but he definitely knows how to win over the siren.
“I have a ring,” he says, kissing my jaw, his fingernails shifting into claws, then back to human nails. “Shit,” he says, a bit of his human side peeking out, “none of this is coming out right. Just, be mine.”
A grown man as sexy as Eli can’t just say stuff like that. My lady bits want to overthrow my brain.
“Please, Eli,” I say as he rubs his cheek against mine, masking me in his scent. “We need to talk about this.”
Wait. What am I saying?
This isn’t a negotiation. There’s nothing to talk about. When you end a relationship, you don’t owe the other person an explanation, crappy though that may be.
Besides, I already gave him one.
His chest rumbles. “Fine, we’ll talk later.”
He resumes kissing me with the same animalistic passion he entered my home with. Only now, it’s even sharper than usual. The man’s giving way to the beast even as the sun sets.
I don’t know what to do. I ended my relationship with this man. He’s acting like it never happened.
I pull away long enough to say, “We broke up.”
“I thought about it after we talked.” He kisses me, then pulls away again. “What kind of mate would I be if I didn’t stand by you when you needed me?”
The alpha in him is telling me that that’s the end of the conversation, and for a few moments I get dragged under.
I blink through the haze of his dominance, the same dominance he’s been throwing around since he swept me up in his arms, I just hadn’t noticed it then.
He doesn’t get to decide we’re back together. And even if he’s okay with me receiving attention from two men at the same time—and an alpha would never settle for being second fiddle—I’m not.
His hands are beginning to roam. This is escalating way too quickly.
“Wait, Eli,” I say. But he’s not listening to my words, he’s listening to my body, and my body’s sort of enjoying the heavy petting.
“Eli,” I say again, even as the siren surfaces.
His hand dips into my pants and—
“Eli, stop.” My voice hits multiple notes as I force the siren into it.
Eli stills, obeying the command in my voice.
I bent an alpha to my will. Not good not good not good.
But more than that, I just glamoured Eli, the man who proclaimed to love me. A bounty hunter who works on the right side of the law.
I’m fucked in every way but the one I’d actually enjoy.
“Did you … glamour me?” His voice becomes so gravelly as the predator tries to take over.
I swallow.
I’ve glamoured Eli before. There are certain situations where that’s inevitable. But I’m always careful to avoid taking away his will. And a second ago, his will was gone.