Rising Tides
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Of telling her mother.
Of explaining it all to Aubrey.
Instead, it was a quiet morning.
After a beautiful night, she scolded herself. A lovely night. She had no business complaining about it. Annoyed with herself, she went back inside to pour the first cup of freshly brewed coffee. Then she began to chuckle. What had she been thinking of? This was Ethan Quinn she was dealing with. Wasn't this the same man who'd waited—-by his own admission—nearly a decade to so much as kiss her? At the rate he took things, it could be another one before he brought up the subject of marriage. The only reason they'd moved from that first kiss to where they stood now was because she… well, she'd thrown herself at him, Grace admitted. Plain and simple. And she wouldn't have had the guts to do that if Anna hadn't shoved her along.
Flowers, she thought, turning so that she could smile at them, bright and pretty on her kitchen counter. Candlelight dinner, moonlit walks, and long, tender lovemaking. Yes, he was courting her—and would likely continue to do so until she went mad waiting for him to take the next step. But that was Ethan, she admitted, and just one of the things she adored about him. She sipped coffee, bit her lip. Why did he have to take the step? Why shouldn't she be the one to move things along? Julie had told her men liked it when a woman took the initiative. And hadn't Ethan liked it when she finally worked up the courage to ask him to make love with her?
She could do some courting herself, couldn't she? And she could move it along at a faster pace. God knew she was an expert at getting things done on schedule.
It would only take the courage to ask him. She blew out a breath. She'd have to find that, but she would dig inside herself until she did.
temperatures soared,and the humidity thickened in a syrupy morass that Cam not so cheerfully dubbed
"fumidity." He worked belowdecks, trimming out the cabin until the heat sent him topside desperate for fluids and one stingy breeze.
Though he rarely complained about the working conditions, Ethan was—like Cam—stripped to the waist. Sweat poured as he patiently varnished.
"That's going to take a week to dry, it's so goddamn damp."
"Decent storm might blow some of it out."
"Then I wish to Christ we'd have one." Cam grabbed up the jug and glugged water straight from the lip.
"Close weather makes some people edgy."
"I'm not edgy, I'm hot. Where's the kid?"
"Sent him for some ice."
"Good idea. I could take a bath in it. There's no f**king air down there." Ethan nodded. Varnishing was a miserable enough job in this weather, but working below in the little cabin where even the big fans couldn't reach was probably kin to working in hell. "Want to switch off for a while?"
"I can do my own goddamn job."
Ethan merely lifted a sweaty shoulder. "Suit yourself." Cam gritted his teeth, then hissed. "Okay, I am edgy. The heat's frying my brain, and I keep wondering if that alley cat's gotten Anna's letter yet."
"Ought to. It went out Tuesday as soon as the post office broke the holiday. It's Friday now."
"I know what day it is, Ethan." Disgusted, Cam swiped sweat off his face and scowled at his brother.
"Aren't you worried a damn bit about it?"
"It won't make any difference if I am or not. She'll do what she's going to do." His gaze flicked up to Cam's and was hard as a bunched fist. "Then we'll handle it." Cam paced the deck, caught a whiff of air from the fans, paced back. "I never could understand how you can stay so calm when things go to hell."
"Practice," Ethan murmured and kept on varnishing.
Cam rolled his aching shoulders, drummed his fingers on his thigh. He had to think of something else or he'd go crazy. "How'd the big date go the other night?"
"Well enough."
"Jesus, Ethan, do I have to get the pliers?"
A smile moved over Ethan's mouth. "Had a nice dinner. Drank some of that Pouilly Fuisse Phil's so wild about. Tastes fine enough, but I don't see what the big fuss is about."
"So, you get laid?"
Ethan flicked up another glance, took in Cam's wide grin, and decided to take the question in the spirit it was asked. "Yeah—did you?"
Entertained, if no cooler, Cam threw back his head and laughed. "Damn, she's the best thing that ever happened to you. I don't just mean the sex, though that's got to be part of what's perked you up around here lately. The woman fits you like the proverbial glove."
Ethan paused, scratched his belly where sweat dribbled and itched. "Why?"
"Because she's rock-steady, pretty as a picture, patient as Job, and she's got enough humor about life to tickle out yours. I guess we'll be sprucing up the yard for another wedding before long." Ethan's fingers tightened on his brush. "I'm not going to marry her, Cam." It was the tone as much as the statement that made Cam's eyes narrow. Quiet despair. "I guess I could be reading you wrong," Cam said slowly. "I figured, the way things were moving, you were serious about her."
"I am serious, about Grace. About a lot of things." He dipped his brush again, watched the clean gold varnish drip. "Marriage isn't something I'm looking for." Ordinarily Cam would have let a subject such as this drop. He'd have walked away from it with a shrug. Your business, brother. But he knew Ethan too well, had loved him too long to walk away from the pain. He crouched by the rail so their faces were closer.
"I wasn't looking for it either," he murmured. "Scared the hell out me. But when the woman comes into your life,the woman, it's scarier to let her go."
"I know what I'm doing."
The dug-in-at-the-heels look didn't stop Cam. "You always figure you do. I hope you're right this time. I sure as hell hope this isn't some shit that goes back to that ghost-eyed kid Mom and Dad brought home one day. The one who used to wake up screaming at night."
"Don't go there, Cam."
"Don't you go there, either. Mom and Dad did better by us than that."
"It has nothing to do with them."
"It all has everything to do with them. Listen—" He broke off with a mild oath as Seth came running in.