Rising Tides
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 Nora Roberts

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He couldn't blame her for it.
She would find someone else—someone she could make a life with. The thought burned in his gut as he loitered by his truck, but he refused to let it pass. She deserved to have what she wanted out of life. That was marriage and children and a pretty home. A father for Aubrey, a man who would appreciate both of them for the treasures they were.
Another man.
Another man who would slip his arms around her waist, rub his mouth over hers. Hear her breath quicken, feel her bones go soft.
Some faceless son of a bitch who wasn't good enough for her would turn to her in the night, sink inside her. And smile every goddamn morning because he knew he could do it again. Christ, Ethan thought, it was making him crazy.
Foolish bumped into his legs, a ratty tennis ball clamped hopefully in his mouth, his tail wagging persuasively. In a habitual move, Ethan tugged the ball free and tossed it. Foolish bounded after it, yapping furiously when Simon darted like a bullet from the left and intercepted. Ethan only sighed when Simon pranced back, sat, and waited for the game to continue. It was as good an excuse as any to stay outside, Ethan decided. He would fool with the dogs, go fiddle with his boat, stay out of Grace's way. If she had wanted to see him, she could have found him. The dogs worked him around the side yard, and taking pity on the slower, less skilled Foolish, Ethan found a stick to toss along with the ball. It lightened his mood a little to watch them bash into each other, wrestle, fetch, and retrieve.
You could depend on a dog, he thought, giving the ball a higher, harder toss that sent Simon bounding in pursuit.
They never asked for more than you could give them.
He didn't see Grace until he was well around the house. Then he simply stood. No, one look, one quick glimpse, wasn't enough. Would never be enough. The sheet she lifted to the line flapped wetly in the breeze as she pegged it. The sun was on her hair. As he watched, she bent to the basket, took out a pillowcase, gave it a quick snap, then clipped it beside the sheet.
Love flooded into him, swamped him, left him weak and needy. Small details hammered him—the curve of her cheek in profile. Had he ever noticed how elegant her profile was? The way her hair sat on her head, feathered at the back of her neck. Was she letting it grow? The way the trim cuff of her shorts skimmed her thigh. She had such long, smooth thighs.
Foolish rapped his head against Ethan's leg and snapped him back. Abruptly nervous, he wiped his hands on his work pants, shifted his feet. It was probably best, he decided, if he just slipped back around the front, went into the house and upstairs. He took the first step back, then pulled up short when she turned. She gave him a long look, one he couldn't read, then bent to take out another pillowcase.
"Hello, Ethan."
"Grace." He tucked his hands in his pockets. It wasn't often he heard her voice quite so cool.
"It's foolish to go all the way back around to the front of the house just to avoid me."
"I was… going to check something on the boat."
"That's fine. You can do that after I talk to you."
"I wasn't sure you'd want to talk to me." He approached her cautiously. Her tone of voice took the blistering heat right out of the day.
"I tried to talk to you the other night, but you weren't inclined to listen." She reached into the basket, apparently unperturbed that she was now hanging his underwear.
"Then I needed a little time to myself, to settle everything in my head."
"And have you?"
"Oh, I think so. First, I should tell you that what you told me about what you went through before you came here shocked me, and it hurt me, and I have nothing but pity for that little boy and rage about what happened to him." She glanced at him as she secured the next clothespin. "You don't want to hear that. You don't want to think that I have feelings about it, that it touched me."
"No," he said evenly. "No, I didn't want it to touch you."
"Because I'm so fragile. Because I'm so delicate of nature." His brows drew together. "Partly. And—"
"So you hoarded that nasty little seed all for yourself," she went on, calmly working her way down the clothesline. "Even though there's nothing in or of my life that you don't know. It's the way it should be, in your opinion, that I'm an open book and you're a closed one."
"No, it wasn't that. Exactly."
"What could it have been exactly?" she wondered, but he didn't think it was a question and wisely formed no answer. "I've been thinking about that, Ethan. I've been thinking about a number of things. Why don't we go back a ways first? You like to do things in neat, logical steps. And since you like things to be done your way, we'll just be neat and logical."
The dogs, sensing trouble, retreated to the water. Ethan found himself envying them.
"You told me you've loved me for years. Years," she said with such quick fury that he nearly stumbled back. "But you don't do anything about it. You don't once, not once, come up to me and ask me if I'd like to spend some time with you. One word from you, one look from you, would have thrilled me. But oh, no, not Ethan Quinn, not with his broody mind and incredible control. You just kept your distance and let me pine over you."
"I didn't know you had those kind of feelings for me."
"Then you're blind as well as stupid," she snapped.
His brows drew together. "Stupid?"
"That's what I said." Seeing the outrage cross his face was balm to her battered ego. "I would never have looked twice at Jack Casey if you'd given me anything to hope for. But I needed someone to want me, and it sure as hell didn't appear it was ever going to be you."
"Now just a damn minute. I'm not to blame for you marrying Jack."
"No, I take the blame. I take the responsibility, and I don't regret it because it gave me Aubrey. But I blame you, Ethan." And those gold-flecked green eyes blazed with it. "I blame you for being too pigheaded to take what you wanted. And you haven't changed a damn bit."
"You were too young—"
She used both hands, and all the force of her temper went into the shove. "Oh, shut up. You had your say. Now I'm having mine."
in the kitchen, seth'seyes went hot. He made a dash for the door, only to be brought up short by Anna, who was eavesdropping as hard as she could.