"A business." This time Tod's laugh was long and delighted. "You? Don't pull my leg so hard, it hurts." Now Cam's eyes narrowed. He didn't doubt Tod Bardette of East Texas would be joined by others of his friends and acquaintances in laughing at the idea of Cameron Quinn, businessman.
"We're building boats," he said between his teeth. "Here on the Eastern Shore. Wooden boats. Custom jobs," he added, determined to play it to the hilt. "One of a kinds. In six months, you'll be paying me top dollar to design and build you a boat by Quinn. Since we're old friends, I'll try to squeeze you in."
"Boats." The interest in Tod's voice picked up. "Well now, you know how to sail them, guess maybe you'd know how to build them."
"There's no maybe about it."
"That's an interesting enterprise, but come on, Cam, you're not a businessman. You're not going to stay stuck on some pretty little bay in Maryland eating crabs and nailing planks. You know I'll make this race worth your while. Money, fame and fortune." And he chuckled. "After we win, you can go back and put a couple of little sloops together."
He could handle it, Cam promised himself. He could handle the insults, the frustration of not being able to pack and go as he chose. What he wouldn't do was give Bardette the satisfaction of knowing he was ruffled. "You're going to have to find another skipper. But if you want to buy a boat, give me a call."
"If you actually get one finished, give me a call." A sigh came through the receiver. "You're missing the chance of a lifetime here. You change your mind in the next couple hours, get in touch. But I need to nail down my crew this week. Talk to you."
And Cam was listening to a dial tone.
He didn't hurl the receiver through the window. He wanted to, considered it, then figured he'd be the one sweeping up the glass, so what would be the point?
So he hung up the phone, with careful deliberation. He even took a deep breath. And if whatever he'd put in the washing machine hadn't chosen that moment to spin out of balance and send the machine hopping, he wouldn't have slammed his fist into the wall.
"I thought for a minute there you were going to pull it off."
He whirled, and saw his father sitting at the kitchen table, chuckling. "Oh, God, this caps it."
"Why don't you get some ice for your knuckles?"
"It's all right." Cam glanced down at them. A couple of scrapes. And the sharp pain was a good hold on reality. "I thought about this, Dad. Really thought about it. I just don't believe you're here." Ray continued to smile. "You're here, Cam. That's what matters. It was tough turning down a race like that. I'm grateful to you. I'm proud of you."
"Bardette said he had a honey of a boat. With his money behind it…" Cam pressed his hands on the counter and stared out the window toward the quiet water. "I could win that bastard. I captained a crew to second in the Little America's Cup five years ago, and I took the Chicago-Mackinac last year."
"You're a fine sailor, Cam."
"Yeah." He curled his fingers into fists. "What the hell am I doing here? If this keeps up I'm going to get hooked on soap operas. I'll start thinking Lilac and Lance are not only real people but close personal friends. I'll start obsessing that my whites aren't white enough. I'll clip coupons and collect recipes and go the rest of the way out of my f**king mind."
"I'm surprised at you, thinking of tending a home in those terms." Ray's voice was sharp now, with disappointment around the edges. "Making a home, caring for family is important work. The most important work there is."
"It's not my work."
"It seems it is now. I'm sorry for that."
Cam turned back. If you were going to have a conversation with a hallucination, you might as well look at it. "For what? For dying on me?"
"Well, that was pretty inconvenient all around."
He would have laughed, the comment and the ironic tone were so typically Ray Quinn. But he had to get out what was nibbling at his mind. "Some people are saying you aimed for the pole." Ray's smile faded, and his eyes turned sober and sad. "Do you believe that?"
"No." Cam let out a breath. "No, I don't believe that."
"Life's a gift. It doesn't always fit comfortably, but it's precious. I wouldn't have hurt you and your brothers by throwing mine away."
"I know that," Cam murmured. "It helps to hear you say it, but I know that."
"Maybe I could have stopped things. Maybe I could have done things differently." He sighed and turned the gold wedding band around and around on his finger. "But I didn't. It's up to you now, you and Ethan and Phillip. There was a reason the three of you came to me and Stella. A reason the three of you came together. I always believed that. Now I know it."
"And what about the kid?"
"Seth's place is here. He needs you. He's in trouble right now, and he needs you to remember what it was like to be where he is."
"What do you mean, he's in trouble?"
Ray smiled a little. "Answer the phone," he suggested seconds before it rang. And then he was gone.
"I've got to start getting more sleep," Cam decided, then yanked the receiver off the hook. "Yeah, yeah."
"Hello? Mr. Quinn?"
"Right. This is Cameron Quinn."
"Mr. Quinn, this is Abigail Moorefield, vice principal of St. Christopher Middle School." Cam felt his stomach sink to his toes. "Uh-huh."
"I'm afraid there's been some trouble here. I have Seth DeLauter in my office."
"What kind of trouble?"
"Seth was in a fight with another student. He's being suspended. Mr. Quinn, I'd appreciate it if you could come to my office so matters can be explained to you and you can take Seth home."
"Great. Wonderful." At his wits' end, Cam dragged a hand through his hair. "On my way." The school hadn't changed much, Cam noted, since he'd done time there. The first morning he'd passed through those heavy front doors, Stella Quinn had all but dragged him.
He was nearly eighteen years older now, and no more enthusiastic.
"We're building boats," he said between his teeth. "Here on the Eastern Shore. Wooden boats. Custom jobs," he added, determined to play it to the hilt. "One of a kinds. In six months, you'll be paying me top dollar to design and build you a boat by Quinn. Since we're old friends, I'll try to squeeze you in."
"Boats." The interest in Tod's voice picked up. "Well now, you know how to sail them, guess maybe you'd know how to build them."
"There's no maybe about it."
"That's an interesting enterprise, but come on, Cam, you're not a businessman. You're not going to stay stuck on some pretty little bay in Maryland eating crabs and nailing planks. You know I'll make this race worth your while. Money, fame and fortune." And he chuckled. "After we win, you can go back and put a couple of little sloops together."
He could handle it, Cam promised himself. He could handle the insults, the frustration of not being able to pack and go as he chose. What he wouldn't do was give Bardette the satisfaction of knowing he was ruffled. "You're going to have to find another skipper. But if you want to buy a boat, give me a call."
"If you actually get one finished, give me a call." A sigh came through the receiver. "You're missing the chance of a lifetime here. You change your mind in the next couple hours, get in touch. But I need to nail down my crew this week. Talk to you."
And Cam was listening to a dial tone.
He didn't hurl the receiver through the window. He wanted to, considered it, then figured he'd be the one sweeping up the glass, so what would be the point?
So he hung up the phone, with careful deliberation. He even took a deep breath. And if whatever he'd put in the washing machine hadn't chosen that moment to spin out of balance and send the machine hopping, he wouldn't have slammed his fist into the wall.
"I thought for a minute there you were going to pull it off."
He whirled, and saw his father sitting at the kitchen table, chuckling. "Oh, God, this caps it."
"Why don't you get some ice for your knuckles?"
"It's all right." Cam glanced down at them. A couple of scrapes. And the sharp pain was a good hold on reality. "I thought about this, Dad. Really thought about it. I just don't believe you're here." Ray continued to smile. "You're here, Cam. That's what matters. It was tough turning down a race like that. I'm grateful to you. I'm proud of you."
"Bardette said he had a honey of a boat. With his money behind it…" Cam pressed his hands on the counter and stared out the window toward the quiet water. "I could win that bastard. I captained a crew to second in the Little America's Cup five years ago, and I took the Chicago-Mackinac last year."
"You're a fine sailor, Cam."
"Yeah." He curled his fingers into fists. "What the hell am I doing here? If this keeps up I'm going to get hooked on soap operas. I'll start thinking Lilac and Lance are not only real people but close personal friends. I'll start obsessing that my whites aren't white enough. I'll clip coupons and collect recipes and go the rest of the way out of my f**king mind."
"I'm surprised at you, thinking of tending a home in those terms." Ray's voice was sharp now, with disappointment around the edges. "Making a home, caring for family is important work. The most important work there is."
"It's not my work."
"It seems it is now. I'm sorry for that."
Cam turned back. If you were going to have a conversation with a hallucination, you might as well look at it. "For what? For dying on me?"
"Well, that was pretty inconvenient all around."
He would have laughed, the comment and the ironic tone were so typically Ray Quinn. But he had to get out what was nibbling at his mind. "Some people are saying you aimed for the pole." Ray's smile faded, and his eyes turned sober and sad. "Do you believe that?"
"No." Cam let out a breath. "No, I don't believe that."
"Life's a gift. It doesn't always fit comfortably, but it's precious. I wouldn't have hurt you and your brothers by throwing mine away."
"I know that," Cam murmured. "It helps to hear you say it, but I know that."
"Maybe I could have stopped things. Maybe I could have done things differently." He sighed and turned the gold wedding band around and around on his finger. "But I didn't. It's up to you now, you and Ethan and Phillip. There was a reason the three of you came to me and Stella. A reason the three of you came together. I always believed that. Now I know it."
"And what about the kid?"
"Seth's place is here. He needs you. He's in trouble right now, and he needs you to remember what it was like to be where he is."
"What do you mean, he's in trouble?"
Ray smiled a little. "Answer the phone," he suggested seconds before it rang. And then he was gone.
"I've got to start getting more sleep," Cam decided, then yanked the receiver off the hook. "Yeah, yeah."
"Hello? Mr. Quinn?"
"Right. This is Cameron Quinn."
"Mr. Quinn, this is Abigail Moorefield, vice principal of St. Christopher Middle School." Cam felt his stomach sink to his toes. "Uh-huh."
"I'm afraid there's been some trouble here. I have Seth DeLauter in my office."
"What kind of trouble?"
"Seth was in a fight with another student. He's being suspended. Mr. Quinn, I'd appreciate it if you could come to my office so matters can be explained to you and you can take Seth home."
"Great. Wonderful." At his wits' end, Cam dragged a hand through his hair. "On my way." The school hadn't changed much, Cam noted, since he'd done time there. The first morning he'd passed through those heavy front doors, Stella Quinn had all but dragged him.
He was nearly eighteen years older now, and no more enthusiastic.
