Secrets of the Demon
Page 37

“Sounds dangerous,” Zack said with a mock frown. “I think it would be much safer for us to hunt wild golems. Perhaps somewhere on the other side of the lake.”
“Back off, fanboy,” I said, pointing a gravy-and-cheese-laden fry at him. “I’ve already spoken to the object of your crush—”
“It is not a crush!” he insisted.
“—and Lida is arranging for private security, so your stalking services aren’t needed.”
“You wound me. My intentions are noble.”
Ryan made a rude noise, then turned his attention to me. “So you warned her to watch her back?”
I nodded. “I told Roger to be careful, too, but ... it wasn’t enough.”
His face tightened in a sympathetic grimace.
“And you need to watch your back as well, Kara,” Zack said with a telling look.
Ryan spun to face me. “Why?” he asked, barely shy of demanding.
I glared at Zack, who gave a soft sigh. “I thought you’d told him already,” he said.
“Tell me what?” Ryan said, and this time it was most certainly a demand.
I struggled to control my desire to fidget. “There was another, um, strange thing after we left the search at Adam Taylor’s house.”
His eyes narrowed. “Strange? Like what? And what do you mean another?”
Zack gave me a sharp look. “You didn’t tell me it had happened before.”
The worry on Ryan’s face deepened. “What the fuck happened?”
I grimaced and rubbed my eyes. “Zack ... er, I think it was a summoning.”
Confusion flitted across Ryan’s face. “Another summoner was trying to bring a demon through? Where? But it’s not a full moon. I don’t understand.”
“No. A summoning of me.”
He stared at me for several heartbeats, then the color drained from his face. “Summoning to bring you to the demon realm.”
I shrugged, trying to be casual about it, but it was a pretty pathetic effort. “Well, I can’t be certain of that, but that’s the most logical conclusion.”
He clenched and unclenched his hands. “And this has happened twice, and you didn’t think this was something you needed to tell me.” It wasn’t a question.
I fumbled for a response. “No. I mean, yes. I knew you’d get upset, and it’s not like there’s anything that you could do—” Shit.
I knew I’d fucked up the instant the words were out of my mouth. His lips pressed together and he stood abruptly, jostling the table and nearly spilling the drinks. He was out the back door before I could do more than grab for my Diet Coke.
I stared after him, shocked at the depth of his reaction, and cursing myself at my own callousness. Fucking shit, Kara. Why don’t you just ask him to hand you his balls?
“Go to him,” Zack said quietly. I hesitated, then pushed up from the table and went after him.
The rear parking lot was empty of cars and people, or so I thought at first. I finally saw Ryan down near the corner of the building, head down. One hand was on the wall, the other clenched into a fist by his side. There was a huge part of me that did not want to go near him. I could feel the fury and hurt coming off of him.
But I was the one who’d fucked up. I moved toward him. “Ryan?” I said, more tentatively than I’d intended, but my resolve was wavering pretty badly in the face of his anger and distress. I didn’t like that I was the one who’d caused this. If someone else had hurt him like this, I’d have been ready to kill them.
He straightened, pulling his hand from the wall but not turning to face me. “Go back and eat your lunch, Kara. I need a minute.”
“Ryan, I’m sorry. That was a shit thing for me to have said.”
“Yep. It was.”
Well, damn. What the hell was I supposed to say to that? “I’m sorry.”
“Why don’t you trust me, Kara?” He turned now, gaze meeting mine.
“I do,” I tried to insist, but even I could hear the hesitation in my voice.
Frustration swept across his features again. “I don’t know what the hell else I can do, Kara. I’m not holding anything back from you that I know of.”
“That you know of, Ryan?”
He jammed his fingers through his hair. “Fuck! Kara, I know I do and say strange stuff sometimes, but why can’t you at least trust me enough to know that I would never hurt you, and that I give a fuck if you’re in trouble?”
I took an involuntary step back from the vehemence in his tone. “I’m sorry. I didn’t want to upset you.”
His hands balled into fists. “But you’ll summon Rhyzkahl—” He spat the name. “—and tell him?”
The words died on my tongue. Yes. He might be able to help me. “I don’t have a choice, Ryan,” I said softly.
I was ready for the rage that passed through his eyes this time and didn’t step back.
“You asked me what my type was. I’ll tell you,” he growled, seizing me by my upper arms. I stiffened in surprise but didn’t try and pull away. His grip was solid and firm, but he wasn’t hurting me. Quite. “My type,” he sneered the word, “is someone who can fucking trust me. Not only trust that I won’t screw other women, but trust me enough to tell me if she needs help, or just needs someone to talk to. My type is someone who doesn’t reek of a demonic lord, who doesn’t turn to him instead of—” He released me abruptly and spun away. I staggered and had to reach to the wall to catch my balance. My breath seized in my chest as I watched him storm off. Half a minute later I saw his Crown Vic roar out of the other parking lot in very un-Ryan-like fashion.
I felt frozen to the spot as his words seemed to clang around in my skull, slicing at me. He was right. That was the worst of it. Every word of it had been true. Now I knew he was interested in me, wanted me as more than “just friends,” and I’d gone and fucked it up before I’d ever given it a chance.
I barely felt the gentle hand on my shoulder. “Kara,” Zack said softly. “He worries. He is frightened for you, and he is lashing out with his pain. You did not deserve that.”
“Yes, I did, Zack.” I turned to look at him in misery. “Yes I did. Everything he said was the truth.”
The gentleness and understanding in his eyes surprised me, until I realized that if he really was a demon he was probably far older than the twenty-something years that Special Agent Zack Garner supposedly had. “Even if he spoke truth,” he said, “he couched it in vile terms and with vicious intent, designed to make you feel pain equivalent to what he feels. You cause him pain, but only with the intent to spare him such. Your bond to Rhyzkahl exists only because you felt there was no other choice save to allow Ryan to be consumed. Ryan knows all of this, but knowledge and logic are easily overshadowed by passion and pain.”
I gazed up at him. “Zack?”
“Yes, Kara?”
“You’re doing that ‘talking like a demon’ thing again.”
He blinked, then gave me a wry smile. “Sorry.” He took a deep breath. “Look, I’ll talk to him.” He shook his head. “He’s going to be beating himself up right now anyway.” He caught my eyes again. “Can you summon Rhyzkahl tonight?”
I hesitated. “I don’t know. I couldn’t store any more potency last night, and it’s still a few days from the full moon.”
He grimaced. “All right. I don’t mean to be a nag about this, but I can’t think of anyone else who could give you the help and protection you need.”
I thought about the amount of power in my storage diagram and sighed. But maybe there was another option . I could try calling him to my dreams. A chill walked down my back at the memory of the last time I tried that, during the search for the Symbol Man. In a desperate move to glean information about one of the murders, I’d made a conscious effort to call the demonic lord to my dreams—a reasonable enough move considering that he’d visited my dreams before. Or so I’d foolishly assumed. But Rhyzkahl had not been pleased to be called forth in such a manner. For several nightmarish minutes he’d manipulated the dream state, teaching me in unforgettable fashion that he was a creature of more power than I could fathom, and that he did not serve me.
But this would be different, I told myself. This wouldn’t be calling him to get him to serve me. Besides, I was fucking bound to him now.
I nodded morosely. “Yeah. I know. I promise, I will as soon as I possibly can.”
Zack gave me a reassuring smile. “Hey, don’t get bummed out. We’ll get through this.”
“Yeah.” I didn’t sound very convincing.
“It’s going to be all right,” he said firmly. “I’m gonna go chase Ryan down. I’ll check in with you later on.”
I mumbled something in the way of acknowledgment and watched him drive off, then returned inside and paid our bill. The most sensible thing for me to do now would be to go on home, hunker down with the financial information, and forget that this lunch ever happened.
But I found myself driving to my aunt’s shop instead. It had been a quaint little natural food store before her coma, and I’d been forced to close it during her time at the neuro center. As soon as she recovered she reopened it, but bigger and better than before. It still had a section for the organics and natural food store stuff, but now there was also a small café and a yoga studio. And her business had never been better.
A subtle floral scent surrounded me as I walked in, paired with soft and soothing music that sounded faintly oriental. Tessa was behind the counter, barefoot, wearing purple leggings paired with a billowing white silk blouse, topped with yards of red beads draped around her neck. She looked up at the sound of the bell over the door and gave me a bright smile that managed to lift my spirits a few millimeters. Sketching a wave to her, I headed over to the cooler and snagged an iced tea, then found an unoccupied table in the corner. A few minutes later she plopped down into the chair across from me.