Shadowfever
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Had he taken her to this Tellie woman, whod then helped Alina and me find an adoptive home in America? If Isla had left the abbey alive, why, how, when had she died? Had she even made it to Tellie, or had the woman agreed in advance to get her children out if anything happened to her? What part had Barrons been playing in all this? Had he killed Isla?
I shifted restlessly. Hed seen the cake. He knew I had a birthday party planned. He hated birthdays. There was no way hed show his face tonight.
I picked at a piece of chocolate mousse icing. I stared around the bookstore. I contemplated the mural on the ceiling and fiddled with the cashmere throw. I plucked crumbs from the corner of the sofa and lined them up on my plate.
Rowena was Nanas daughter. Isla and Kayleigh had practically grown up together. Isla had been the Haven Mistress. Theyd felt it necessary to form a Haven behind Ros back. One that didnt even live at the abbey. Isla had run the formal one, and the mysterious Tellie had run the secret one. All these years my momIslahad been taking the blame for the Book escaping, and now it looked like it had been Rowena behind things.
Shed let us all take the blame: first Isla, then Alina, then me.
the two from the ancient bloodlines aint got a snowball chance in hell o fixing our mess, cause they aint gonna want to.
I sighed. When Id overheard my mom and dad in Ashford that night, talking about how I might doom the world, Id felt condemned. Then Kat and Jo had showed me the prophecywhat I now knew was an abbreviated versionand Id felt absolved.
Now I was back to feeling condemned. It was more than a little disturbing to hear that the sooner my sister and I got killed, the better off the human race would be.
If shed lived, would Alina have chosen Darroc? In a fit of grief, Id wanted to unmake this world for a new one with Barrons in it. Were we both fatally flawed? Instead of having been smuggled from the country for our own good, had we been exiled for the sake of the world? Was that why the DEG had given me THE WORLD card? To warn me that I was going to destroy it if I wasnt careful? That I needed to look at it, see it, choose it? Who was he, anyway?
When Id first arrived in Dublin and begun finding things out about myself, Id felt like a reluctant hero, questing on an epic journey.
Now I just hoped I wouldnt end up screwing things up too much. Big problems demanded big decisions. How could I trust my own judgment when I wasnt even sure who I was?
I crossed my legs. Uncrossed them and raked a hand through my hair.
Dudeyou watching or doing couch calisthenics? Dani complained.
I gave her a stark look. You want to go kill something?
She beamed. She had a chocolate ice-cream mustache. Man, I thought youd neverask!
Each time Dani and I have fought back-to-back is a golden memory Ive tucked away in the scrapbook of my mind.
I cant help but think its what things would have been like if Alina had trusted me and wed gotten to fight together. Knowing that youve got somebody watching your back, youre a team, youd never leave each other behind, youd break each other out of enemy camps, is one of the greatest feelings in the world. Knowing that no matter how bad the trouble is youve gotten yourself into, that person will come for you and go on with youthats love. I wonder if Alina and I were weak because we let ourselves get divided, separated by an ocean. I wonder whether shed still be alive if wed stayed together.
I may never know where I came from, but I can choose my family from here on out, and Danis a non-negotiable part of it. Jack and Rainey are going to love her when they finally meet her.
We blasted through the rain-slicked streets, killing Unseelie with a vengeance. With each one I stabbed, I grew more convinced I wasnt the king. I would have felt something if I had been: remorse, guilt, something. The king had been unwilling to give up his shadow children. I felt no pride of creation, no misguided love. I felt nothing but satisfaction at ending their immortal, parasitic existences and saving human lives.
We ran into Jayne and the Guardians and helped them out of a tight spot with a couple of sifters. We saw Lor and Fade on the prowl. I thought I glimpsed a Keltar on a rooftop, but he vanished so quickly I was left only with the impression of sleek tattooed muscle in the darkness.
Near dawn, we ended up a little too close to Chesters and I decided we should probably call it quits for the day. I was finally tired enough to sleep and I wanted to be at my best to track the Sinsar Dubh.
Tonight, it would finally end. Tonight we would seal the Book away forever. Then I would pick up the pieces of my life and begin rebuilding it, starting with my mom and dad. I would continue with my missions to find out whod killed Alina and who I was, but once the Book was locked down again, Id finally be able to breathe a little easier. Take more time like tonight for myself, time to live and love.
Lets head back to the bookstore, Dani.
A strangled sound was the only reply.
I spun and sucked in a screech of breath. I didnt think. I just lunged and slammed my palms into her to Null the bitch.
The Gray Woman froze, but I was too late.
I stared in horror. While Id been lost in my own thoughts, the lesion-covered, beauty-sucking Gray Woman had sifted in, grabbed Dani unaware, and begun devouring her. Right behind me, and I hadnt even noticed!
All I could think was, But this isnt her MOthe Gray Woman devours men!