Sweet Little Memories
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“I really like birth control,” he said then pressed a kiss to my lips.
The reminder, however, was enough to shake off my sleepy state of euphoria. I didn’t have a response for that because it would be lying and soon I was going to have to tell him the truth. I had to wait for a good time to tell him. He was dealing with too much at the moment and I wasn’t comfortable telling him yet.
“I like that position,” I said changing the subject back to the sex.
He hadn’t pulled out of me yet. His erection wasn’t completely gone and he made it twitch inside me. Startled, I laughed and he grinned wickedly at me. “You better get your ass out of this bed or Geraldine will be cooking her own breakfast.
The idea of shower sex sounded good to me, but he was right. I had to get ready for work.
“Will you be home when I get here tonight?” I already missed him. And I was feeling clingy again.
“You’ll see me before then.” He kissed my lips. “Now put some distance between your hot little pussy and my cock. Please. It has a mind of its own.”
Giggling, I scrambled out of bed and ran to the shower.
For a moment life was beautiful. Simple. No secrets. Only for a moment.
 
 
Stone
I SLIPPED MY PHONE IN my pocket after speaking with my father. He still knew nothing and was currently in London dealing with the department store there. That specific store was newer and required more of his time. Making sure he was gone and putting a date on his return was my first step.
Marianna had let me in and directed me toward where I could find Wills. Marianna was the newest housekeeper/nanny. She was in her sixties and slightly overweight. Obviously, my stepmother had chosen her. I had to admit she was smarter than the stepmothers. If she had left it up to him, Marianna would have a stripper name and be younger than her with larger breasts and looser morals.
A bonus was that I liked Marianna and so did Wills. She wasn’t motherly, but she was kind. He needed that in this place. Especially now that he was considered old enough to get hit by the man who thought he had the right.
I knocked on the door to the game room once and slowly opened it. Wills was sitting crossed legged on the sofa with a remote control in his hand. A video game played out on the large screen in front of him—it was motorcycle racing. The music was loud on the game and he hadn’t heard me knock or come in.
“No!” he yelled at the game. “Not NOW!”
I watched as the motorcycle’s tire blew out and it spiraled out of control.
“Son of a bitch!” He threw the remote down.
I cleared my throat and he swung his head around. When he saw it was me, his first expression was surprise that quickly morphed into a smile taking over his face. Everything about seeing him today was more. I didn’t think I could love him more than I already did. But standing there, looking at him and knowing he was mine, I realized I’d been holding a piece of myself back. Protecting it in case I found out he wasn’t my son. Now my chest felt like it was going to explode as I walked toward him.
“Stone!” He jumped up and ran toward me. His arms were in the air and the mouth that had spoken in a tone too old for his age was now gone. The six-year-old boy was throwing himself into my arms, completely confident I would catch him.
“Hey buddy.” I picked him up and hugged him tightly. Emotion clogging my throat. I closed my eyes a moment to mentally get a grip. I wanted to take him and run. Rescue him from this place. Hide him from the ugliness he’d already witnessed.
Knowing I couldn’t take him now made it so damn hard to stand here and not fucking weep. He was just a little boy. A kid. And that bastard had hurt him. Scared him. Taken a piece of his innocence that he’d never get back. No amount of love I could give him would erase that moment. That terror. It was there and it would always be in his nightmares. In his thoughts. It would mold the man he would become and I hated the fact I wasn’t able to save him from it.
I would blame myself for not moving faster. For waiting and being patient like the attorneys had suggested I do. I knew the day my father would start hitting him would come and I wanted to have him out of here before he did. But I hadn’t managed it.
“You came! You didn’t call this morning and I thought that you weren’t coming.” The joy and relief in his eyes almost put me on my knees.
“Didn’t you talk to your mom yesterday?” I asked him. Hilda had said she would tell him I was coming. I had already assured him I would but I asked that she remind him. I knew his calls were monitored and I didn’t want my father to be alerted that I’d spoken to Wills twice so soon. He’d get suspicious. I didn’t need that. Not now.
He nodded. “She called but she didn’t tell me. She said she was visiting you. But that’s it.”
He didn’t ask if she’d come. He didn’t ask if she was coming. He was six years old and he didn’t care if his mother was coming to see him. I had asked her to come with me, but she’d gotten a call from her married boyfriend and left in tears. I wasn’t sure if I would return to her at my place, or if she was left for Chicago.
“She was supposed to. I’m sorry. I should have called,” I told him. He needed to be reassured. He didn’t get that anywhere else in his world. Hilda should have thought of that. But she would rarely think beyond her needs and wants.
“Can I come to Savannah with you?” He asked me this a lot. He wanted to stay with me. My father never allowed it. He said I was too busy to fool with “the kid.” And he’d said it in front of Wills.
“Soon. I promise,” I replied. “But today we are going to the M&M store to get you a large bag of the blue ones you love with whatever word you want on them this time. Then I thought we’d visit the zoo, and throw the football.”
“I don’t have a football,” he said seriously.
“Oh, that’s right. I forgot the part where we buy one at Nike Town,” I added.
He was grinning now. He’d told me last time I visited that he didn’t have a football and he wanted to learn to throw one.
“Can we leave now?” He wiggled to get down out of my arms.
“Absolutely. I need some of those yellow M&M’s.”
He smirked. At that moment, I saw myself. A picture from my youth. It was different now I knew. I wasn’t imagining the similarities—they were there and they were real. He was my son.