The Fill-In Boyfriend
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Drew stumbled into the kitchen after me and read the note over my shoulder. “You broke Mom.”
I clenched my teeth. “You broke Mom.” I pushed past him, grabbed the keys off the hook in the laundry room, and left the house.
Drew was right. I’d broken everything, but today I was going to fix it. So when I pulled into the lot, I parked in the section where Claire always did. Her car wasn’t there. I waited with no luck until the bell rang. The second bell didn’t magically produce her either. My eyes drifted to Laney’s car, parked a few rows over. Had they driven together? I knew I needed to fix things with Laney and Jules as well, but I wanted to start with Claire.
I sighed and climbed out of my car. As I headed to class, an idea took over. I was student body president. I usually didn’t abuse that title, but today I was going to make it work for me. I changed my direction and went to the front office.
If I acted like this was normal, it would work. I pasted on a smile and approached Mrs. Fields. “Hi, I’m working on last-minute details for the rally this Friday and I need to borrow Claire Dunning from her first-period class.”
“What class is she in?” Mrs. Fields asked like I did this all the time.
“Calculus. Freeman.”
My heart raced, but it must not have shown because she picked up the phone and dialed. “Hi,” she said after a moment. “I need Claire in the front office please.” She gave a few hums then hung up. I waited for her to tell me that Claire wasn’t at school today.
She didn’t. She smiled up at me and said, “She’s on her way.”
“Oh. Great. I’ll just wait outside for her. Thanks so much.” I stepped out the door and tried to think of what I was going to say. There was no excuse for what I had done. What I’d said. That would be a good opening line. There really wasn’t. If I were Claire, I’d be mad too. But we’d been best friends for ten years—that fact had to count for something.
I heard her shoes on the cement before I saw her round the corner. Her calm, curious look immediately hardened when she saw me. Then she stopped in the middle of the hall still forty feet away. I didn’t hesitate to close the gap between us.
“Can we just talk?”
“Did you seriously just call me out of class for this? Did you lie to Mrs. Fields to get me here?”
Maybe that wasn’t such a good idea. “No. Yes, but just barely.” What was wrong with me? I went with my preplanned line. “There’s no excuse for what I’ve done.”
“For lying to get me out of class?”
“No . . . well, maybe that too, but actually I think wanting to talk to you is a halfway decent excuse.” I shook my head. “I’m talking about lying to you about Bradley.”
“I know what you’re talking about.” Her expression hadn’t softened at all. “Is that all?” She started to back away.
“No. And for what I said at the restaurant. I didn’t mean we’ve never been friends. You’re my best friend, Claire. I’ve been so selfish. I just want to talk about this. I messed up and I wanted to say sorry.”
“Well, you said it.” She turned and headed back up the hall.
“That’s it?” I called after her. “I’m trying to fix this.”
She didn’t turn back around.
Time. I knew she just needed time. I’d hurt her and she wasn’t going to get over it that quickly. That’s what I was telling myself to hold it together. But when I heard two girls whisper the word “liar” when they passed me during break later that day, I couldn’t handle it anymore. I marched straight to the portables and found Bec.
“I need you,” I said, pulling her up by the arm and back through the crowded hallways toward the parking lot.
“Be careful. The whole school is seeing this.”
“I’m having a breakdown.” My chest was tight and I barely squeezed the words out.
She pressed her darkened lips together. “So . . . you want to go throw some baseballs? I actually drove to school today.”
“Yes,” I said without a second’s thought.
“Cool. Let’s go.”
As Bec drove toward the old country house, she hummed a song that was playing on the radio. After several minutes she said out of nowhere, “Do you believe in second chances?”
“No,” I said immediately because I knew she was talking about Hayden.
“So you don’t think Claire should give you a second chance?”
I sighed. “Yes, I do.”
“I do too.” That’s all she said. I wasn’t sure if she meant that she thought Claire should give me a second chance or if she was just saying that she believed in them in general.
I was tired of talking about me, of thinking about my problems. I needed a break from them. “How is Nate? What’s going on there? Have you told him you’re madly in love with him?”
“Am I? Madly in love with him, I mean? I’m not sure that I am. That would be the only kind of love that would make me want to tell him at this point. The kind that would drive me to do something crazy like that. The mad kind.”
“Why is it crazy to tell him?”
“Because he’s a great friend. I don’t want to make that weird. You know?”
“Yeah, I know. Losing friends is the worst.”
“Hayden’s a mess, Gia.”
I groaned. We had changed the subject. She wasn’t allowed to change it back.