The Gathering
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“Are you done?” he asked, voice as frosty as his eyes.
“No, I haven’t even begun. I was planning to talk to you later, offer to take Annie to lunch, let her meet people, but obviously that’s not going to work, so I’ll move straight to step two. Talk to my parents.”
I walked away before I could see his reaction.
He called after me, “How old am I, Maya?”
I turned. “How the hell should I know? Whatever you’ve told the school, I’m sure it’s a lie anyway.”
“I’m sixteen, just like you. Or like you will be tomorrow, from what I heard. My birthday was last month.”
“Congratulations.” I started walking again. “I’ll send you a card next year, if you hang around that long, which I doubt.”
“You don’t need to doubt it. I’ll be leaving for sure if you tell anyone about Annie.”
I wheeled. “Are you threatening to take her—?”
“Legally, I can’t take her anywhere. I’m sixteen, Maya. Barely sixteen. She’s nineteen. Who’s the guardian here?”
I paused, then said, softly, “Oh.”
“Yeah, oh. Annie and I never knew our dad. Our mom died last year when Annie was eighteen. Before the accident. So she got custody of me.”
“Accident? It’s brain damage?”
The look in Rafe’s eyes, the grief … It hurt just to see it, and he turned away fast, mumbling, “Yeah. It’s brain damage. Point is that if anyone finds out, I’m off to a foster home and she’s off to an institution. Which neither of us wants.”
I stepped toward him. “I’m sorry. I just …” Jumped to conclusions. Big surprise. “I’m sorry.”
He turned back and ran his hand through his hair. “Yeah, well, I know it looked bad. It is bad. I definitely don’t want her living like this. The school thinks I’m seventeen, with my birthday early next year, so at worst, we’d have to wait that long.”
I didn’t know what to say to that. It was like when he admitted why he pretended to smoke—his honesty threw me. This time, though, he didn’t seem to be trying to win points, which threw me all the more.
He was trusting me with things I hadn’t earned his trust for, which only made me realize he didn’t have anyone he could trust with stuff like that, not in Salmon Creek, and I felt bad for him, which I was sure he wouldn’t want.…
“I meant what I said,” I said finally, “about spending time with Annie. Not in town obviously, but maybe we can go for a walk or whatever. She said she likes the forest. I could show her stuff.”
“She’d like that.” He looked over at me. “Thanks.”
My cheeks heated. I looked away and mumbled, “Sure.” Then I asked, “Are you coming to the party tomorrow?” because it was, at the moment, the only change of subject I could come up with.
“Daniel’s party?” Rafe looked confused, as if he couldn’t imagine why I’d think he was going to the party of a guy who obviously didn’t like him.
“Well, it’s at Daniel’s place, but it’s really—”
“Your birthday party. I know.” He kept giving me that look, and I didn’t blame him—I was as unlikely to invite him as Daniel was.
“Everyone goes,” I said. “The whole class.”
“Yeah, I know. Hayley asked if I was going, but I kind of figured that didn’t exactly count as an invitation. Unless I went with her, which I’d really rather not.”
I had to laugh at his expression. “Don’t blame you. But you can now consider yourself officially invited by the birthday girl. It’s an easier way to meet people than hanging out at the smoking pit. Healthier, too.”
That got a smile from him. Not that lazy grin I’d seen so often, but something as different from his usual self as that ice-cold anger I’d seen him show to Sam and, later, to me. A crooked smile. Hesitant. Not quite shy, but close enough to do more to my insides than that sexy one he tossed around so casually. When I felt that, I felt a faint pang of panic, too—something in my gut that said falling for Rafe Martinez was a bad idea. When he said, “I’ll see,” in a tone that said he wasn’t likely to show up, I was relieved.
“It depends on Annie,” he said. “It’s Saturday, so she’ll expect me to stick around.”
“Understandable,” I said. “Have a good weekend, then, and I’ll see you Monday.”
I hurried off before he could reply.
TEN
“SO, NO TATTOO YET,” I said as I sat on the rock, legs dangling over the edge. “Mom wants to take me to Vancouver for the weekend but …”
That was our plan. I don’t want to do it without you.
I couldn’t say that, not even sitting here alone, talking to the lake, pretending Serena was still here, still swimming, still singing, forever swimming and singing.
I hardly ever came to the lake anymore. When I did, it was to talk to her, which seems weird, since this is the place she died. But it was the place she loved best, too, and if I sat very still and closed my eyes, I could hear her laughing, hear her singing.
Her voice haunted this place even more than her memory, and usually I couldn’t take the reminder. But this was a special day, my sixteenth birthday, when we should have been in Vancouver, getting tattoos and bugging my mom to let us drive the car, then sneaking out at night to flirt with college guys.
“Mom still feels bad about what happened at the tattoo place,” I said. “I wish she wouldn’t. I just want to forget it.” I hugged my knees to my chest. “That’s weird, isn’t it? That it’s bugging me. Since when do I care what other people think? I do, I guess. But you always knew that.”
I shifted again, the rock cold under me. “It’s like this splinter that won’t come out, and I keep picking at it and it only gets worse. Then there are the dreams. I had them last night again. I don’t want to tell Mom and Dad, because they’ll hike me back to Dr. Fodor, and he’ll say it’s post-traumatic stress, that seeing Daniel with that cougar brought it on again. What’s the point of talking to a therapist if I know what he’ll say?”
I caught a faint whiff of smoke on the breeze. Campers? I’d have to mention that to Dad so he could find and warn them.
The distraction helped and I stretched out again, reclining on the rock as the sun reappeared.
“I got my birthday presents this morning,” I continued. “Mom did a blueprint for a tree house for Fitz.” I smiled, imagining her laugh. “Seriously. It’s got this set of ramps, so he can climb up, then walk down. Only problem will be building it. We’ll need to wait for Walter to come back next spring.” Walter was Dad’s seasonal helper and the town carpenter.
“Dad’s taking me into town this week to get my learner’s permit. He says he’s due for a new Jeep next year, so when I get my novice, he’s going to buy the old one from the St. Clouds, which means I’ll be able to drive Daniel to school. He’ll love that, won’t he?”
I laughed, but it trailed off into silence. After a moment, I said, “He’s doing well. Daniel. He got back on track—” Faster than I did, I was going to say, then realized that didn’t sound good. Serena wouldn’t want him moping around, but she wouldn’t want to think he’d forgotten her already, so I said, “He’s still not dating. I think he should try but …” I shrugged. “He will when he’s ready.”
I flipped onto my stomach and looked down at the still water. “Speaking of Daniel and my birthday, he’s up to something. I texted him this morning, asking if he wanted me to come over and help get the place ready, and he said no, it was under control.” I imagined her answer and laughed. “Yeah, definitely up to something if he’s turning down cleaning help. Better not be pranking me, because he knows I’ll give as good as I get and—”
“Maya?”
I scrambled up as a figure appeared at the edge of the woods. Nicole. I waved and she stepped through into the clearing, gym bag slung over her arm.
“Please don’t tell me you’re going swimming today,” I said.
She blushed. “I know, I practice too much.”
“Um, no. I mean swimming … in a lake … in October.”
“It’s not that cold. And the pool we’re going to next month is always freezing, so I thought it’d be good for me. But now that you mention it …” She gazed out over the lake and shivered.
“Uh-huh,” I said, and we both laughed.
“I heard you talking,” she said as she came closer. “Who’s up there—?”
She stopped as she realized I was alone. Then she looked at the lake and her cheeks colored. “Oh. I-I’m sorry. I’ll just, um … I’ll see you tonight.”
“Hold up,” I said as I scrambled off the rock. “I was just leaving. My mom will have lunch ready soon. Join us. There’s always lots.”
I caught up and we walked in awkward silence for a minute before she said, “Daniel asked me to the party this morning.”
When I glanced over, she blushed again. “I mean, obviously, I was invited. But he called to make sure I was coming, and I thought maybe he wanted help, but he said he was with the guys today, so I thought, you know, he was just making sure or something.” Another bright flush. “It probably doesn’t mean anything, but it was nice.”
I nodded. “He said he might ask you.”
Her face glowed, and I felt a little guilty. Mom says I shouldn’t play matchmaker. If it’s going to happen, it’s going to happen. But if I can help make things happen—whether it’s getting a couple together or organizing a fund-raiser or being captain of the track team—then I don’t see the point in sitting back and doing nothing.
I thought Nicole would be a good fit for Daniel. Not a love-of-his-life match, but someone who could help him get back into dating, someone who really liked him and would be happy just to hang out with him, take things at his pace, understand if it didn’t work out.
“I hear you invited someone, too,” she said.
“Huh?”
She grinned and elbowed me. “Forgotten already? I met Rafe in the store last night and asked if he was going tonight, and he said that you invited him.”
I opened my mouth to say it wasn’t like that, then shut it. If Rafe said I invited him, then he wasn’t lying. No more than I’d been when I said Daniel had considered asking Nicole. It just wasn’t the way it sounded.
“I told Daniel about it when he called,” Nicole said. “I was just going to razz him about it, but he seemed surprised.”
That was putting it mildly, I was sure. I should have mentioned it—I just hadn’t figured Rafe would take me up on the offer. He probably still wouldn’t, but I should have told Daniel anyway.
“Daniel’s fine with it,” she continued. “You know how he is. If you’re cool with it, he is, too.” She kicked a tree branch off the path. “Anyway, Rafe’s not so bad. Hayley doesn’t think so anyway. She—Oh.”
When she hesitated, I said, “What is it?”
“Just, well, if you’re going with Rafe, and Hayley finds out I knew about it …” A deep breath. “I’ll have to tell her. She’ll be really mad if I don’t.” Another pause. “And she’ll be really mad if I say you invited him.”
“Which has nothing to do with you.”
“I know but … maybe I just won’t tell her.”
Fair or not, Hayley would take it out on Nicole. If any of the kids had a problem with small town life, it was Hayley. You can’t be a convincing mean girl without an entourage. Stuck with a meager selection, she’d decided to convert Nicole. I hated how she treated her—best friends one day, ordering her around the next. Nicole didn’t seem to like it either, but with Serena gone, I guess she’d decided Hayley would have to do, since I didn’t seem to be interested.
I looked out at the lake. I could use a girlfriend. A real one I could talk to, not just someone to hang out with. How could I push Daniel to replace Serena in his life when I wasn’t ready to?
When would I be ready to?
I didn’t know. Just not yet.
Nicole came to my place for lunch, then we hung out, but it was awkward. I was used to being with her as part of a group, and it wasn’t long before she “remembered” a singing lesson, and I spent the rest of the afternoon with my animals.
When Dad took me to the party that evening, I still hadn’t shaken my mood. If anything, it’d gotten worse. I couldn’t stop thinking about Serena. Couldn’t stop thinking this was my second birthday without her. The first party, though. She’d died at the end of August and even by October, I hadn’t been ready for a party without her. Now I realized I still wasn’t.
We were halfway down the wooded road to Daniel’s place when Dad pulled over to the side.
“You don’t look like a girl heading to her sixteenth birthday party,” he said.
“It’ll pass. I’m just …”
“Serena?”
I nodded. My eyes filled and I pushed my palms against them. “Great. I knew I should have bought the waterproof mascara.”
Dad pressed a tissue into my hand. I carefully wiped my eyes, then flipped down the visor mirror.
“You look beautiful,” he said.
“You’re parentally obligated to say that.”