“Le cœur a ses raisons que la raison ne connaît point,” Kingsley said.
“What was that?”
“I said, yes, I really like this girl. Call it destiny.”
“Let’s hope my wife doesn’t find out about you and your little destiny. She likes you.”
“Let’s hope your wife doesn’t find out about a lot things,” Kingsley said with a smile. “I’ll send someone to your house later. Or maybe I’ll just drop it off next time I’m there.”
“You son of a bitch.”
“My mother was a saint,” Kingsley said. “I’m the only bitch in the family.”
He patted Dixon on the shoulder and walked past him. As soon as he was out of the front door, he stopped, leaned back against a brick wall and closed his eyes. He breathed for ten whole seconds as the tension left his body. These pissing contests never got easier. Dixon was stupid and powerful, and it was a terrifying combination in an enemy. Why did he even have enemies anymore? Wasn’t he supposed to be retired? Isn’t that why he’d left France, left the job, taken the money and run?
Then again, he was only twenty-eight. Who retired at twenty-eight? And if he wasn’t making trouble for someone, then what was the point of getting out of bed in the morning?
Kingsley rubbed his forehead, felt the weariness in his bones. He needed a better reason for getting out of bed in the morning.
Kingsley walked four blocks and found a pay phone.
“It’s me,” Kingsley said when Søren answered. He spoke in French. No need for names.
“What’s the verdict?” Søren asked.
“She’ll get community service. Good enough?”
He heard a pause on the other end, and Kingsley lived and died in that pause. Just like old times.
“Thank you,” Søren said. “That is more than I’d dared to hope for.”
“Let me ask you something. If I hadn’t been able to help your little girl, what would you have done? What was Plan B?”
“I think she and my mother would get along quite well.”
Kingsley shook his head and laughed to himself. “I’m glad I could save you from the necessity of kidnapping a minor and transporting her across international borders.”
“Kidnapping is such a strong word. I prefer the term rescuing.”
“You really love her.”
“You will, too.”
“What’s so special about this girl you’re willing to commit felonies on her behalf?”
“Truth?”
“Truth,” Kingsley said.
“She reminds me of you.”
“That’s why you love her?” Kingsley asked, hoping the answer was “yes” but knowing it wasn’t.
“That’s why I’m trying to help her.”
Kingsley heard the pointed note in Søren’s words.
“I don’t need help,” Kingsley said.
“Are you certain of that?”
“Yes,” Kingsley said, and hung up the phone.
As he walked away, he had a fleeting thought.
What was the penance for lying to a priest?
7
April
“HIT ME,” KINGSLEY said as he tapped the table.
“I’m not going to hit you,” Søren said.
“You have to do what I say. And I say hit me.”
Søren glared at him. Kingsley glared back.
“You have an ace and an eight,” Søren said.
“Which means I have nine or nineteen. I’m calling it nine. Hit me.”
“You want another card because you want to say ‘hit me’ to me as many times as possible tonight.”
“I’m not disagreeing with that.” Kingsley tapped the table again. “Hit me.”
Søren gave Kingsley another card—a second ace. Now he had twenty or ten, depending on how he wanted to play it. He and Søren weren’t playing blackjack for money, so he didn’t care much if he won or not. In fact, he didn’t care at all. But he couldn’t deny the fact he was enjoying himself. Kingsley needed time to stop and stop completely. He hadn’t felt this... He couldn’t even find the right word. He hadn’t felt this something in years. Whatever it was, he didn’t want to lose it, and he’d found it the instant Søren had stepped through his front door.
“Kingsley?”
“I’m thinking.”
“You have twenty. You should stand.”
“I’m not going to take the strategy advice of my enemy.”
“I’m the dealer, not the enemy.”
“When did you start playing blackjack anyway?” Kingsley demanded as he perused his cards again. One more ace and he’d have blackjack. “Do they teach this in seminary?”
“Cards were an extracurricular activity. An entire household full of men who aren’t allowed to have sex? We find other hobbies.”
“So, blackjack?”
“Among other things.”
Kingsley gave him a searching look.
“Care to tell me what these other hobbies of yours are?” Kingsley asked.
“They’re on a need-to-know basis. You don’t need to know,” Søren said, fanning the cards in front of him.
“I need to know everything,” Kingsley said. “If I’m going to keep you from getting excommunicated or going to prison for seducing and/or kidnapping a teenage girl—”
“What was that?”
“I said, yes, I really like this girl. Call it destiny.”
“Let’s hope my wife doesn’t find out about you and your little destiny. She likes you.”
“Let’s hope your wife doesn’t find out about a lot things,” Kingsley said with a smile. “I’ll send someone to your house later. Or maybe I’ll just drop it off next time I’m there.”
“You son of a bitch.”
“My mother was a saint,” Kingsley said. “I’m the only bitch in the family.”
He patted Dixon on the shoulder and walked past him. As soon as he was out of the front door, he stopped, leaned back against a brick wall and closed his eyes. He breathed for ten whole seconds as the tension left his body. These pissing contests never got easier. Dixon was stupid and powerful, and it was a terrifying combination in an enemy. Why did he even have enemies anymore? Wasn’t he supposed to be retired? Isn’t that why he’d left France, left the job, taken the money and run?
Then again, he was only twenty-eight. Who retired at twenty-eight? And if he wasn’t making trouble for someone, then what was the point of getting out of bed in the morning?
Kingsley rubbed his forehead, felt the weariness in his bones. He needed a better reason for getting out of bed in the morning.
Kingsley walked four blocks and found a pay phone.
“It’s me,” Kingsley said when Søren answered. He spoke in French. No need for names.
“What’s the verdict?” Søren asked.
“She’ll get community service. Good enough?”
He heard a pause on the other end, and Kingsley lived and died in that pause. Just like old times.
“Thank you,” Søren said. “That is more than I’d dared to hope for.”
“Let me ask you something. If I hadn’t been able to help your little girl, what would you have done? What was Plan B?”
“I think she and my mother would get along quite well.”
Kingsley shook his head and laughed to himself. “I’m glad I could save you from the necessity of kidnapping a minor and transporting her across international borders.”
“Kidnapping is such a strong word. I prefer the term rescuing.”
“You really love her.”
“You will, too.”
“What’s so special about this girl you’re willing to commit felonies on her behalf?”
“Truth?”
“Truth,” Kingsley said.
“She reminds me of you.”
“That’s why you love her?” Kingsley asked, hoping the answer was “yes” but knowing it wasn’t.
“That’s why I’m trying to help her.”
Kingsley heard the pointed note in Søren’s words.
“I don’t need help,” Kingsley said.
“Are you certain of that?”
“Yes,” Kingsley said, and hung up the phone.
As he walked away, he had a fleeting thought.
What was the penance for lying to a priest?
7
April
“HIT ME,” KINGSLEY said as he tapped the table.
“I’m not going to hit you,” Søren said.
“You have to do what I say. And I say hit me.”
Søren glared at him. Kingsley glared back.
“You have an ace and an eight,” Søren said.
“Which means I have nine or nineteen. I’m calling it nine. Hit me.”
“You want another card because you want to say ‘hit me’ to me as many times as possible tonight.”
“I’m not disagreeing with that.” Kingsley tapped the table again. “Hit me.”
Søren gave Kingsley another card—a second ace. Now he had twenty or ten, depending on how he wanted to play it. He and Søren weren’t playing blackjack for money, so he didn’t care much if he won or not. In fact, he didn’t care at all. But he couldn’t deny the fact he was enjoying himself. Kingsley needed time to stop and stop completely. He hadn’t felt this... He couldn’t even find the right word. He hadn’t felt this something in years. Whatever it was, he didn’t want to lose it, and he’d found it the instant Søren had stepped through his front door.
“Kingsley?”
“I’m thinking.”
“You have twenty. You should stand.”
“I’m not going to take the strategy advice of my enemy.”
“I’m the dealer, not the enemy.”
“When did you start playing blackjack anyway?” Kingsley demanded as he perused his cards again. One more ace and he’d have blackjack. “Do they teach this in seminary?”
“Cards were an extracurricular activity. An entire household full of men who aren’t allowed to have sex? We find other hobbies.”
“So, blackjack?”
“Among other things.”
Kingsley gave him a searching look.
“Care to tell me what these other hobbies of yours are?” Kingsley asked.
“They’re on a need-to-know basis. You don’t need to know,” Søren said, fanning the cards in front of him.
“I need to know everything,” Kingsley said. “If I’m going to keep you from getting excommunicated or going to prison for seducing and/or kidnapping a teenage girl—”
