Vorhees looked. Nothing at all, just trees and the dry brown hills beyond. "What do you think you saw?"
"I don't know. Something shiny."
"Like metal?"
"Yeah."
After a moment, Vorhees drew the binoculars away. "Well, it's not there now. Maybe it was just the sun flaring in the lenses."
"Probably that's it." Cruk took a sip of water from his bottle. "How's it going down there?"
"They'll all be asleep soon enough. A lot of the kids are down already. I don't think anybody expected it to be this hot."
"July in Texas, brother."
"Gunnar wanted to know if he could help. That boy is all heart and no sense."
Cruk took up his rifle. "What did you tell him?"
"Just you wait. Someday you'll realize how crazy you sound."
Cruk laughed. "And yet we were the same. Couldn't wait to get out into the world."
"Maybe you couldn't."
Cruk fell silent, gazing out over the rail. Vorhees sensed that something was troubling his friend.
"Listen," Cruk began, "I made a decision, and I wanted you to hear it from me. You know there's talk about the Expeditionary getting back together."
Vorhees had heard these rumors, too. It was nothing new; rumors circulated all the time. Since Coffee and his men had disappeared-how many years ago?-the subject had never really died completely.
"People are always saying that."
"This time it's not just talk. The military's taking volunteers from the DS, looking to build a unit of two hundred men."
Vorhees searched his friend's face. What was he telling him? "Cruk, you can't be seriously thinking about it. That was all kid stuff."
Cruk shrugged. "Maybe it was, back then. And I know how you feel about it, after what happened to Boz. But look at my life, Vor. I never married. I don't have a family of my own. What was I waiting for?"
The meaning sank in all at once. "Jesus. You already signed on, didn't you?"
Cruk nodded. "I turned in my resignation from the DS yesterday. It won't be official until I take the oath, though."
Vorhees felt stunned.
"Look, don't tell Dee," Cruk pressed. "I want to do it."
"She'll take it hard."
"I know. That's why I'm telling you first."
The conversation was broken by the sound of a pickup coming down the service road. It drew into the staging area and pulled up to the shelter; Tifty climbed out. He stepped to the rear of the truck and drew down the tailgate.
"Now, what's he got?"
They were watermelons. Everyone crowded around; Tifty began to carve them up, passing fat, dripping wedges to the children. Watermelons! What a treat, on a day like this!
"For Christ's sake," Vorhees groaned, watching the performance. "Where the hell would he get those?"
"Where does Tifty get anything? You got to hand it to the guy, though. He's not going to die friendless."
"Did I say that?"
Cruk looked at him. "You don't have to like him, Vor. That's not for me to say. But he's trying. You've got to give him that."
The door to the stairs opened. Dee stepped out, carrying two plates, each bearing a pink wedge of melon.
"Tifty brought-"
"Thanks. We saw."
Her face fell with an expression Vorhees knew too well. Let it go. Please, just for today. They're only watermelons.
Cruk took the plates from her. "Thanks, Dee. That'll really hit the spot. Tell Tifty thanks."
She glanced at Vorhees, then returned her eyes to her brother. "I'll do that."
Vorhees knew he looked like a resentful fool, just as he knew that if he didn't say something, change the subject, he'd carry this sour feeling inside him for the rest of the day.
"How are the kids?"
Dee shrugged. "Siri's out like a light. Nit's gone off with Ali and some of the others. They're picking wildflowers." She paused to wipe her brow with the back of her wrist. "Are you really going back out there? I don't know how you stand it. Maybe you should wait until the sun's a little lower."
"There's too much to do. You don't have to worry about me."
She regarded him for another moment. "Well, like I said. Anything else I can bring you, Cruk?"
"Not a thing, thanks."
"I'll leave you to it then."
When Dee was gone, Cruk held out one of the plates. But Vorhees shook his head.
"I'll pass, thanks."
The big man shrugged. He was already wolfing down his slice, rivers of juice running down his chin. When all that remained was the rind, he gestured toward the second plate, resting on the parapet. "You mind?"
Vorhees shrugged in reply. Cruk finished off the second slice, wiped his face on his sleeve, and tossed the rinds over the side.
"You should tell Dee soon," Vorhees said.
Three o'clock, the day draining away. A faint breeze had picked up late in the morning, but now the air had stilled again. Under the tarp, Dee was playing a halfhearted game of roundabout with Cece Cauley, little Louis resting at their feet in his basket. A plump, good-natured baby, fat fingers and fat toes and a soft, pursed mouth: despite the heat, he had barely fussed all day and now was sound asleep.
Dee remembered those days, baby days. Their distinctive sensations, the sounds and smells, and the feeling of profound physical attachment, as if you and the baby were a single being. Many women complained about it-I can't get a moment to myself, I can't wait until she's walking!-but Dee never had; just thirty, she would have gladly had another, maybe even two. It would be nice, she thought, to have a son. But the rules were clear. Two and done, was the saying. The governor's office was discussing an extension of the walls, and maybe then the ban would be lifted. But probably that would come too late, and until then, there was only so much food and fuel and space to go around.
And Vor-well, what could she do? Boz's death was an intractable barrier in the man's mind, the truth distorted and enlarged over the years until it was the singular injury of his life. Tifty was Tifty, he always would be. One day he was being tossed into the stockade for putting a man's head through a window in a barroom brawl, the next he was producing, through a kind of Tifty magic, a truck of black-market watermelons on a scorching summer afternoon. Probably it was just a matter of time before he ended up in the stockade for good. Yet there was no denying it: Tifty would always be a part of them, and Dee most of all. There were times when Dee looked at her older daughter and honestly didn't know what the truth was. It could be one thing, or it could be the other. In a certain light Nitia was all Vor, but then the little girl would smile in a particular way or do that squinty thing with her eyes and there was Tifty Lamont.
A single night, not even. The whole thing, the entirety of their affair, had been more like ninety minutes, start to finish. How was it possible for ninety minutes to make so much difference in a life? Dee and Tifty had agreed in the aftermath that it had been a terrible mistake-inevitable, perhaps, a force of years that neither could refuse, but nothing to repeat. They both loved Vor, did they not? They'd made a big joke of it, even shaking hands to seal the deal like the two old friends they were, though of course it wasn't a joke at all: not at the time and not nine months later; it wasn't a joke now.
I will never let any harm come to you, Tifty had told her, not just that night but many times, many nights. Not you or the girls or Vor. Whatever else is true, that's my solemn promise, my vow before God. I'll be the ground beneath your feet. Always know I'm there. And Dee did; she knew. If she allowed herself to admit it, it was only because Tifty had agreed to accompany them that the idea of today, of a summer picnic in the field, had come about at all.
Did Dee love him? And if she did, what kind of love was it? Her feelings for Tifty were different from her feelings for Vor. Vor was steady, reliable. A creature of duty and endurance, and a good father to the girls. Solid where Tifty was vaporous, a man composed of rumor as much as actual fact. And there was no question that she and Vor belonged together; that had never been an issue. Alone in the dark, in private moments together, he spoke her name with such longing it was almost like pain; that's how much Vor loved her. He made her feel ... what? More real. As if she, Dee Vorhees-wife and mother; daughter of Sis and Jedediah Crukshank, gone to God; citizen of Kerrville, Texas, last oasis of light and safety in a world that knew none-actually existed.
So why should she find herself, once again, thinking of Tifty Lamont?
But the cards, and this hot-hot-hot afternoon in July, when they had brought the children to the field. Dee's mind had wandered so badly, she hadn't realized what Cece was doing. Before she knew it, the woman, grinning with victory, had successfully maneuvered her into taking the queen. Two tricks, three, and it was over. Cece gleefully jotted the tally on a pad.
"Another?"
Ordinarily Dee would have said yes, if only to occupy the hours, but in the heat the game had begun to feel like work.
"Maybe Ali wants to play."
The woman, who had come back into the tent for water, waved the offer away, the ladle poised at her lips. "Not a chance."
"C'mon, just a couple of hands," Cece said. "I'm on a hot streak."
Dee rose from the table. "I better go see what the girls are up to."
She stepped away from the shelter. In the distance, she could see the tops of the cornstalks quivering where the men were working. She angled her face toward the tower's apex, positioning a hand over her eyes against the glare. A ghostly moon, daytime white, was hovering near the sun. Well, that was strange. She hadn't noticed that before. Cruk and Tifty were both on station, Cruk with his binoculars, Tifty sweeping the field with his rifle. He caught sight of her and gave a little wave, which flustered her; it was almost as if he knew she'd been thinking about him. She waved guiltily in reply.
A group of a dozen children were playing kickball, Dash Martinez waiting at the plate. Acting as pitcher was Gunnar, who had become an unofficial babysitter over the course of the afternoon.
"Hey, Gunnar."
The boy-a man, really, at sixteen-looked toward her. "Hey, Dee. Want to play?"
"Too hot for me, thanks. Have you seen the girls anywhere?"
Gunnar glanced around. "They were here just a second ago. Want me to look?"
Dee's weariness deepened. Where could they have gone? She supposed she could climb the tower and ask Cruk to track them down with the binoculars. But the hike up the stairs, once she imagined it, seemed too effortful. Easier, on the whole, to find the girls herself.
"No, thanks. If they come back, tell them I want them out of the sun for a while."
"Gunnar, pitch the ball!" Dash cried.
"Hang on a second." Gunnar met Dee's eye. "I'm sure they're nearby. They were here, like, two seconds ago."
"That's fine. I'll find them myself."
The wildflower field, she thought; probably that's where they had gone. She felt more irritated than concerned. They weren't supposed to wander off without telling anyone. Probably it had been Nit's idea. The girl was always into something.
They had five minutes left.
From the observation deck, Tifty watched Dee walk away.
"Cruk, pass me the binoculars."
Cruk handed them over. The wildflower field was located on the north side of the tower, adjacent to the corn. That's where she appeared to be headed. Probably she just wanted to get away for a few minutes, Tifty thought, away from the children and the other wives.
He passed the binoculars back to Cruk. He scanned the field with his rifle, then lifted the scope toward the tree line.
"The shiny thing is back."
"Where?"
"Dead ahead, ten degrees right."
Tifty peered hard into the scope: a distant rectangular shape, brilliantly reflective, through the trees.
"What the hell is that?" Cruk said. "Is it a vehicle?"
"Could be. There's a service road on the far side."
"Nothing should be out there now." Cruk drew down the binoculars. He paused a moment. "Listen."
Tifty willed his mind to clear. The creak of crickets, the breeze moving through his ears, the trickle of water through the irrigation system. Then he heard it.
"An engine?"
"That's what I hear, too," Cruk said. "Stay put."
He descended the stairs. Tifty pressed his eye to the rifle's scope. Now the image was clear: a big semi, the cargo compartment covered with some kind of galvanized metal.
He took out his walkie-talkie. "Cruk, it's a truck. Far side of the trees. Doesn't look like DS."
The line crackled. "I know. Double up."
He saw Cruk emerge from the base of the tower and stride toward the shelter, waving to Gunnar to bring the children over. Tifty dragged his scope across the field: the men working, the rows of corn, the marker flags for the hardboxes drooping in the afternoon stillness. All just as it should be.
But not exactly. Something was different. Was it his vision? He lifted his face. A blade of shadow was moving over the field.
Then he heard the siren.
He turned toward the sun; instantly he knew. It had been many years since he'd felt afraid, not since that night in the dam. But Tifty felt fear now.
One minute.
Vorhees first experienced the altering illumination as a diminishment of visual detail, a sudden dimming like premature twilight. But because he was wearing dark glasses, a defense against the rain of pollen and the afternoon brightness, his mind did not initially compute this change as anything noteworthy. It was only when he heard the shouts that he removed his glasses.
"I don't know. Something shiny."
"Like metal?"
"Yeah."
After a moment, Vorhees drew the binoculars away. "Well, it's not there now. Maybe it was just the sun flaring in the lenses."
"Probably that's it." Cruk took a sip of water from his bottle. "How's it going down there?"
"They'll all be asleep soon enough. A lot of the kids are down already. I don't think anybody expected it to be this hot."
"July in Texas, brother."
"Gunnar wanted to know if he could help. That boy is all heart and no sense."
Cruk took up his rifle. "What did you tell him?"
"Just you wait. Someday you'll realize how crazy you sound."
Cruk laughed. "And yet we were the same. Couldn't wait to get out into the world."
"Maybe you couldn't."
Cruk fell silent, gazing out over the rail. Vorhees sensed that something was troubling his friend.
"Listen," Cruk began, "I made a decision, and I wanted you to hear it from me. You know there's talk about the Expeditionary getting back together."
Vorhees had heard these rumors, too. It was nothing new; rumors circulated all the time. Since Coffee and his men had disappeared-how many years ago?-the subject had never really died completely.
"People are always saying that."
"This time it's not just talk. The military's taking volunteers from the DS, looking to build a unit of two hundred men."
Vorhees searched his friend's face. What was he telling him? "Cruk, you can't be seriously thinking about it. That was all kid stuff."
Cruk shrugged. "Maybe it was, back then. And I know how you feel about it, after what happened to Boz. But look at my life, Vor. I never married. I don't have a family of my own. What was I waiting for?"
The meaning sank in all at once. "Jesus. You already signed on, didn't you?"
Cruk nodded. "I turned in my resignation from the DS yesterday. It won't be official until I take the oath, though."
Vorhees felt stunned.
"Look, don't tell Dee," Cruk pressed. "I want to do it."
"She'll take it hard."
"I know. That's why I'm telling you first."
The conversation was broken by the sound of a pickup coming down the service road. It drew into the staging area and pulled up to the shelter; Tifty climbed out. He stepped to the rear of the truck and drew down the tailgate.
"Now, what's he got?"
They were watermelons. Everyone crowded around; Tifty began to carve them up, passing fat, dripping wedges to the children. Watermelons! What a treat, on a day like this!
"For Christ's sake," Vorhees groaned, watching the performance. "Where the hell would he get those?"
"Where does Tifty get anything? You got to hand it to the guy, though. He's not going to die friendless."
"Did I say that?"
Cruk looked at him. "You don't have to like him, Vor. That's not for me to say. But he's trying. You've got to give him that."
The door to the stairs opened. Dee stepped out, carrying two plates, each bearing a pink wedge of melon.
"Tifty brought-"
"Thanks. We saw."
Her face fell with an expression Vorhees knew too well. Let it go. Please, just for today. They're only watermelons.
Cruk took the plates from her. "Thanks, Dee. That'll really hit the spot. Tell Tifty thanks."
She glanced at Vorhees, then returned her eyes to her brother. "I'll do that."
Vorhees knew he looked like a resentful fool, just as he knew that if he didn't say something, change the subject, he'd carry this sour feeling inside him for the rest of the day.
"How are the kids?"
Dee shrugged. "Siri's out like a light. Nit's gone off with Ali and some of the others. They're picking wildflowers." She paused to wipe her brow with the back of her wrist. "Are you really going back out there? I don't know how you stand it. Maybe you should wait until the sun's a little lower."
"There's too much to do. You don't have to worry about me."
She regarded him for another moment. "Well, like I said. Anything else I can bring you, Cruk?"
"Not a thing, thanks."
"I'll leave you to it then."
When Dee was gone, Cruk held out one of the plates. But Vorhees shook his head.
"I'll pass, thanks."
The big man shrugged. He was already wolfing down his slice, rivers of juice running down his chin. When all that remained was the rind, he gestured toward the second plate, resting on the parapet. "You mind?"
Vorhees shrugged in reply. Cruk finished off the second slice, wiped his face on his sleeve, and tossed the rinds over the side.
"You should tell Dee soon," Vorhees said.
Three o'clock, the day draining away. A faint breeze had picked up late in the morning, but now the air had stilled again. Under the tarp, Dee was playing a halfhearted game of roundabout with Cece Cauley, little Louis resting at their feet in his basket. A plump, good-natured baby, fat fingers and fat toes and a soft, pursed mouth: despite the heat, he had barely fussed all day and now was sound asleep.
Dee remembered those days, baby days. Their distinctive sensations, the sounds and smells, and the feeling of profound physical attachment, as if you and the baby were a single being. Many women complained about it-I can't get a moment to myself, I can't wait until she's walking!-but Dee never had; just thirty, she would have gladly had another, maybe even two. It would be nice, she thought, to have a son. But the rules were clear. Two and done, was the saying. The governor's office was discussing an extension of the walls, and maybe then the ban would be lifted. But probably that would come too late, and until then, there was only so much food and fuel and space to go around.
And Vor-well, what could she do? Boz's death was an intractable barrier in the man's mind, the truth distorted and enlarged over the years until it was the singular injury of his life. Tifty was Tifty, he always would be. One day he was being tossed into the stockade for putting a man's head through a window in a barroom brawl, the next he was producing, through a kind of Tifty magic, a truck of black-market watermelons on a scorching summer afternoon. Probably it was just a matter of time before he ended up in the stockade for good. Yet there was no denying it: Tifty would always be a part of them, and Dee most of all. There were times when Dee looked at her older daughter and honestly didn't know what the truth was. It could be one thing, or it could be the other. In a certain light Nitia was all Vor, but then the little girl would smile in a particular way or do that squinty thing with her eyes and there was Tifty Lamont.
A single night, not even. The whole thing, the entirety of their affair, had been more like ninety minutes, start to finish. How was it possible for ninety minutes to make so much difference in a life? Dee and Tifty had agreed in the aftermath that it had been a terrible mistake-inevitable, perhaps, a force of years that neither could refuse, but nothing to repeat. They both loved Vor, did they not? They'd made a big joke of it, even shaking hands to seal the deal like the two old friends they were, though of course it wasn't a joke at all: not at the time and not nine months later; it wasn't a joke now.
I will never let any harm come to you, Tifty had told her, not just that night but many times, many nights. Not you or the girls or Vor. Whatever else is true, that's my solemn promise, my vow before God. I'll be the ground beneath your feet. Always know I'm there. And Dee did; she knew. If she allowed herself to admit it, it was only because Tifty had agreed to accompany them that the idea of today, of a summer picnic in the field, had come about at all.
Did Dee love him? And if she did, what kind of love was it? Her feelings for Tifty were different from her feelings for Vor. Vor was steady, reliable. A creature of duty and endurance, and a good father to the girls. Solid where Tifty was vaporous, a man composed of rumor as much as actual fact. And there was no question that she and Vor belonged together; that had never been an issue. Alone in the dark, in private moments together, he spoke her name with such longing it was almost like pain; that's how much Vor loved her. He made her feel ... what? More real. As if she, Dee Vorhees-wife and mother; daughter of Sis and Jedediah Crukshank, gone to God; citizen of Kerrville, Texas, last oasis of light and safety in a world that knew none-actually existed.
So why should she find herself, once again, thinking of Tifty Lamont?
But the cards, and this hot-hot-hot afternoon in July, when they had brought the children to the field. Dee's mind had wandered so badly, she hadn't realized what Cece was doing. Before she knew it, the woman, grinning with victory, had successfully maneuvered her into taking the queen. Two tricks, three, and it was over. Cece gleefully jotted the tally on a pad.
"Another?"
Ordinarily Dee would have said yes, if only to occupy the hours, but in the heat the game had begun to feel like work.
"Maybe Ali wants to play."
The woman, who had come back into the tent for water, waved the offer away, the ladle poised at her lips. "Not a chance."
"C'mon, just a couple of hands," Cece said. "I'm on a hot streak."
Dee rose from the table. "I better go see what the girls are up to."
She stepped away from the shelter. In the distance, she could see the tops of the cornstalks quivering where the men were working. She angled her face toward the tower's apex, positioning a hand over her eyes against the glare. A ghostly moon, daytime white, was hovering near the sun. Well, that was strange. She hadn't noticed that before. Cruk and Tifty were both on station, Cruk with his binoculars, Tifty sweeping the field with his rifle. He caught sight of her and gave a little wave, which flustered her; it was almost as if he knew she'd been thinking about him. She waved guiltily in reply.
A group of a dozen children were playing kickball, Dash Martinez waiting at the plate. Acting as pitcher was Gunnar, who had become an unofficial babysitter over the course of the afternoon.
"Hey, Gunnar."
The boy-a man, really, at sixteen-looked toward her. "Hey, Dee. Want to play?"
"Too hot for me, thanks. Have you seen the girls anywhere?"
Gunnar glanced around. "They were here just a second ago. Want me to look?"
Dee's weariness deepened. Where could they have gone? She supposed she could climb the tower and ask Cruk to track them down with the binoculars. But the hike up the stairs, once she imagined it, seemed too effortful. Easier, on the whole, to find the girls herself.
"No, thanks. If they come back, tell them I want them out of the sun for a while."
"Gunnar, pitch the ball!" Dash cried.
"Hang on a second." Gunnar met Dee's eye. "I'm sure they're nearby. They were here, like, two seconds ago."
"That's fine. I'll find them myself."
The wildflower field, she thought; probably that's where they had gone. She felt more irritated than concerned. They weren't supposed to wander off without telling anyone. Probably it had been Nit's idea. The girl was always into something.
They had five minutes left.
From the observation deck, Tifty watched Dee walk away.
"Cruk, pass me the binoculars."
Cruk handed them over. The wildflower field was located on the north side of the tower, adjacent to the corn. That's where she appeared to be headed. Probably she just wanted to get away for a few minutes, Tifty thought, away from the children and the other wives.
He passed the binoculars back to Cruk. He scanned the field with his rifle, then lifted the scope toward the tree line.
"The shiny thing is back."
"Where?"
"Dead ahead, ten degrees right."
Tifty peered hard into the scope: a distant rectangular shape, brilliantly reflective, through the trees.
"What the hell is that?" Cruk said. "Is it a vehicle?"
"Could be. There's a service road on the far side."
"Nothing should be out there now." Cruk drew down the binoculars. He paused a moment. "Listen."
Tifty willed his mind to clear. The creak of crickets, the breeze moving through his ears, the trickle of water through the irrigation system. Then he heard it.
"An engine?"
"That's what I hear, too," Cruk said. "Stay put."
He descended the stairs. Tifty pressed his eye to the rifle's scope. Now the image was clear: a big semi, the cargo compartment covered with some kind of galvanized metal.
He took out his walkie-talkie. "Cruk, it's a truck. Far side of the trees. Doesn't look like DS."
The line crackled. "I know. Double up."
He saw Cruk emerge from the base of the tower and stride toward the shelter, waving to Gunnar to bring the children over. Tifty dragged his scope across the field: the men working, the rows of corn, the marker flags for the hardboxes drooping in the afternoon stillness. All just as it should be.
But not exactly. Something was different. Was it his vision? He lifted his face. A blade of shadow was moving over the field.
Then he heard the siren.
He turned toward the sun; instantly he knew. It had been many years since he'd felt afraid, not since that night in the dam. But Tifty felt fear now.
One minute.
Vorhees first experienced the altering illumination as a diminishment of visual detail, a sudden dimming like premature twilight. But because he was wearing dark glasses, a defense against the rain of pollen and the afternoon brightness, his mind did not initially compute this change as anything noteworthy. It was only when he heard the shouts that he removed his glasses.
