Kate nodded, enthralled.
"Now, the king and queen, Elizabeth's parents, had never stopped looking for her. They'd combed every inch of the forest, and all the lands of the kingdom besides. But the tree was very well hidden. Then one day they heard a rumor about a little girl living in the forest with the fairies. Could that be our daughter? they wondered. And they did the only thing they could think of. They ordered the royal woodsmen to cut down all the trees until they found the one with Elizabeth inside it."
"All of them?"
Peter nodded. "Every last one. Which was not a good idea. The woods were home not only to the fairies but to all kinds of animals and birds. But Elizabeth's parents were so desperate, they would have done anything to get their daughter back. So the woodsmen got to work, chopping down the forest, while the king and queen rode out on their horses, calling her name. 'Elizabeth! Elizabeth! Where are you?' And you know what happened?"
"She heard them?"
"Yes, she did. Only the name Elizabeth didn't mean anything to her anymore. She had a fairy name now, and had forgotten everything about her life. But the fairy queen knew what she was hearing, and she felt pretty awful about it. How could I have done this terrible thing? she thought. How could I have taken Elizabeth away? But still she couldn't make herself fly out of the tree to tell Elizabeth's parents where she was. She loved the girl too much, you see, to let her go. 'Be very still,' she said to Elizabeth. 'Don't make a sound.' The woodsmen were coming closer and closer. Trees were falling everywhere. All the fairies were afraid. 'Give her back,' they said to the fairy queen, 'please, give her back before they destroy the entire forest.' "
"Wow," Kate gasped.
"I know. It's a pretty scary story. Should I stop?"
"Uncle Peter, please."
He laughed. "All right, all right. So, the woodsmen came to the tree with Elizabeth and the fairies inside. It was an especially magnificent tree, tall and wide, with a big canopy of leaves. A fairy tree. But as one woodsman reared back with his axe, the king had a change of heart. The tree, you see, was just too beautiful to cut down. I'm sure the creatures of the forest care about this tree as much as I care about my daughter, he said. It wouldn't be right to take it away from them, all because I've lost something I love. Everybody, put your axes down and go home and let me and my wife mourn for our daughter, who we will never see again. It was very sad. Everybody was in tears. Elizabeth's parents, the woodsmen, even the fairy queen, who had heard every word. Because she knew that Elizabeth could never be her real daughter, no matter how hard she wished it. So she took her by the hand and led her out of the tree and said, 'Your Majesties, please forgive me. It was I who took your daughter. I wanted a little girl of my own so much that I couldn't help myself. But I know now that she belongs with you. I'm so very, very sorry.' And you know what the king and queen said?"
"Off with your head?"
Peter stifled a laugh. "Just the opposite. Despite everything that had happened, they were so happy to have their daughter back, and so moved by the fairy queen's remorse, that they decided to reward her. They issued a royal proclamation that the fairies should be left to live in peace, and that all children of the realm should have one special fairy friend. Which is why, to this day, only children can see them."
Kate was silent a moment. "So that's the end?"
"Pretty much, yeah." He felt faintly embarrassed. "I haven't really done this before. How'd I do?"
The girl considered this, then said, with a crisp nod, "I liked it. It was a good story. Tell me another."
"I'm not sure I've got another one in me. Aren't you tired yet?"
"Please, Uncle Peter."
The night was clear, the stars shining down. Everything was still, not a trace of movement or sound. Peter thought of Caleb, realizing with a power that startled him how much he missed the boy, how he longed to hold him in his arms. Alicia was right, and Tifty too. But most of all, Amy. He loves you, you know. The truth filled him like a breath of winter air. Peter would go home and learn to be a father.
"So, okay ..."
He talked and talked. He told her every story he knew. By the time he was done, Kate was yawning; her body had gone slack in his arms. He unzipped his coat and swiveled her on his lap, pulling the flaps around her.
"Are you cold, sweetheart?"
Her voice was soft, half gone. "Nuh-uh."
She nestled against him. Just another minute, Peter thought, and closed his eyes. Just another minute, and I'll take her inside. He felt Kate's warm breath on his neck; her chest moved gently against his own, rising and falling, like long waves on a beach. But a minute passed, and then another and another, and by that time Peter wasn't going anywhere, because he was fast asleep.
In the lavatory of the apothecary shop, Lucius Greer was shaving.
The day, and most of the night besides, had disappeared under an avalanche of duties. A meeting of the Council of Lodges, during which Eustace had attempted first to reexplain and then once more justify the lottery procedure for evacuation; the tallying of census data, which had revealed numerous duplicate forms, some made in error, others with deliberate intent by individuals trying to increase their odds of being chosen; a brawl outside the detention center when a group of three cols, half-starved after weeks of hiding in an unused warehouse, had attempted to turn themselves in, only to be intercepted by the small crowd that kept vigil outside the building; nine weddings over which he'd been asked to officiate when one of the JPs had taken ill (all Lucius had to do was read four sentences off a card, yet it surprised him, how weighty it felt to say them aloud); the first official gathering of the evacuation support teams, and the partitioning of their responsibilities in preparation for the first departure; and on and on. A day of one thing and then another and another; Lucius couldn't remember what or even if he'd eaten, he'd barely sat down all day, and yet here he was, past midnight, gazing at his grizzled, hirsute face in the mirror, holding a blade in one hand and a pair of scissors in the other.
He began with the scissors. Snip by snip the wild torrent of his hair and beard fell away, their white leavings gathering on the floor by his feet like drifts of feathered snow. When this was done he warmed a pot of water, soaked a rag and wrung it out, and lay it over his face to soften the bristles that remained. He smeared his cheeks with soap, harsh and chemical-smelling, then went to work with the blade: first his cheeks, then the long arc of his neck, and finally his head, working backward from brow to crown to the base of his skull in short, measured strokes. The first time he had shaved himself in this manner, the night before he'd taken the oath of the Expeditionary, he had cut himself in about twenty places. It was commonly said that you didn't need to look at the uniform to know a fresh recruit; all you had to do was look at his head. But with time and practice, Greer, like all of his fellows, had gotten the knack, and it pleased him to discover that he hadn't lost his touch. He could have done it blindfolded in the dark if he had to, yet there was satisfaction to be had in observing a ritual that after so many years still possessed the power of a baptism. Scrape by scrape his visage was laid bare, and when the task was complete, Greer stepped back to examine his face in the mirror, running his hand over the cool pinkness of his rediscovered flesh and nodding with approval at the image he beheld.
He wiped himself down, cleaned and dried his blade, and put his supplies away. Many days had passed since he had properly slept, and still he was not the least bit tired. He drew on his parka and boots, let himself out the back, and made his way down the alley. It was nearly one A.M., not a soul about, yet from all around Greer sensed a kind of molecular restlessness, a subaural hum of life. He moved past the ruined Dome, down the hill, through the flatland to the stadium. By the time he arrived, the moon was down. He chose not to enter the structure, rather to stand in the absolute quiet and take it in whole, this blot of darkness against the starry sky. He wondered: Would history remember this place? Would the people of the future, whoever they were, give it a name, one worthy of the events that had transpired here, to record it for posterity? A hopeful thought, a bit premature, but one worth having. And Lucius Greer took a silent vow. Should such a future come to pass, should the final battle for earth's dominion be taken in victory, he would be the one to put pen to paper, to give the story words.
He did not know when this battle would be. Amy had not told him that. Only that it would come.
He understood, then, what force had led him here. He was looking for a sign. What form this sign would take, he could not say. It might come now, it might come later, it might not come at all. Such was the burden of his faith. He opened his mind and waited. An interval of time moved by. The night, the stars, the living world; all passed through him, like a blessing.
Then:
Lucius. My friend. Hello.
And on this night of miraculous things, Peter, sitting outside the shoe store, awoke to the feeling that he was, in fact, not awake at all-that one dream had simply opened into the next, like a door behind a door. A dream in which he was sitting with Sara's daughter in his arms at the edge of the snowy fields, all else being the same-the inky sky, the winter cold, the lateness of the hour-except for the fact that they were not alone.
But it was not a dream.
She crouched before him, in the manner of her kind. Her transformation was complete; even her raven mane was gone. Yet as their eyes met and held, the image wavered in his mind; it was not a viral he saw. It was a girl, and then a woman, and then both of these at once. She was Amy, the Girl from Nowhere; she was Amy of Souls, Last of the Twelve; she was only herself. Extending a hand toward him, Amy held her palm upright; Peter replied in kind. A force of pure longing surged in his heart as their fingers touched. It was a kind of kiss.
How long they stayed that way, Peter didn't know. Between them, in the warm cocoon of his coat, Kate slept soundly, oblivious. Time had released its moorings; Peter and Amy drifted together in the current. Soon the child would awaken, or Sara would come, or Hollis, and Amy would be gone. She would lift away in a streak of starry light. Peter would return the sleeping child to her bed, and lie down himself, even attempt to sleep; and in the morning, in the gray winter dawn, they would stretch their bones and load up their gear and continue on their long road south. The moment would pass, like all things, into memory.
But not just yet.
Chapter 69
The driver this time was a woman. Amy put down her sign and got into the car.
"How do you do, Amy?" She offered her hand. "I'm Rachel Wood."
They shook. For a moment Amy was rendered speechless, arrested by the woman's beauty: a face of delicate, well-made bones, as if honed with the finest tools; skin that glowed with youthful health; a trim, strong body, her arms articulated with lean muscle. Her hair, pulled away from her face in a taut ponytail, was blond with golden streaks. She was wearing what Amy knew to be tennis clothes, although this knowledge seemed to come from elsewhere, the idea of tennis itself lacking any meaningful reference. Sunglasses with tiny jewels embedded in the arms were perched on top of her head.
"I'm sorry I wasn't here to get you before," Rachel continued. "Anthony thought you'd like a familiar face the first time."
"I'm very glad to meet you," Amy said.
"That's sweet of you to say." She smiled, showing her teeth, which were small and straight and very white. "Buckle up now."
They glided away from the overpass. All was the same as the last time-the same houses and stores and parking lots, the same glowing summer light, the same busy world flowing past. In the deep leather of her seat, Amy felt as if she were floating in a bath. Rachel seemed thoroughly at home at the wheel of the immense vehicle, humming a shapeless tune under her breath as she guided them confidently through traffic. As a large pickup braked ahead of them, blocking the lane, Rachel flicked on her blinker and deftly swerved to pass.
"For goodness sake," she sighed, "some people. Where do they learn to drive?" She looked at Amy hastily and returned her eyes to the road. "You know, you're not quite what I imagined, I have to say."
"No?"
"Oh, not in a bad way," Rachel assured her. "That's not what I meant at all. Honestly, you're just pretty as a picture. I wish I had skin like that."
"So how am I different?"
She hesitated, choosing her words. "I just thought you'd be, you know. Younger."
They continued on. Amy's abrupt arrival in this place had brought about a mild disorientation and, with it, a muting of emotion. But as the minutes passed, she felt her mind opening to her circumstances, the images and her responses to them growing more defined. How remarkable everything was, Amy thought. How very, very remarkable. They were inside the ship, the Chevron Mariner, yet she had no physical awareness of this; as before, with Wolgast, every detail of the scene possessed an absolutely firm appearance of reality. Perhaps it was real, in some alternate sense of the word. What, after all, was "real"?
"Right there is where I stopped with him, that first time." Rachel gestured out the window to a block of stores. "Somehow I had it in my head he might like doughnuts. Doughnuts, can you imagine?" Before Amy could assemble a response, she went on: "But listen to me, giving you the grand tour. I'm sure you know all about it. And you must be tired, after such a long trip."
"It's all right," Amy said. "I don't mind."
"Oh, he was such a sight." Rachel shook her head sadly. "That poor man. My heart just went out. I said to myself, Rachel, you have to do something. For once in your little life, get your head out of the sand. But of course I was really thinking about myself, as usual. Which is the thing. I've got enough regrets on that score to last a hundred lifetimes. I didn't deserve him, not one iota."
"Now, the king and queen, Elizabeth's parents, had never stopped looking for her. They'd combed every inch of the forest, and all the lands of the kingdom besides. But the tree was very well hidden. Then one day they heard a rumor about a little girl living in the forest with the fairies. Could that be our daughter? they wondered. And they did the only thing they could think of. They ordered the royal woodsmen to cut down all the trees until they found the one with Elizabeth inside it."
"All of them?"
Peter nodded. "Every last one. Which was not a good idea. The woods were home not only to the fairies but to all kinds of animals and birds. But Elizabeth's parents were so desperate, they would have done anything to get their daughter back. So the woodsmen got to work, chopping down the forest, while the king and queen rode out on their horses, calling her name. 'Elizabeth! Elizabeth! Where are you?' And you know what happened?"
"She heard them?"
"Yes, she did. Only the name Elizabeth didn't mean anything to her anymore. She had a fairy name now, and had forgotten everything about her life. But the fairy queen knew what she was hearing, and she felt pretty awful about it. How could I have done this terrible thing? she thought. How could I have taken Elizabeth away? But still she couldn't make herself fly out of the tree to tell Elizabeth's parents where she was. She loved the girl too much, you see, to let her go. 'Be very still,' she said to Elizabeth. 'Don't make a sound.' The woodsmen were coming closer and closer. Trees were falling everywhere. All the fairies were afraid. 'Give her back,' they said to the fairy queen, 'please, give her back before they destroy the entire forest.' "
"Wow," Kate gasped.
"I know. It's a pretty scary story. Should I stop?"
"Uncle Peter, please."
He laughed. "All right, all right. So, the woodsmen came to the tree with Elizabeth and the fairies inside. It was an especially magnificent tree, tall and wide, with a big canopy of leaves. A fairy tree. But as one woodsman reared back with his axe, the king had a change of heart. The tree, you see, was just too beautiful to cut down. I'm sure the creatures of the forest care about this tree as much as I care about my daughter, he said. It wouldn't be right to take it away from them, all because I've lost something I love. Everybody, put your axes down and go home and let me and my wife mourn for our daughter, who we will never see again. It was very sad. Everybody was in tears. Elizabeth's parents, the woodsmen, even the fairy queen, who had heard every word. Because she knew that Elizabeth could never be her real daughter, no matter how hard she wished it. So she took her by the hand and led her out of the tree and said, 'Your Majesties, please forgive me. It was I who took your daughter. I wanted a little girl of my own so much that I couldn't help myself. But I know now that she belongs with you. I'm so very, very sorry.' And you know what the king and queen said?"
"Off with your head?"
Peter stifled a laugh. "Just the opposite. Despite everything that had happened, they were so happy to have their daughter back, and so moved by the fairy queen's remorse, that they decided to reward her. They issued a royal proclamation that the fairies should be left to live in peace, and that all children of the realm should have one special fairy friend. Which is why, to this day, only children can see them."
Kate was silent a moment. "So that's the end?"
"Pretty much, yeah." He felt faintly embarrassed. "I haven't really done this before. How'd I do?"
The girl considered this, then said, with a crisp nod, "I liked it. It was a good story. Tell me another."
"I'm not sure I've got another one in me. Aren't you tired yet?"
"Please, Uncle Peter."
The night was clear, the stars shining down. Everything was still, not a trace of movement or sound. Peter thought of Caleb, realizing with a power that startled him how much he missed the boy, how he longed to hold him in his arms. Alicia was right, and Tifty too. But most of all, Amy. He loves you, you know. The truth filled him like a breath of winter air. Peter would go home and learn to be a father.
"So, okay ..."
He talked and talked. He told her every story he knew. By the time he was done, Kate was yawning; her body had gone slack in his arms. He unzipped his coat and swiveled her on his lap, pulling the flaps around her.
"Are you cold, sweetheart?"
Her voice was soft, half gone. "Nuh-uh."
She nestled against him. Just another minute, Peter thought, and closed his eyes. Just another minute, and I'll take her inside. He felt Kate's warm breath on his neck; her chest moved gently against his own, rising and falling, like long waves on a beach. But a minute passed, and then another and another, and by that time Peter wasn't going anywhere, because he was fast asleep.
In the lavatory of the apothecary shop, Lucius Greer was shaving.
The day, and most of the night besides, had disappeared under an avalanche of duties. A meeting of the Council of Lodges, during which Eustace had attempted first to reexplain and then once more justify the lottery procedure for evacuation; the tallying of census data, which had revealed numerous duplicate forms, some made in error, others with deliberate intent by individuals trying to increase their odds of being chosen; a brawl outside the detention center when a group of three cols, half-starved after weeks of hiding in an unused warehouse, had attempted to turn themselves in, only to be intercepted by the small crowd that kept vigil outside the building; nine weddings over which he'd been asked to officiate when one of the JPs had taken ill (all Lucius had to do was read four sentences off a card, yet it surprised him, how weighty it felt to say them aloud); the first official gathering of the evacuation support teams, and the partitioning of their responsibilities in preparation for the first departure; and on and on. A day of one thing and then another and another; Lucius couldn't remember what or even if he'd eaten, he'd barely sat down all day, and yet here he was, past midnight, gazing at his grizzled, hirsute face in the mirror, holding a blade in one hand and a pair of scissors in the other.
He began with the scissors. Snip by snip the wild torrent of his hair and beard fell away, their white leavings gathering on the floor by his feet like drifts of feathered snow. When this was done he warmed a pot of water, soaked a rag and wrung it out, and lay it over his face to soften the bristles that remained. He smeared his cheeks with soap, harsh and chemical-smelling, then went to work with the blade: first his cheeks, then the long arc of his neck, and finally his head, working backward from brow to crown to the base of his skull in short, measured strokes. The first time he had shaved himself in this manner, the night before he'd taken the oath of the Expeditionary, he had cut himself in about twenty places. It was commonly said that you didn't need to look at the uniform to know a fresh recruit; all you had to do was look at his head. But with time and practice, Greer, like all of his fellows, had gotten the knack, and it pleased him to discover that he hadn't lost his touch. He could have done it blindfolded in the dark if he had to, yet there was satisfaction to be had in observing a ritual that after so many years still possessed the power of a baptism. Scrape by scrape his visage was laid bare, and when the task was complete, Greer stepped back to examine his face in the mirror, running his hand over the cool pinkness of his rediscovered flesh and nodding with approval at the image he beheld.
He wiped himself down, cleaned and dried his blade, and put his supplies away. Many days had passed since he had properly slept, and still he was not the least bit tired. He drew on his parka and boots, let himself out the back, and made his way down the alley. It was nearly one A.M., not a soul about, yet from all around Greer sensed a kind of molecular restlessness, a subaural hum of life. He moved past the ruined Dome, down the hill, through the flatland to the stadium. By the time he arrived, the moon was down. He chose not to enter the structure, rather to stand in the absolute quiet and take it in whole, this blot of darkness against the starry sky. He wondered: Would history remember this place? Would the people of the future, whoever they were, give it a name, one worthy of the events that had transpired here, to record it for posterity? A hopeful thought, a bit premature, but one worth having. And Lucius Greer took a silent vow. Should such a future come to pass, should the final battle for earth's dominion be taken in victory, he would be the one to put pen to paper, to give the story words.
He did not know when this battle would be. Amy had not told him that. Only that it would come.
He understood, then, what force had led him here. He was looking for a sign. What form this sign would take, he could not say. It might come now, it might come later, it might not come at all. Such was the burden of his faith. He opened his mind and waited. An interval of time moved by. The night, the stars, the living world; all passed through him, like a blessing.
Then:
Lucius. My friend. Hello.
And on this night of miraculous things, Peter, sitting outside the shoe store, awoke to the feeling that he was, in fact, not awake at all-that one dream had simply opened into the next, like a door behind a door. A dream in which he was sitting with Sara's daughter in his arms at the edge of the snowy fields, all else being the same-the inky sky, the winter cold, the lateness of the hour-except for the fact that they were not alone.
But it was not a dream.
She crouched before him, in the manner of her kind. Her transformation was complete; even her raven mane was gone. Yet as their eyes met and held, the image wavered in his mind; it was not a viral he saw. It was a girl, and then a woman, and then both of these at once. She was Amy, the Girl from Nowhere; she was Amy of Souls, Last of the Twelve; she was only herself. Extending a hand toward him, Amy held her palm upright; Peter replied in kind. A force of pure longing surged in his heart as their fingers touched. It was a kind of kiss.
How long they stayed that way, Peter didn't know. Between them, in the warm cocoon of his coat, Kate slept soundly, oblivious. Time had released its moorings; Peter and Amy drifted together in the current. Soon the child would awaken, or Sara would come, or Hollis, and Amy would be gone. She would lift away in a streak of starry light. Peter would return the sleeping child to her bed, and lie down himself, even attempt to sleep; and in the morning, in the gray winter dawn, they would stretch their bones and load up their gear and continue on their long road south. The moment would pass, like all things, into memory.
But not just yet.
Chapter 69
The driver this time was a woman. Amy put down her sign and got into the car.
"How do you do, Amy?" She offered her hand. "I'm Rachel Wood."
They shook. For a moment Amy was rendered speechless, arrested by the woman's beauty: a face of delicate, well-made bones, as if honed with the finest tools; skin that glowed with youthful health; a trim, strong body, her arms articulated with lean muscle. Her hair, pulled away from her face in a taut ponytail, was blond with golden streaks. She was wearing what Amy knew to be tennis clothes, although this knowledge seemed to come from elsewhere, the idea of tennis itself lacking any meaningful reference. Sunglasses with tiny jewels embedded in the arms were perched on top of her head.
"I'm sorry I wasn't here to get you before," Rachel continued. "Anthony thought you'd like a familiar face the first time."
"I'm very glad to meet you," Amy said.
"That's sweet of you to say." She smiled, showing her teeth, which were small and straight and very white. "Buckle up now."
They glided away from the overpass. All was the same as the last time-the same houses and stores and parking lots, the same glowing summer light, the same busy world flowing past. In the deep leather of her seat, Amy felt as if she were floating in a bath. Rachel seemed thoroughly at home at the wheel of the immense vehicle, humming a shapeless tune under her breath as she guided them confidently through traffic. As a large pickup braked ahead of them, blocking the lane, Rachel flicked on her blinker and deftly swerved to pass.
"For goodness sake," she sighed, "some people. Where do they learn to drive?" She looked at Amy hastily and returned her eyes to the road. "You know, you're not quite what I imagined, I have to say."
"No?"
"Oh, not in a bad way," Rachel assured her. "That's not what I meant at all. Honestly, you're just pretty as a picture. I wish I had skin like that."
"So how am I different?"
She hesitated, choosing her words. "I just thought you'd be, you know. Younger."
They continued on. Amy's abrupt arrival in this place had brought about a mild disorientation and, with it, a muting of emotion. But as the minutes passed, she felt her mind opening to her circumstances, the images and her responses to them growing more defined. How remarkable everything was, Amy thought. How very, very remarkable. They were inside the ship, the Chevron Mariner, yet she had no physical awareness of this; as before, with Wolgast, every detail of the scene possessed an absolutely firm appearance of reality. Perhaps it was real, in some alternate sense of the word. What, after all, was "real"?
"Right there is where I stopped with him, that first time." Rachel gestured out the window to a block of stores. "Somehow I had it in my head he might like doughnuts. Doughnuts, can you imagine?" Before Amy could assemble a response, she went on: "But listen to me, giving you the grand tour. I'm sure you know all about it. And you must be tired, after such a long trip."
"It's all right," Amy said. "I don't mind."
"Oh, he was such a sight." Rachel shook her head sadly. "That poor man. My heart just went out. I said to myself, Rachel, you have to do something. For once in your little life, get your head out of the sand. But of course I was really thinking about myself, as usual. Which is the thing. I've got enough regrets on that score to last a hundred lifetimes. I didn't deserve him, not one iota."
