The Unfailing Light
Chapter Three

The next morning, we met Dariya and her stepmother for our excursion to the Massandra caves. Adjacent to the imperial estate of Livadia, the grounds of Massandra had recently been bought by the tsar, and a grand palace was being built. Some of the caves were open for excursions, and that was where we planned to spend the day.
Dariya grinned at me, holding her parasol up to protect her fair skin from the late-morning sunshine. Accepting the footman's arm for support, I climbed into the carriage next to her. It would be a short ride to Massandra, for the estate was very near to our villa, but we would have to walk across the beautifully cultivated vineyards to reach the caves. The servants had packed two large picnic baskets for us. I could smell the freshly baked baklava that had been wrapped up for later.
Maman and Aunt Zina seated themselves in the carriage seat across from us. "What a glorious morning!" my aunt said. She smiled like a cat that had gotten into the cream.
Maman, however, looked a bit weak. "How did your seance go?" I asked with concern.
"It was so exciting!" the countess said, ignoring the fact that I'd addressed my mother. "We made contact with a servant of Empress Yelizaveta Petrovna! He shared the most delightful recipe for a raspberry sorbet."
"What a comfort to know that spiritism has such practical uses," I murmured. Dariya poked me in the arm and stifled a giggle. "Maman, are you feeling all right?" I asked, turning toward her. She seemed paler than usual.
My mother forced a laugh. "Of course, dear. It is just unbearably early for me. I'm not used to being out of bed before noon, you know."
But it was more than that. The cold light that shimmered around her, the light that only a necromancer can see, looked different this morning. Not brighter or dimmer necessarily, merely different. A person's cold light grows brighter the closer one is to death. A necromancer uses her own cold light to manipulate life and death, just as she can manipulate another person's cold light. I was still learning how dangerous my powers could be. I did not understand what the change to my mother's cold light meant, but I suspected it was related to the previous night's seance. Had one of the ghosts touched Maman?
Our carriage ride was pleasant, as the dirt road took us high into the hills where we could look down at the harbor. The Crimean Peninsula was very rocky, and full of mountains dotted with caves. The narrow strip of beach along the southeastern coast was known as the Riviera of Russia, and this was where all the palaces and dachas belonging to the nobility glittered like gems in the sun.
The carriage stopped at the gates of Massandra and we climbed out, taking our picnic baskets. Maman and Aunt Zina carried their parasols. It would not be a long hike, but I was thankful for the fresh air.
I hurried ahead to walk with Dariya. She was swinging her picnic basket and humming an aria from the opera Iphigenia. I wished we'd had more time to spend at the ruins in Khersones. We still planned to perform the Greek play before our holiday in the Crimea ended.
As we walked down the shady path leading to the caves, we came to a bridge that crossed a crystal clear stream. We could hear voices on the other side of the bridge.
"Georgi! No!" There was a splash, and then a young girl shrieked with laughter.
My heart pounded in my throat as I recognized the voice.
Dariya looked at me and shrugged. "The imperial family?"
It was their estate, even if they were staying at Livadia while Massandra Palace was being finished.
"Perhaps we should have chosen another day," I said, starting to turn around.
"Katerina Alexandrovna!" A pleased young female voice stopped me. The tsar's eldest daughter had already seen us. "And Dariya Yevgenievna! Georgi! Nicky! Look who it is!"
Grand Duchess Xenia was dripping wet. Her older brothers behind her looked as if they'd been swimming as well.
My skin felt as if it were on fire as George Alexandrovich's gaze swept over me. His hair was wet; a lone, limp curl fell over his forehead and my fingers itched to push it back off his beautiful face. He eyed me warily. His siblings obviously did not know he had proposed to me less than a month ago. Or that I had refused him. And I hoped he would never tell them. What good could ever come of it?
The eldest of the tsar's sons, Grand Duke Nicholas Alexandrovich, smiled his shy smile and gave us a polite bow. "What brings you two out here this morning?"
Just then, Maman and Aunt Zina caught up with us. They became excited when they saw the tsar's children. "Your Imperial Highnesses!" my mother said, bowing. "We did not mean to intrude, but we had hoped to visit the caves."
The tsarevitch took Maman's hand gallantly and clicked his heels together. "No intrusion at all," he said with a grin. "We were searching for a new fishing spot. Would you like for us to accompany you up the path to the main cave? It can be tricky to find."
George looked as unhappy as I was with the suggestion. It appeared, sadly, that his passionate regard for me had already cooled. Which was for the best, I realized. But even though I knew we could never be together, I also knew that I would never love another.
"You are most kind, Your Imperial Highness," Maman said with a slight nod.
George stepped closer to me; I could smell the sunshine and fresh air on his damp clothes. His shirt was unbuttoned at the top, his sleeves rolled up to reveal tan, muscular arms that glistened with beads of water. I blushed as soon as I realized I was staring.
"Allow me to carry your basket," he said, holding out his hand.
His fingers grazed mine as I handed the basket to him. It was like an electric current passing between us. "Of course I still feel the same," he said in a low voice, so the others couldn't hear. "How could you doubt that?"
My cheeks burned and I felt a strange, light fluttering in my stomach. "Forgive me, Your Imperial Highness. I had forgotten my thoughts were so transparent to you." His telepathy was one of his faerie gifts, courtesy of his mother.
He held my elbow gently, forcing me to stay until the rest of our party had gone on ahead. His touch sent shivers up and down my entire arm. I could see Dariya talking with Grand Duchess Xenia before they disappeared on the winding forest path. No one noticed our absence.
"How have you been, Your Imperial Highness?" I didn't know what else to say to him.
He smiled, and his face seemed to light up. "Terrible. And you?"
I didn't answer him. "How is the Order? How are your Koldun studies?"
He sighed. "I leave for Paris next week to study with a secret circle of wizards."
"Paris? For how long?"
"Several months, I'm afraid."
It had always been my and Dariya's dream to visit the City of Light. What beautiful sights the grand duke would see. "How exciting," I said, happy for him. But I could not help feeling sad that he would be so far away.
"And you leave for Zurich soon," he said.
I nodded and kept staring straight ahead as we walked. If I stopped to look at him now, would I change my mind about leaving?
"My father actually believes it is a good idea for you to go."
That caused me to stop in the middle of the path. "He does?"
George shrugged. "Normally, he does not believe women should have occupations, but he feels a university education would be beneficial for you as his imperial necromancer."
Of course. I was a valuable pawn to the tsar and his wife's Light Court. My education would depend solely upon my usefulness to the Crown.
"Is he feeling better?" I asked. The ritual at Peterhof that had transformed our tsar into the ancient warrior of legend, the bogatyr, had been draining. For the tsar as well as for me. But Tsar Alexander possessed an almost inhuman strength. His battle with the lich tsar Konstantin had been amazing to see. And frightening.
"He is much improved," the grand duke said. "But as a physician you may be able to discover ways for him to recover faster the next time the bogatyr is needed."
I sighed and shook my head. "But that's not why I want to be a doctor. I want to help all people. Not just the tsar."
"At least he is letting you leave, is he not?"
"He does not want me anywhere near you. Neither does the empress."
"I'm going to Paris. You wouldn't be near me even if you stayed in St. Petersburg." George stopped us again and grabbed my hand. "Katiya, I'm concerned for your safety. The Order has seen signs that there are other people working with Konstantin. We think someone else in St. Petersburg wants to finish what Princess Cantacuzene started. Even after all these years, there are still those who believe that Konstantin Pavlovich was the rightful heir after Alexander the First."
"The Dekebristi, you mean." They were the undead minions of Konstantin's vampire clan, first raised by Princess Cantacuzene more than sixty years ago.
He nodded. "Among others."
"But we stopped him at Peterhof." The lich tsar had tried to defeat Tsar Alexander and had failed because I summoned the bogatyr to fight him. "He can't come back, can he?"
George looked me in the eye. "He simply vanished that day. I'm sure Konstantin Pavlovich has been hiding away somewhere, plotting his revenge. He's just waiting for someone else powerful enough to help him return from the dead."
The grand duke was right, of course. What on earth had given me the idea that a weak and silly sixteen-year-old girl like me could have defeated an undead wizard? He would be back. And he would certainly come for me. "What are we going to do?" I whispered.
George frowned. "You are going to be careful. I hate that you will be so far away in Zurich. Won't you please reconsider staying in St. Petersburg, where at least the Order will be able to look after you?"
It made sense that Konstantin would come after me. Most likely before he came after Tsar Alexander. I was the easier target. And once I was out of the way, the bogatyr could not be summoned to protect the people of St. Petersburg.
It hurt me to see the grand duke look so worried. It would be easy to choose the safer path and stay at home with my family. But there was no way I'd ever become a doctor if I remained in Russia. Our medical schools did not admit women. No thanks to the tsar and his narrow-minded education ministers.
I shook my head sadly. "I can't live in fear. Whether he comes after me in St. Petersburg or in Zurich, nothing would be able to stop him. I want to go to medical school."
George's eyes narrowed. He was angry with me for being stubborn.
Without thinking, I reached for his hand and held it between both of mine. "Don't be mad. And please don't worry about me. The Order needs to keep the tsar safe. Konstantin is not concerned with me." Not much, I hoped.
George's breathing had changed when I touched his hand. He was still angry, but there was something else that flashed in his eyes as well. Something silvery and dangerous. His fae heritage. "God, Katiya," he murmured as he dropped the picnic basket and pulled me closer to him.
His lips brushed mine, and in a heartbeat, the rest of the world fell away. All my fears about the lich tsar, all my worries about medical school. I let go of his hand and put my arms around his neck. I knew the others weren't far ahead of us and would probably turn around if they noticed us missing. But I didn't care about anything at that moment. Nothing but being in that beautiful boy's arms. My beautiful boy.
The last time we'd kissed, my powers had been dangerously out of control. He'd almost been killed. I couldn't let myself lose control again.
And yet, I was so close. I could feel the tingling rising up from deep inside me as his kisses trailed across my cheek and his hands curled around my waist. My powers were beginning to uncoil as I felt his warm lips on my skin.
I heard a twig snap behind me and pushed away from him instantly. My sleeves and the front of my dress were damp from being pressed up against him and his wet clothes. My heart was pounding and my breath ragged.
It was his sister, Grand Duchess Xenia. But she just winked at us and shouted, "I don't see them anywhere!" before turning and skipping back toward the rest of the group.
George was breathing hard too, and he sighed as he let go of me. "I'm never going to hear the end of this from her."
"Will she tell the empress?" I asked. My cheeks felt hot with shame. What would I do the next time I saw Her Imperial Majesty? Could I hide from her forever?
"My sister won't say a word if she thinks I would get in trouble." He smiled, adding, "Xenia is a silly romantic." He gently lifted my chin, lightly touching my bottom lip with his thumb. When he looked at me with his ocean-blue eyes, the silver flash was gone, but I could still sense the fae power in his gaze. Everything inside me began to melt. Slowly. "I won't ever let my mother come between us, Katiya," he said. "I promise you."
"But-"
He placed a finger on my mouth to quiet my fears. My lips tingled from his touch. "You promised to give me a year, Katiya. One year to convince my parents that you and I belong together."
I remembered making that promise. I'd walked away from him that day at Peterhof, after my powers had risen up and almost suffocated him. Mon Dieu, what would have happened this time if the grand duchess hadn't found us?
I pulled away from him and reached for the picnic basket. Praying that no one would ask me how my dress got damp, I self-consciously tucked a loose strand of hair behind my ear.
With a friendly growl, George took the picnic basket away from me. I couldn't help smiling. I tried to hurry us along. I knew that we needed to catch up with the others before they reached the entrance to the caves, but George deliberately slowed his walking. Proper etiquette dictated that I slow down as well and walk just slightly behind the tsar's son.
"A grand duke never skips," he said, a small smile at the corners of his lips.