I thought love was supposed to make a person more alive, Eureka said. Your love is like I used to besuicidal.
Love is an endless drive on a winding road. You cant see everything about another person all at once. Ander leaned forward in the swaying canoe and inhaled. When he let out his breath, Eureka felt something warm curl around her body. Hed generated a gentle Zephyr that pulled her toward him. Her hands slid up his arms, then clasped around his neck. She couldnt deny how good it felt being pinned against him. She absorbed the tension in his muscles, his body heat, and, before she knew it, his lips.
But then a feeling crept over Eureka like ivy. Somewhere in the darkness Brooks and Atlas were watching them.
Wait, she said.
But Ander didnt. He held her close and kissed her deeply. Her body was wet and Anders was dry and not even the rain seemed to know what to do when it touched the places they overlapped. She gave in for a moment, felt his tongue touch hers. Her heart swelled. Her lips tingled.
She forced herself to pull away. She didnt care what Atlas saw, but she didnt want Brooks watching her kiss a boy like she hadnt flooded the world, like her best friend was not possessed. She pressed her hand against Anders chest and felt his heartbeat. Hers was racingwith fear and guilt and desire.
What is it? Ander asked.
She wanted to trust him, but everything was muddy. Ander saw Brooks only as Atlas, the enemy. He wouldnt understand that Eureka loved and needed part of the enemy to survive. Her encounter with Brooks had to be a secret, at least until she was clear on how to save her friend.
You cant love me without growing old, she finally said. And I cant know that about you without wanting to cry. And my tears are the end of the world.
Ander touched the corners of her eyes with his lips to reassure her they were dry. Please dont be afraid of my love.
He took the oar and paddled twice to spin the canoe around. His soft breath sent them gliding toward the entrance to the tunnel, back to the Bitter Cloud. Just before the rock swallowed them, Eureka looked back to where shed seen Brooks. Atlas. The ledge hed stood on was invisible. Low clouds had reclaimed the sky and were busy covering the world in darkness.
12
OCCUPY ATLANTIS
That night the Poet caught up with Filiz on her new, more arduous route home from work, all the way around the new pond. That Filiz no longer thought of the Poet by his given Celan nameBasilsuggested the impact Solon had on Filizs way of thinking.
The Poet listened to a Discman as he walkedso prehistorican old country song twanging in his earbuds when he took them out to call her name. His lips had been swollen and she knew hed been kissing the Tearline girls friend.It made Filiz jealous, not because she wanted to kiss the Poet, but because she had never kissed anyone.
He tossed her a parchment-wrapped package. It was the size of the loaves of bread Filizs mother used to bake when she was a girl and hunger was a greedy pleasure, dispelled by a ready meal. The Poet had another package under his arm.
This is what Solon offers special guests, he said in their native tongue.
They were the first comprehensible words shed heard him say in months. She unwrapped the package.
It was foodwarm, fried meat next to a mound of honey-glazed nuts and dried fruit the color of jewels. Something gooey smelled like paradise. Baklava.
It was all Filiz could do not to devour the entire contents of the package on the path in the rain. But she thought of her mothers bony face.
Hes been building a hidden stash for months, the Poet said. This was what I snuck today. But tomorrow
He trailed off, and Filiz knew that everything was about to change. As soon as she shared this food with her family, and the Poet with his, the whole community would know. Solons cave would no longer be a haven for Filizor anyone else.
Theyll kill him, Filiz whispered. She felt protective of Solonor, at least, of the pleasure she derived from working in his cave. She knew it was selfish, but she didnt want to lose the only touch of glamour in her life.
But her people were starving, so Filiz looked away from the Poet and said, See you at Assembly.
Back at the cave where she lived with her mother and grandmother, Filiz pulled a handful of branches from her coat and dropped them in the center of the floor. She snapped her fingers, igniting a flame from the tips of her chipped blue nails.
Not long ago, theyd had enough wood to keep a fire always burning. Now it was dark and cold when Filiz came home, and she knew it had been like that all day.
The branches crackled, hissed, smoked. Burning wet wood was like forcing love, but since the Tearline girl had cried, nothing was dry. The entire world was dark and cold and wet. The flickering light warmed Filizs mind and illuminated her sleeping mother. People said Filiz looked like her, even though Filiz dyed her hair and wore heavy makeup she stole from a drugstore in Kusadasi. She saw nothing of herself in her mothers weary face.
Her mother opened her eyes. They were the same soft brown as Filizs.
How was work? Her mother spoke in the rolling, melodic Celan tongue, a mlange of Greek and Turkish and, some said, Atlantean. It was spoken only on these two square miles of earth.
Filizs mother searched her skin, looking for injuries, as she did every night. She used to perform the same nightly scan on Filizs father when hed been alive.
Love is an endless drive on a winding road. You cant see everything about another person all at once. Ander leaned forward in the swaying canoe and inhaled. When he let out his breath, Eureka felt something warm curl around her body. Hed generated a gentle Zephyr that pulled her toward him. Her hands slid up his arms, then clasped around his neck. She couldnt deny how good it felt being pinned against him. She absorbed the tension in his muscles, his body heat, and, before she knew it, his lips.
But then a feeling crept over Eureka like ivy. Somewhere in the darkness Brooks and Atlas were watching them.
Wait, she said.
But Ander didnt. He held her close and kissed her deeply. Her body was wet and Anders was dry and not even the rain seemed to know what to do when it touched the places they overlapped. She gave in for a moment, felt his tongue touch hers. Her heart swelled. Her lips tingled.
She forced herself to pull away. She didnt care what Atlas saw, but she didnt want Brooks watching her kiss a boy like she hadnt flooded the world, like her best friend was not possessed. She pressed her hand against Anders chest and felt his heartbeat. Hers was racingwith fear and guilt and desire.
What is it? Ander asked.
She wanted to trust him, but everything was muddy. Ander saw Brooks only as Atlas, the enemy. He wouldnt understand that Eureka loved and needed part of the enemy to survive. Her encounter with Brooks had to be a secret, at least until she was clear on how to save her friend.
You cant love me without growing old, she finally said. And I cant know that about you without wanting to cry. And my tears are the end of the world.
Ander touched the corners of her eyes with his lips to reassure her they were dry. Please dont be afraid of my love.
He took the oar and paddled twice to spin the canoe around. His soft breath sent them gliding toward the entrance to the tunnel, back to the Bitter Cloud. Just before the rock swallowed them, Eureka looked back to where shed seen Brooks. Atlas. The ledge hed stood on was invisible. Low clouds had reclaimed the sky and were busy covering the world in darkness.
12
OCCUPY ATLANTIS
That night the Poet caught up with Filiz on her new, more arduous route home from work, all the way around the new pond. That Filiz no longer thought of the Poet by his given Celan nameBasilsuggested the impact Solon had on Filizs way of thinking.
The Poet listened to a Discman as he walkedso prehistorican old country song twanging in his earbuds when he took them out to call her name. His lips had been swollen and she knew hed been kissing the Tearline girls friend.It made Filiz jealous, not because she wanted to kiss the Poet, but because she had never kissed anyone.
He tossed her a parchment-wrapped package. It was the size of the loaves of bread Filizs mother used to bake when she was a girl and hunger was a greedy pleasure, dispelled by a ready meal. The Poet had another package under his arm.
This is what Solon offers special guests, he said in their native tongue.
They were the first comprehensible words shed heard him say in months. She unwrapped the package.
It was foodwarm, fried meat next to a mound of honey-glazed nuts and dried fruit the color of jewels. Something gooey smelled like paradise. Baklava.
It was all Filiz could do not to devour the entire contents of the package on the path in the rain. But she thought of her mothers bony face.
Hes been building a hidden stash for months, the Poet said. This was what I snuck today. But tomorrow
He trailed off, and Filiz knew that everything was about to change. As soon as she shared this food with her family, and the Poet with his, the whole community would know. Solons cave would no longer be a haven for Filizor anyone else.
Theyll kill him, Filiz whispered. She felt protective of Solonor, at least, of the pleasure she derived from working in his cave. She knew it was selfish, but she didnt want to lose the only touch of glamour in her life.
But her people were starving, so Filiz looked away from the Poet and said, See you at Assembly.
Back at the cave where she lived with her mother and grandmother, Filiz pulled a handful of branches from her coat and dropped them in the center of the floor. She snapped her fingers, igniting a flame from the tips of her chipped blue nails.
Not long ago, theyd had enough wood to keep a fire always burning. Now it was dark and cold when Filiz came home, and she knew it had been like that all day.
The branches crackled, hissed, smoked. Burning wet wood was like forcing love, but since the Tearline girl had cried, nothing was dry. The entire world was dark and cold and wet. The flickering light warmed Filizs mind and illuminated her sleeping mother. People said Filiz looked like her, even though Filiz dyed her hair and wore heavy makeup she stole from a drugstore in Kusadasi. She saw nothing of herself in her mothers weary face.
Her mother opened her eyes. They were the same soft brown as Filizs.
How was work? Her mother spoke in the rolling, melodic Celan tongue, a mlange of Greek and Turkish and, some said, Atlantean. It was spoken only on these two square miles of earth.
Filizs mother searched her skin, looking for injuries, as she did every night. She used to perform the same nightly scan on Filizs father when hed been alive.
