Never After
Chapter 5

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As the steel gray Lexus pulled to a stop in front of the house, with a Jeep Wrangler right behind it, I sucked in a deep breath. Camille and Delilah were here. I glanced back at the phone. Mitch was supposed to call. He was due home late and he always called to let me know how long he would be. His crew had gotten wrapped up in the restoration of an original fireplace and they wanted to finish it before the week was over. Which meant that he wouldn't walk in on our conversation.
I smoothed my dress and looked around the house. We hadn't even had our official housewarming, and I'd hoped to put off entertaining guests until after the Pod priestess came to bless our new home, but this was too important. Besides, the girls would never bring anything evil with them - at least not wittingly. They were fighting a group of demons trying to break through the portals to take over both Earth and Otherworld, and I was content to sit back and let them handle it.
The doorbell rang and I let them in, motioning to the living room.
"I don't know how much time I have before Mitch gets home," I said. "He's going to be late, but I want to take care of this before he gets here, if you don't mind." I rubbed my arms, feeling chilly even though I'd turned up the heat.
"What's shaking, babe?" Camille, the oldest, looked like a raven-haired cross between a member of the Society for Creative Anachronism and an S and M bar's madame. A real vixen. Delilah, a six-one lean, athletic, golden blond werecat, followed her in. Their sister Menolly couldn't make it, though. She was a vampire and wasn't up before sunset.
"How do I begin?" I turned to them, biting my lip. How was I going to stand here and tell my good friends that I'd lied to them from the beginning, even though the lie was for self-protection. Deciding that it would be like pulling teeth - better to just yank it than try to wriggle it out - I sucked in a deep breath, and then everything spilled out in a rush.
* * *
Delilah stared at me, a dumbfounded look on her face. She slowly leaned forward, her motorcycle boots heavy on the floor as she rested her elbows on the denim covering her knees. "You mean you weren't sent over to the United States because of inbreeding?"
"Not really." I shook my head. "I ran away. I spent the entire trip terrified that someone had slipped on board behind me and would drag me over the side and back home. But nothing happened. By the time I got to Ellis Island, I realized that I'd actually done it. I escaped."
"And your parents were going to marry you off to a rapist? How sick can you get? Although..." Camille glanced at Delilah and snorted, "It sure sounds like some of the families back in Otherworld. We've got no use for people like that. You were brave to run away."
"Brave? Maybe. But not wise enough to cover my tracks once I set out for the West Coast. Hell, some of the states were still barely coming to grips with being states. The cities here were rough-and-tumble, unlike the cities back east. I didn't think anybody would ever be able to find me and as the years wore on, I grew careless." I jumped up and paced, too nervous to sit. "But now Terrance has found me and I'm terrified."
"Try to remember everything he said on the phone. I take it you don't have his number?"
I shook my head. "He has call block."
"Great. Okay, so we go from there." Camille motioned to Delilah, who pulled out her laptop and fired it up so she could take notes. "We need to know everything about Terrance. About you running away, and the Pod you ran from. You wouldn't happen to have any pictures of him, would you?"
"No, but if he looks the same as he did back then, I can describe him. I look close to what I looked like back then, so there's no reason he shouldn't as well. Though I do dye my hair because I like this color, and I wear makeup now. That was a big no no back then."
"Okay, ready. Give me a description of what he looked like the last time you saw him," Delilah said, her fingers poised over the keys.
I closed my eyes and thought back to the last time I'd seen Terry. It had been the day before our wedding, and he'd been angry. Very angry.
* * *
"What do you mean, you want to move back the wedding date?" Terry's eyes flickered, his black hair gleaming under the early-morning sun. The mist was burning off the cove and it looked like we were in for a nice day.
"I thought we could hold off. At least until the solstice. I'd like to be married on a holiday," I said, striving for some reasonable explanation. My goal: Put him off long enough to gather the money I needed for the boat ticket.
"Not going to happen," he said. "Tomorrow we marry, and then you're mine. All mine. Your family will move out of that shack, and you'll move into my house. Into my bed," he added, leering.
A goose walked over my grave and I shivered, wrapping my arms around my shoulders. "Terry, it's just another couple of weeks. Why are you so angry? You're going to get what you want, so why deny me this? Consider it a wedding present." I forced myself to look compliant and lowered my eyes so he couldn't read what I was really thinking.
But he reached out and placed his finger under my chin, tipping my head up to look me square in the face.
"I don't believe you," he said softly, leaning close. "I don't believe you for a second. I know how you feel about me and what you think of marrying me. What you don't seem to understand is that your feelings don't matter. I want you and I'm going to have you. You'll adjust, and in the meantime, I'll make sure you enjoy yourself. Trust me," he whispered, his lips bare inches from mine. "You'll love every moment of every night."
I pulled away, trying to keep my balance, but he was a tall man and broad-shouldered, with a narrow waist. As was the nature of the roane, his hair was jet-black, wavy and curling around his ears. A scar was the one blemish he had - a jagged cut on his throat that had come from when a shark had caught him by the neck. His kinsmen had swum in to save him, one of them losing his life in the process. But Terry had survived and healed up, with just the scar to remind him. Seal or human, it remained in both his forms.
I drank in the sight of him, wanting to remember his face when I was long gone and this was all like a bad dream. Terrance would be my reminder that evil sometimes wore a very pleasant body.
"Fine. We wed tomorrow," I said and pulled away. "Now leave me be. I have to start my preparations for the handfasting."
As I walked away, I forced myself to focus on the fact that I'd never have to look at him again. Never have to talk to him, listen to him, endure his touch. But to escape, I'd have to steal the money. I'd hoped to put off the wedding until I could sell a few things to earn my passage fare, but there wasn't time.
By the time I reached our house, everyone was gone. Like a common thief, I raided the secret stashes where my parents and brothers kept their money, ending up with a handful of change above and beyond the cost of my ticket.
I packed two satchels. The journey would be lean and cold until I found a home and a job, so most of what I took were clothes, food, and a few toiletries. I stopped, though, when I came to my mother's photo box. The pictures were expensive, but my mother had managed to afford a photograph of the entire family, and she had three copies of it. I pressed the photograph to my lips, kissing it gently, then slid the picture inside my satchel, in between two small books to keep it flat and unharmed.
After that, I tucked a small vial of sand from the Orkney's shores into my handbag, along with my seal skin. I'd brought the sand with me to Queenstown, and I'd take it with me to America.
As soon as I was finished packing, I scribbled a hasty farewell.
Dear Ma and Da,
I cannot go through with the marriage. I simply can't marry Terrance. I know you don't understand. I know you feel I let down the Pod and I expect you'll hate me for it. Please, don't bother looking for me, and don't let Terrance look for me either. You won't find me. Consider me dead if you like. I resign my ties to the Pod. I shall miss you all. As for Terrance, he can rot in the blackest depths of the sea and I would rejoice. Give my brothers lots of love.
-  Siobhan
I hurried toward the port and an hour later, ticket in hand, I was bustling up the gangplank. The Umbria was about to set sail and I'd secured one of the last seats. It would be an uncomfortable crossing, but in less than three weeks I'd walk off the boat, into a new life.
As the ship's horn sounded and we slowly pulled away from shore, I resolutely walked to the front of the boat. With images of my family flickering through my mind, I kept my eyes on the open water as we headed out to sea.
* * *
I looked at Camille. Her eyes were filled with sorrow and I realized that they understood. They knew why I'd lied to them. Why I'd hid behind a layer of half-truths and veiled deceptions. But still... I had to ask.
"Can you forgive me for lying to you?"
Delilah slowly hit the Save button on her file of notes. Then she called up Google and did a search on his name to see if we could find any pictures on the Web, but there were none. Pressing her lips together, she held out her hand and drew me down to sit in the chair between her and her sister.
"We understand. And Menolly... she'll probably understand best of all," she said softly. "The question is, what do we do now? Does he have the right to demand you head home with him? Is there any way he could make it stick? By human rights he can't do a damned thing to you - but the Supe Community might see it otherwise. They couldn't force you to go, but they could stand by and do nothing while he took you. Or make life miserable if you refused."
"I don't know," I said softly. "The Pod is old-fashioned. We may be the Weres who cling to tradition most. Many of the selkie and roane still don't interact with humans as much as other shifters do, and to be honest, we aren't even like most other Weres. We aren't ruled by the moon - not our shifting, at least."
Camille let out a long sigh. "The Pod could also make life a bitch for your baby, and for Mitch. Speaking of, you said you haven't told Mitch about this yet? Big mistake. You can't leave him out of this or he'll resent you for it."
I shook my head. "I'm not sure what the hell to do. We're supposed to get married as soon as the baby's born. Now I wonder, will he leave me? Will he side with the Pod?"
"You're borrowing trouble. Siobhan, I know you think solving this means just getting Terrance out of the way before anybody finds out about him, but what if he moves before we can nail him? What if he calls Mitch at work or shows up at the door?"
I knew she was right, but I couldn't even begin to think about how I was going to tell Mitch I'd fabricated a large part of my past. Sweetie, I lied to you about almost everything from my past, but it's no big deal... "No. If we find Terry first - "
Delilah dove in. "That's a big if. You have to realize that if Terrance knows your cell phone number, he's got to have done his homework. He's been stalking you for over a hundred years, and stalkers don't usually care about the feelings of their victim's loved ones."
She motioned for me to stand and - not knowing what else to do - I stood. Delilah put her arm around my shoulder and I stared up at the towering Amazon of a woman. When I first met her, she was gentle, a kitten at heart, but I could tell she'd hardened over the past year or so. Camille, too. They looked tired, weary even when they were laughing.
"Here," she said, easing me in front of the mirror in the hallway. "Look at yourself. Look at your tummy. You have a child inside there - one you came by only after a long, hard time. Are you going to put her in danger? Are you going to chance your daughter's survival because you're afraid your fiance will be angry at you?"
As I stared at my reflection, I let out a long sigh. She was right. They both were, and I had to face facts. "I'll tell Mitch tonight when he gets home."
"Good. Meanwhile, we'll nose around and see what we can find. We need to know everything you can remember about Terrance's tastes, hobbies - anything that might help us get a lead on him."
As we returned to the kitchen, I realized that this problem wasn't going to disappear just because I was in denial. I sank into my seat and began to tell them everything I could remember.
"Terry liked to fish, of course - all our men were fishermen, and most of the roane, too. After all, who knows the sea better than a selkie or roane or one of the Finfolk?"
I poured tea - caffeinated for Camille, herbal for Delilah and me - and set out a plate of shortbread. I made the best shortbread in the city; of that I was sure. Coworkers were always begging me to bring a batch to parties.
"What's the difference between the Finfolk and the selkies or roane?" Camille asked. "Back in Otherworld, selkies are considered part of the Weres rather than the Fae. But Finfolk?"
"Selkies and roane are odd among the Weres, in that we have our seal suits. We don't fully shift over like you, for example." I pointed at Delilah. "You, now, even your clothes make the shift in the form of a collar. The selkies don't have that one hundred percent transformation rate. And we don't shift on cue from the moon."
"I always wondered why."
"I have no idea," I said. "I've never known a water creature to shift fully over - at least, not a water animal, not one ruled by anything other than the Ocean Mother herself. But the Finfolk... they fully transform, but they also never take full animal form. They're part fish, part humanoid in their natural state."
"Wait - are they also called the Mere?" Camille perked up. "If so, then I understand what you're saying."
"Could be. Mermen, mermaids? They can take human form for only a short time compared to selkies - a few days in between returning to the sea. But they're..."
"Mean." Camille grimaced. "Mean, nasty, and up to no good. In Otherworld, the Mere are considered Fae, but they aren't welcome near most towns. In fact, most of our port cities have guards to watch out for them because the men are... well... a lot like Terrance. You're right - there is a resemblance there. I wonder if he has mixed blood. Roane Mere?" She gave me a look that told me she really didn't want to hear a yes.
"That would explain a lot," I said, holding my stomach. "And if that's the case, if he even has a tiny sprinkling of Mere in his blood, then he'll rip out my child and sacrifice it without hesitation. The Mere are possessive, and once they decide something - or someone - is theirs, they do everything possible to keep it that way. A child from another man would make a Mere wild with jealousy. My baby would be a sitting duck."
"Do you think there's a chance? Even a faint one?" Delilah looked up, alert. "If so, we'd better get you some protection."
I stared at the table. Could he have Finfolk blood in his veins? It couldn't be much or he'd have to be in the water more than I remembered. But then, I hadn't known him very long. We'd gone for a walk, he'd raped me, then offered to marry me to even the score. It had taken less than a month for my parents to settle with him on the wedding payment. In all that time, I'd seen him for only a few hours here and there. Just long enough to know I wanted to kill him, but not long enough to know whether he spent a lot of time cruising the waves.
"I don't know, but it's possible." I looked up. "At this point, I'm willing to believe anything."
"Why don't you show me your computer?" Delilah said.
I led her into the living room where we kept the desk with the computer on it. "Here it is - but why?"
"Because I want to check for spyware, for Trojans, for worms, for anything he might have sent you. There are so many ways to hack into someone's computer that it's scary. And if he's after all the information on you he can find..." She left the thought unfinished but I saw what she was getting at.
I curled up on the sofa, not wanting to know how far Terry had insinuated himself into my life without me realizing it. As I sat there, watching Delilah tap away at the keys, the reality of what was happening began to hit home. Terrance was really back in my life.
I glanced at the clock. Mitch should be home soon and I'd have to tell him what happened. "Can you guys stick around and help me explain?" I looked at Camille, as I picked at the hangnail on my thumb. "I know you're busy but I just..."
"You're afraid," she said. "Not of Mitch, but of what he might say?"
I nodded. "I lied to him. Not fully, but I sure didn't tell him everything. And I know he'll understand but what if... what if..."
"What if he doesn't?"
Again, I nodded. "What if he decides to leave me? To leave his child?"
"That's not going to happen," Delilah said. "Mitch is - Hello, what do we have here? Siobhan, has your computer been running a little slow lately?"
I frowned, thinking back. Mitch mainly used it to play World of Warcraft with his buddies, but I checked my e mail, did a little online shopping, kept my diary on it.
"Yeah, it has. For about a month. Mitch said maybe we need to defrag it but I'm not sure what that means. I can use Outlook and I can write in my journal and surf the Web but I don't know much else about how a computer runs."
"E-mail? Do you get a lot of spam mail?" She frowned, tapping away at the keys.
"Gods, yes. I delete probably fifty a day."
"You should get Gmail. It has to work better than what you're using right now. You say you do a lot of online shopping? What about online banking?" Delilah looked worried now, the black crescent scythe tattoo on her forehead flashing silver.
"Yeah, why?" I sat up. "What's wrong?"
"I think..." she started to say, then paused and moved the mouse a few more times. "I think you've been hacked. There are a few processes going on in your task manager that I don't recognize and they look suspicious to me."
"Oh great gods, do you think Terrance is responsible?"
She shrugged. "Could be. I'm not positive that I'm right, though. I'd like to call Tim Winthrop over to take a look. He'd be able to tell better than me. Do you mind?"
Tim was a good friend of the D'Artigos. He was a female impersonator, though I heard he was giving it up, and he'd recently married his long term partner, Jason Binds. Mitch and I'd been invited to the wedding.
"Sure, go ahead."
As Delilah flipped open her cell phone, I glanced at the clock again. Mitch should have called by now. I turned around, kneeling on the sofa to stare out the window at the rain thundering against the pavement.
Something was wrong. I could feel it in my bones. I had a sudden, intense urge to head out to the Sound, to slip on my skin and dive deep in the water, seeking shelter in the depths of the inlet. Every time I felt threatened, that was the first thing that came to mind - hide, run to the Ocean Mother's bosom, and let her hold me tight.
"Tim will be over in about half an hour," Delilah said, breaking my thoughts. "He's bringing all his diagnostic gear with him. If anybody can figure out what's going on with your computer, he can."
Camille picked up the tea tray and carried it into the kitchen. "I'll make us some more tea," she said.
"Thank you. Everything feels so surreal. I can't believe this is happening - " I was cut off by the phone ringing. Mitch! It had to be him. I grabbed the handset and punched the Talk button. "Hello? Mitch?"
The voice on the other end was one I didn't recognize. A woman, she sounded professional, and yet there was something about her voice that scared me. "Am I speaking to Siobhan Morgan?"
"Yes... Who's calling?" Suspicion suddenly hit me in the gut. What if she was working with Terry; what if -
"My name is Amanda Bernard and I'm a nurse with InterLake Hospital. I'm calling about a Mr. Mitchell Childs. Do you know him?"
Hospital? Mitch? Oh hell.
"He's my fiance. We live together. What's wrong? Is he okay?" Panic replaced suspicion and I stiffened, trying not to cry. The hormones from being pregnant sure weren't helping me to remain calm.
"Mr. Childs has been injured. We need you to come in and give us information on his medical background. He seems to be part of the Supernatural Community. We have an Otherworld healer on hand - an elfin doctor - but we can use any background information you can give us. He needs treatment now."
"He's a selkie. Tell the doctor that. I'll be there as fast as I can." Choking back tears, I added, "Is he... Is the injury serious? What can you tell me?"
Her voice was soft as she said, "You should be prepared. He's been extensively injured. I won't mince words, Ms. Morgan. He's in serious condition, though we aren't sure as to just what extent. He's unconscious at the moment. We found your name in his wallet as his emergency contact."
I hung up, a searing heat racing through me. The man I was in love with was lying in the hospital and I had the horrible feeling that it hadn't been an accident. I turned mutely to Camille and Delilah.
Camille turned off the stove. "I'll take you to the hospital. Delilah, you stay here and wait for Tim." She held up my jacket and I silently let her tuck me into it; then she gathered up my purse and pushed me gently out the door.
"Where is he?"
"InterLake Hospital," I said, trying to find my voice.
She slid me into the passenger seat of her Lexus and I fumbled for the seat belt as she jumped in the driver's seat. "Breathe, Siobhan. He's alive, and he's under medical care. I want you to get my cell phone out of my purse and look for Chase Johnson's number under my contact list. Tell him you're with me, and who you are, and ask him to bring Sharah and meet us at the hospital."
I followed directions, mouthing the words, hearing Chase's concerned voice on the other end, and then hung up. Camille didn't say anything else; she just focused on navigating through the heavy rain while I stared out the window, remembering the first time I realized I had fallen in love with Mitch Childs.