I’ve had years of practice.
I glance at the man beside me and frown. I’ll have to tell Dad we have a survivor. Announce it to him in a way that twists the idea of taking a prisoner into something advantageous to him.
Maybe I can make him believe the man is a trophy guaranteed to improve our standing within the village? Someone the elders can question so we can get current news about things happening in the northern city-states—the ones we rarely hear about?
Dad might go for that.
“I’ve been thinking,” I say.
“Who gave you permission to do that?” Dad asks, yanking an arrow from the forehead of a man to my left.
I set my jaw, and continue calmly. “The elders are so used to us protecting the borders, they’ve forgotten to appreciate the service we provide.”
Dad straightens abruptly, and I feel the heat of his glare even though darkness shadows his features. “What are you talking about, boy? We’re respected.”
“We’re feared.”
“What’s the difference? The elders know that if they don’t pay us our due, we could let the next band of scavengers destroy the village.”
Actually, I think the elders are afraid that if they don’t pay us our due, we could slit their throats as they sleep. But I don’t say that.
“They don’t realize we can be valuable for more than this.” I gesture at the bodies scattered across the forest floor. Sensing movement from the man behind me, I speak louder. “What if we brought them a prisoner? Someone who had information about what’s going on in the northern city-states? Surely providing a prisoner for them to question would be worth more money and more respect.”
Dad doesn’t have a chance to answer. Instead, the man behind me moans, a guttural sound of pain that instantly ends the discussion.
I close my eyes and feel sick as Dad steps past me.
“We got ourselves a survivor,” he says, kicking the man in the stomach.
Willow climbs over the body of a man at the edge of the clearing and heads our way. The sickness in me spreads.
“He’s unarmed. We could bring him to the elders—”
“We don’t take prisoners, Quinn.” The note of finality in Dad’s voice warns me not to argue. “Now, I’ve had my fun for the night. Who wants him?”
Bending closer to the ground, I plunge my gloved hand into the snow so I can scrub the arrow clean.
I can’t convince Dad to take the man prisoner. Either I stand back and let this unfold in front of me, or I defy my father and give the man a quick death. Dread sinks heavily into the pit of my stomach as I consider my meager choices.
Dad hauls the man to his knees and balances him against his legs as Willow comes to stand beside me. Slowly, I get to my feet and hand her the arrow.
“Come on. Which one of you wants him?” Dad’s tone is less pleasant now. We’ve taken too long to respond to his generous offer. His eyes slide past me and rest on Willow. I’m hurtling toward the inevitable. I see it in the way he smiles at her, the way she’s already shrugged off the carnage behind her, the curiosity on her face as she assesses the injured man.
I look in her eyes, and I see my father peeking through.
How many more can she kill outside the heat of battle before she forgets to remember they’re human? Before the coldness that lurks inside of her takes over?
My pulse pounds, and my skin feels flushed. I was wrong. Those who protect their sisters even if it costs them everything aren’t brave. They’re desperate.
Willow says, “I’ll take him.”
“He’s mine.” I shoulder my way in front of her, my knife already in my hand. My heart feels like a stone carved into my chest. The truth that bloomed inside of me moments ago wilts beneath the realization that I can kill an unarmed man if it means my sister doesn’t have to.
“Oh, ho! Look who suddenly has a taste for blood.” Dad’s laughter clings to me like a disease.
“Hey! I claimed him!” Willow says.
I can ignore them both. But I can’t ignore the pleading in the eyes of the man on his knees. His gaze burns into me, another black mark on my soul.
I swallow, though there’s no spit left in my mouth, and raise my knife. Better my soul than Willow’s. At least mine still knows how to feel guilt.
“How do you want him?” Dad asks, and pulls the man to his feet. The man struggles briefly against Dad’s grip. “Looks like he’s got some life in him yet. Maybe we should let him run. Give him a little head start before you hunt him down. Been a while since you’ve done any decent hunting at night.”
The dread crawling through me bites the back of my throat. This isn’t a game. This is someone’s life.
Willow steps forward, and I block her with my body. Dad releases the man.
“Run, you worthless scavenger! Run!” Dad laughs again, and tosses one of his knives to Willow as she tries to get past me again. “Both of you can hunt him. May the best one win.”
I close the distance between myself and the highwayman in two steps and slice my blade through his throat before he can move. He stumbles back, half raises one hand to his throat, and then crumples. His blood gushes onto the ground, a fast-blooming rose consuming the snow beneath him. I turn away and struggle to breathe past the sudden tightness in my chest.
“What was that?” Dad strides forward and slams his fist into my chest. “What was that, Quinn? What?”
I glance at the man beside me and frown. I’ll have to tell Dad we have a survivor. Announce it to him in a way that twists the idea of taking a prisoner into something advantageous to him.
Maybe I can make him believe the man is a trophy guaranteed to improve our standing within the village? Someone the elders can question so we can get current news about things happening in the northern city-states—the ones we rarely hear about?
Dad might go for that.
“I’ve been thinking,” I say.
“Who gave you permission to do that?” Dad asks, yanking an arrow from the forehead of a man to my left.
I set my jaw, and continue calmly. “The elders are so used to us protecting the borders, they’ve forgotten to appreciate the service we provide.”
Dad straightens abruptly, and I feel the heat of his glare even though darkness shadows his features. “What are you talking about, boy? We’re respected.”
“We’re feared.”
“What’s the difference? The elders know that if they don’t pay us our due, we could let the next band of scavengers destroy the village.”
Actually, I think the elders are afraid that if they don’t pay us our due, we could slit their throats as they sleep. But I don’t say that.
“They don’t realize we can be valuable for more than this.” I gesture at the bodies scattered across the forest floor. Sensing movement from the man behind me, I speak louder. “What if we brought them a prisoner? Someone who had information about what’s going on in the northern city-states? Surely providing a prisoner for them to question would be worth more money and more respect.”
Dad doesn’t have a chance to answer. Instead, the man behind me moans, a guttural sound of pain that instantly ends the discussion.
I close my eyes and feel sick as Dad steps past me.
“We got ourselves a survivor,” he says, kicking the man in the stomach.
Willow climbs over the body of a man at the edge of the clearing and heads our way. The sickness in me spreads.
“He’s unarmed. We could bring him to the elders—”
“We don’t take prisoners, Quinn.” The note of finality in Dad’s voice warns me not to argue. “Now, I’ve had my fun for the night. Who wants him?”
Bending closer to the ground, I plunge my gloved hand into the snow so I can scrub the arrow clean.
I can’t convince Dad to take the man prisoner. Either I stand back and let this unfold in front of me, or I defy my father and give the man a quick death. Dread sinks heavily into the pit of my stomach as I consider my meager choices.
Dad hauls the man to his knees and balances him against his legs as Willow comes to stand beside me. Slowly, I get to my feet and hand her the arrow.
“Come on. Which one of you wants him?” Dad’s tone is less pleasant now. We’ve taken too long to respond to his generous offer. His eyes slide past me and rest on Willow. I’m hurtling toward the inevitable. I see it in the way he smiles at her, the way she’s already shrugged off the carnage behind her, the curiosity on her face as she assesses the injured man.
I look in her eyes, and I see my father peeking through.
How many more can she kill outside the heat of battle before she forgets to remember they’re human? Before the coldness that lurks inside of her takes over?
My pulse pounds, and my skin feels flushed. I was wrong. Those who protect their sisters even if it costs them everything aren’t brave. They’re desperate.
Willow says, “I’ll take him.”
“He’s mine.” I shoulder my way in front of her, my knife already in my hand. My heart feels like a stone carved into my chest. The truth that bloomed inside of me moments ago wilts beneath the realization that I can kill an unarmed man if it means my sister doesn’t have to.
“Oh, ho! Look who suddenly has a taste for blood.” Dad’s laughter clings to me like a disease.
“Hey! I claimed him!” Willow says.
I can ignore them both. But I can’t ignore the pleading in the eyes of the man on his knees. His gaze burns into me, another black mark on my soul.
I swallow, though there’s no spit left in my mouth, and raise my knife. Better my soul than Willow’s. At least mine still knows how to feel guilt.
“How do you want him?” Dad asks, and pulls the man to his feet. The man struggles briefly against Dad’s grip. “Looks like he’s got some life in him yet. Maybe we should let him run. Give him a little head start before you hunt him down. Been a while since you’ve done any decent hunting at night.”
The dread crawling through me bites the back of my throat. This isn’t a game. This is someone’s life.
Willow steps forward, and I block her with my body. Dad releases the man.
“Run, you worthless scavenger! Run!” Dad laughs again, and tosses one of his knives to Willow as she tries to get past me again. “Both of you can hunt him. May the best one win.”
I close the distance between myself and the highwayman in two steps and slice my blade through his throat before he can move. He stumbles back, half raises one hand to his throat, and then crumples. His blood gushes onto the ground, a fast-blooming rose consuming the snow beneath him. I turn away and struggle to breathe past the sudden tightness in my chest.
“What was that?” Dad strides forward and slams his fist into my chest. “What was that, Quinn? What?”
